to my grandmother.........i never thanked you for all that you have done for me......you are my angel from up above..... that comes down when i really need you.....you showed me love and respect......you supported me when noone else did.....i remember the stories that you told me...even though i didn't really understand you but my heart did......you made me realize that life is worth living for......that someday i will find love......to find a man that will love me for me.....and you have showed me where to find him...i want to thank you for him.....you told me that is ok to be with him.....because you know he needs me......you knew that he won't hurt me...you knew he will love me for me.....and that you saw that he needed love.....so you lead me to him.....you knew that i could show him unconditional love.....but i miss u soo much.....that i have tried to take my own life to be with you...to be there by your side.......but you have told me that i can't come with you that i will be with you when it is time......
to my unlce....whom i love soo dearly.....Evertt...i know that you have a daughter that we all love....and will do anything for.....to help her with anything...she needs....i wanna thank you for showing me that love can be for anyone and anything......but to have respect for your parents.....even the wrongs they have done in there life......reflects upon you.....only you can choose if you wanna forget and forgive......you have showed me how to be strong....at any given time....things can happen unexpectedly........
......to my uncle.....whom miss dearly.....nelson..i never knew you that much because i was just alittle girl.....but i feel the pain as others feel.....not knowing who you are i feel that you are with me everyday watching...you have showed me that even you can love someone that you never knew.....and that you can feel others pain.....and cry when you want to to be there for one another...and never give up on them......you have also showed me that love and support from family to family, person to person.....can mean alot to one another........
....to my unlce wilson....that i miss soo dearly....you have showed me that having fun is a part of life......you can have fun til however you want it to last.....but for you it was everyday....you showed me to make each day count as fun.....that you can at least have fun even on a gloomy day....you were always the funny one...but most caring.......i cry when i see your picture of your smiling face......holding your fun in your hands....passing it on to me......giving me the chance to feel the fun......
to a very good friend of mine that i have known for along time....Albert Mike Lee......we all miss you...you have left too early...you have showed me that sometimes life can be too short to live and not knowing what is going to happen next.......the day i heard that you left.....i cried for a whole week.....i miss you so much.....just remembering that morning before the day you left you got ice cream when it was hella cold out....and that you smiled and got shy when i said that it was too cold for ice cream and asked you if you were enjoying it.....lol.....i loved you...but i knew that i couldn't be with you because i was too young......you were the kind of guy that could treat a girl so right....i wanted to be that girl.....i cried my heart out for you....i..keep your picture with me......so i won't forget what kind of guy i want.......to see you standing there smiling.....brings tears to my eyes....i still wonder if we could have been together...cuz i knew that i loved you.....but you were taken away from me...that was one of the reasons why i tried to take my life was to be with you too.......to this day i still have my love for you........
to my recent lost that i still can't bare....to my loving cousin......Sherard Harvey....i have known not to long but it feels as though i have known you for a life time.....you have shown me that family is very important...but the one you love is put above the rest....that you would fight for your love....and not to take shit from others...and how to stand up for yourself and for others......i can still remember the birthday party that you have given me for my 21st birthday.....lol....i was so wasted.....but you took care of me....that you watched over me like a brother does...thats how i see you as a brother.....i love you....yet you too left too early........but i know you can still see your children grow up.....and that you are their gaurdian angel......and make sure that they don't do wrong....and to keep them from harm.....to this day i still cry.....the day i heard that you left i couldn't breathe....a feeling that i have felt more then once.....but to have you know that i miss you......
i have lost my grandmother who has taught me to be who i am....and that has shown me love and has lead me to my love..(yes thats you baby...JOSH....)
i have lost 3 of my uncles....one that has shown me to respect my parents even if they have done alot of wrongs in their lives......that its not my job to judge.....
another....that has showed me that even though the ones that you never knew....can have you feel that persons lost...and to show support to them when they need it....
my third uncle...he has showed me that life can have a part of fun in it as well....and that you can pass that fun on to another...no matter what kind of day it is....
i have lost a love...that i never told him how i felt...til it was too...late.....this told me that if you love someone to let them know because you never know that it can be the last of them you will ever see........
i have lost a dear cousin that has showed me that family is the most important prize that you can ever have...and its worth standing up for.....no matter what...and not to take shit from anyone else.......
....I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND MISS EVERYONE AND EACH OF YOU.....
R.I.P:
LUCILLE N. BEGAY
EVERT N.BEGAY
NELSON NOCKI
WILSON N.BEGAY
ALBERT MIKE LEE (I STILL LOVE YOU)
SHERARD HARVEY
