This year has really not been nice to me at all.
I am going to make this long story as short as possiable.
I was going to get a divorce early part of this yr.He and I got back together to try and work it out,things werent working out after two months and I was going to leave again, he had no idea of my plans.A week before I was planning to leave,he was told by his doctor to get to the hospital because he might have a blood clot in his lungs, so we went to the hospital, he was admitted in June. Not only did he have a blood clot we also found out he had a huge tumor growing on his Right kidney, it took the doctors 2 weeks to figuar out what they planed to do about it.They all decited surgery was best.They removed his right kidney, both his adrenal glands and his spleem. He came through the surgery just great, all seemedto be going well.
In August the chemo doctor was suppose to start him on chemo or radation but decited to give it 2 more months,said he had a spot on his 7th rib on his right side of his body and it was growing, we decited to get another opinion. The 2nd opinion was the same as the first(NOT GOOD)
Now we are getting very close to him having to go back to the chemo doctor again, He goes to have another CT this Thursday and sees the chemo doctor on Monday. The Doctors have told us the chemo may be bad for him because his heart might not be strong enough to handle it and he is not phycally fit to handle it and to radatate it would be risky because it is so close to his lungs.
He has been complaining his back is burning right in the spot where the tumor is growing.I am so scared for him and also for myself, he is only 57.
I also have a sister who has been surviving cancer for 17 yrs now and they said her cancer is back, she just moved this passed weekend to go back home close to our parents so she can die,she refused to go through the chemo or radation again.
I just don't know how much more of this I can take.I am hangin in there.
Thanks to all of you that have taken the time to read this blog.
xoxox Sweet Pea
