so my mind is wondering again and i hate when it does that. i was told recently that i was good at repelling unwanted men and that the reason i'm good at that is because i don't look them in the eyes. i didn't say much to respond to that but i have to confess that thats nor entirely true. i don't look people in the eyes because i don't want them to see my pain, anger and hate. i'm afraid that they will see my weakness and take advantage of that. well most people do anyways so what the hell! also i once saw myself in someones eyes and i saw myself fade from his eyes and trust me it's not a good thing. my uncle use to tell me that my eyes sparkled and shined, they haven't done that in a long time. they tried to but i guess it just wasn't enough to keep them shining. yea so this is what is going through my wonderful mind tonight. don't you all just wanna live in my mind?
