Sinister25's blog: "My Passion"

I hope someday, I'll be happy, To be held tight, Made to feel right, I hope. I hope someday, I'll be cared for, To be cheer'd for, Made to feel compassion, I hope. I hope someday, I'll be touched, To be kissed, Made to feel special, I hope. I hope someday, I'll be loved, To be worth it, Made to feel I deserve it, I hope. I hope someday, I'll have that special someone, To hold, Made to feel whole, I hope. I hope these things will come to be... Until then I'm just me. Empty.

Tearing, Ripping, Burning, Pain without love. Consuming, Overwhelming, Torturing, Pain without love. Sickening, Disturbing, Twisted, Pain without love. Love is pain, It always stays the same. I try to change it, I try to bend it, Pain without love. Love is pain, It always stays the same. I try to deal with it, I try to conceal it, Pain without love. Love is pain, It always stays the same. I try to accept it, I try to bless it, Pain without love. It has consumed me to the point of death.

Thinking about the past again, Realizing what could have been and what will never be. The following is a very touchy subject for me... I recently found out not to long ago the woman I was with miscarried my twin girls, It tears me up inside to even think about it. When I first found out she was pregnant it made me the happiest person in the world. I couldn't have asked for a better person to be the mother of my children. Then I had it pulled away from me just like everything else has been done to me. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm suppost to be happy. Maybe in another life I treated people very badly and now I am suppost to suffer for it all now... Who knows.

I crave a kiss, One that I should of never had. Now it torments me, It consumes me. The pain I feel is oh so real, Like a knife slicing through my flesh. This kiss torments me, It consumes me. I fear what I may never have, Even though I want it so bad. Now it torments me, It consumes me. I wish every night, That some how things will become right. This kiss torments me, It consumes me. I ask for this pain to end, Or will it be the end of me. Now it torments me, It consumes me... To The End.

You opened my eyes, Made me realize, That's Love. You held me tight, Even when I didn't feel right, That's Love. When life would get me down, You wouldn't let me frown, That's Love. Although I cried, You stood by my side, That's Love. No matter how hard I tried, You wouldn't let me die, That's Love. When things seemed like a haze, You helped me through the maze, That's Love. This life has seemed like a daze, Even still I'm amazed, That's Love. You showed me a way, To look for better days, That's Love.