countryheartbreaklady88's blog: "my life "

used to listen, when you said you would always be there.
I sit and think about all the times we had together, and how I thought I
used to love you, when you used to care.
I'd last through any weather.
but when the our storm came you left at the first sight of rain, leaving me here
to deal with all this pain.
I sat there crying thinking what did I do wrong, I looked to my mother who said (baby stay strong).
so I wiped my tears and begin a new, new me, new life, and happiness without you.
someday you'll miss me, but it will be to late for us to be.
you didn't know what you were missing but now you do, calling me crying saying baby I love you.
I love you too that's why I'm letting you go, I'm a hell of a good woman it's too bad it took you this long to know.
what we had is in the past, it's a reason we didn't last.
but whenever you get discouraged about why we're through, just look in the mirror
because it's all on you...
I hope next time you learn from your mistakes, and when that girl needs you do what ever it takes.
always remember this I love you but I love me more, I had to learn that when you walked out the door

This whispering pain comes over me again, It can’t be stopped with the pills I’ve popped, It can’t be eased my heart has simply seized. Life is so cruel you’ve taken my jewel, My precious one my tiny baby son. He was born asleep with no soul to keep, For God to hold never to grow old. This whispering pain comes over me again, It say’s your tough you’ve cried enough, It says let go of the life you’ll never know, Let it run free then you will see, The pain you hold will make you so cold, It’ll suck you dry so you can not cry, Flow through your veins like the winter rains. This whispering pain comes over me again. It says you see he was not meant to be, Not strong enough for a life so rough,
All I ask is to have a mask, To hide away the pain of each day, To make me strong So I can sing my song, Of my beautiful baby boy who will fill heaven full of joy.