DJ BULLSEYE's blog: "WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER"

The first time we talked, it was like I was talking to someone who knew what love meant. We knew from the time we first laid eyes on one another that this was going to be different. We are unique from one another, and I know that’s why we grow more and more closely together. We do fight and we do get on one another, but we still have a way of showing how much we care for one another. And honestly, I believe we ride each others ass to do things because its not just what we got to do, and because we cant take the easy way out anymore, its because we are trying to make this work out so bad because we both know how much the other one of us feels for you or for me.

I know I’m not the best guy out there, and I know I’m not all hot shit, but I what is out there for me. I can’t imagine what or where or who I would be with if I wasn’t with you. You’re my guardian angel and you are my hero. There is no one or anything that I could cherish more than I do you. I can say “I’m Sorry,” or “I Love You,” a million times and it wont ever grow old. But a person can apologize forever about something, and it will or can grow tiring to hear. But I will remember the day I fell in love with you.

(It was a long day and I just signed back onto yahoo, and we been talking for about 2 to 3 weeks, and I knew that I was falling in love with you hardcore and in a hurry. I let you see my feelings out on my sleeve for you all the time instead of hiding them within me. Unlike most females that I have dated, you knew the meaning of the words “Alone” and especially the word” Hurt.” That drew me in even more. The more you wanted to know about me or get with me, just made everything seem so perfect. So that evening, right before we both headed to bed, I told that I love you and you said it back.)

That was the day my heart ran faster and stronger cause you not only made my day, but you inserted your love into my heart. Now I grow more and more alone without you by my side. Ever since that night, my life was so fucked up, so turned upside down, that I couldn’t seem to understand why this relationship never seemed to go the way we planned.

They say love hurts; it does, but not like it does now. We are apart and it drives me to the point I want to give up on whatever I may be doing at that moment to just pack my shit up and start hiking it to you. This life that we are starting together was never meant to be spent away from one another. It was meant to be with one another till the day we die.

All I know is that you’re the beat to my heart and you are the one and only who has the dog tags that I bled on in Iraq. If that isn’t telling you something, I guess I will just have to find another way of proving that my love for you is as strong as I say it is. Just know that every day I wake up with a bad attitude cause I wake up in a bed alone, I wake up in the middle of the night cause your not there, and I got to cry myself asleep anymore cause I don’t have my future wife by my side. You will always be in my heart and I feel that everyday, but I want the physical knowledge that your standing next to me smile and starring off into my eyes and you kiss me and tell me that you love me.

My dream came true the day I met you, and I thank god every day for sending you as my guardian angel. You were through hell and back and yet your still fighting another day. Your one of the strongest women that I ever known in my entire life and I don’t want a little spoiled brat telling me to buy her things. I want because your strong mentally to keep me in line and motivated enough to push it through another day.

These are just a few things that I can lay off my shoulders and say that I am proud and honored to have someone like you as my fiancé, my love, my strength, my motivation, the mother of our child, my inspiration, my hero, and most of all, the beat in my heart that will never stop beating. I love you so much baby, that I’m honestly starting to let a few tears out right now, because this is about us and we both know that this is the truth. But just think about what I’ve said and let it come into your heart like you have came into mine. I love you so so SO much Tasha, and I will never stop loving you…

Your fiancé, your man, your soldier, whatever you want to call me,

Joey