BrokenHalo's blog: "My Krazy Life....."

I havent blogged in a few days,everything going well,except the fact im realizing Im married and in love with my best friend......enough said !!!!!

Ok,We talked alot last night and got everything out in the open,he realizes that i(in my crazy little mind)think of his as my BF and that I wish I could have him..ok part of me does but yet I dont wanna leave my hubby so im gonna leave things as it is and realize that i can still have my cake and eat it too...LOL....xoxo

Ok I am so mad i could scream...here we are having a nice fun conversation on the phone and she freakin calls so im blown off for the threat...i dont even think he wants her...i broke down and asked him today if i was his type and he said yes...see we had this conversation a few months back and he said i wasnt his gf type and so i asked him today if things were different in my life if i was his type and he said yes.....BUT he cut me off to talk to a girl he thinks is blowing off his freakin phone calls....GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just dont know anymore.im so so confused,the first thing i told him a year ago is im not looking for a bf or soeone to replace my hubby,then i crossed the line and we became best friends and the attention kept pouring in from him and i knew he was that type and i was chancing hanging with him after his gf dumped him cause 2 rules of FWB that me and my girl stand by are 1.dont fall for the guy and 2 don't stay with a single man and i did both....well he isnt my type and thats the thing and he tells me im not his type but yet we are so so close and tonight when we were talking like always he was kinda bummed cause he doesnt think the girl is opening up to him...well he thinks bout me so so much maybe he isnt letting her and she scensing it(spelled wrong)and he said he was mad cause she wont open up and he cant have me...so anyways im confused...xoxo

Ok i think I will admit I am obsessed with my best friend...well first off his date went well....but the butthead was on a date with HER...and thinking bout taking me the the fair in Jacksonville....ok im kinda touched but who in their right mind goes on a date with 1 chick and thinks of another(he said he didnt know why he was thinking of me)...ok yes we talk and talk and talk.....ok we talk anywhere from 1 to 2 hours a night(during the week)and he told me he kissed her but only cause i told him to kiss her and see if there were fireworks...he told me(dont laugh he said)that her kiss tasted like puke(GROSS !!!!!)at least i care enough to chew gum so my kisses are sweet and minty all the time...LOL...he said they dont have much to talk bout when they meet...ok i knew him a little over a yr now and we never NEVER run out of things to talk bout(we talked over 3500 minutes last month) or do....i go over there and hang for up to 13 hours and we have fun,his date was over in maybe 4 hours cause her mommy wanted her home(the date was over by 5)...the chick is over 18...so whatever LOL...ok this is just another little chapter in my soap opera life.....xoxo

Ok he on his 2nd date and I will so kick her A*S if she hurts him.....im very protective of my friends and i might be cute and innocent but I am also a B*TCH....XOXO

ok,i decided im gonna start blogging...im not a bad person just i guess confused and maybe some comments from people i dont know will help...if not give you guys something to read......ok where to begin.... Ok im not gonna lie...i once was very very..i dont wanna say slutty but ok i lacked attention at home...i been with the same man for almost 18 yrs.we got 2 great kids but my life sux....i cant even as much as talk to friends with him around so i went elsewhere for attention..... Bout a yr and a half ago,he up and moved away leaving me behind to choose to either move or stay in my town..i chose to move away from my friends cause he was here with my kids...so new life(i dont deal good with change)so it was fine for a few months then bout a yr ago i met this guy(on AFF)sounds bad i know but i was bored and looking again for the attention i craved...well i didnt realize when i found a boytoy i found a Best friend....i didnt relize i waited a lifetime for a friend like him...we were each others shoulder to cry on when my life at home was bad and his life was falling apart.....we were extremely close....BEST FRIENDS..... We changed each other for the good,well recently he decided to start dating again(his gf of 3 yrs broke up with him last yr)Well he always told me noone would ever come between us...I was #1 in his life,his best friend forever...so once he went on his 1st date with this new threat to me,he told her upfront bout me and she is was kool with it...she is fine with mine and his relationship but as much as i tell him im ok with her im not...i am unsure if im more afraid of losing his friendship or stopping what we do...he gives me more than everything i always wanted......So i wish i knew what was wrong with me !!!!!!!!!!!!