DJ KITTEN Owner of Kittens Saloon's blog: "My Feelings"

Take my WILL, And my LIFE, Guide me in my RECOVERY And show me how to LIVE. CLEAN. Don't give up, keep going back it works..... 2 years,2 months,and 25 days clean.

t's 2008, a time to start anew, and there's so much that you can do to make your new year dreams come true. Every day, focus on your many gifts, and share your love and laughter, to give others a lift. Find something extraordinary about every single day, and don't let disappointment stand in the way. Think of the new year as a time of adventure and learning; don't be afraid to follow your dreams, and success will be your earnings. But don't forget to have some fun along the way, and do something special just for you every single day. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!......

"Intrusion" Why can’t I just be left alone? They knock on the door and call on the phone. They’ll peek in the window, given a chance. You haven’t the resources to make a stance. You leave your home-everyone knows. Everywhere you go the traffic slows. Disguises are so easy to see thru. Your life is a book for others to view. Careful of where you go and the things you say, Everything you do seems on display. You’ve tried to make this a positive day. But those prying eyes always get in the way. Someone saw you here, someone saw you there; When someone hasn’t seen you it’s rare. Day after day, when does it end? When can I be myself instead of pretend? Another day over, or has it just begun? At one time my life was much more fun. I close my eyes in search of peace. Will the intrusion in my life ever cease?

"Tenderness" Love sparkles in your eyes, like the twinkle of the stars in the skies, your heart, my everlasting prize, our connection of insurmountable size. Deep, like a river, is our love, blessed by the heavens above, our relationship, fitting like a glove, no better partner in life can I think of. Thank you for your sweet caress, thank you for our times of happiness, our feelings we must confess, are of warmth and tenderness.

"Colors" Colors of the rainbow come about in the afternoon We hope love comes very soon, Colors is in our clothes shows who we are As people see us from afar, Colors we see in our eyes Are windows to the souls of life, Colors make us Artists and some want-to-bes Whats inside us wants to be free, What comes out is what we want to see.

"Why this Man" I don't know what I do wrong Or why my life is so long, I've been waiting for the man that I have now Don't know why I got so lucky somehow, God knew just what I needed to hold To keep my heart from growing old and cold, This man loves me so I always wonder in my mind How he could be loving and kind, When I don't know what I did or said To make him trun his head, How could he look at me Cause I surely don't know what he could see, I wish I only knew what or why Cause I hope its not one big lie, Don't want to wish upon a dream Cause life is full of scream, So I thank God day and night Hope he always loves me and stays in my sight.

Love Conquers All Feels like the end when you're closer to loosing your dreams than loosing a friend flying blind I will take another shot in the dark who will I find and if it takes all my life I swear I can deal with every strife on my way tomorrow I will try again soon I will forget the pain of another rejection words can't speak of the feelings of pain they linger on and on and if it takes me a life time I will know it was worth every heart ache some where there is a place in your heart where the pain just lingers well I know the feeling all to well but love conquers all.

"So Why" I've always wonder why I was put on this earth I have thought about it since birth, My dreams of family have trully come Just when I thought that I was done, So why am I ment to do the things I need to And why am I always in love with you, My hopes of being the only one in his life Has done nothing but cut me like a knife, Cause there is always another in the back of his mind Ex lover, or just a friend of some kind, I try not to think of the past But I have a feeling that this wont last, I just pray that my life is real That anyone person don't have hate that they feel, Cause in the end Its all how you treat a friend.

Today has been one of those days when nothing seems to go right. I feel like my best friend died kind of day. It feels like that everyone that I know just doesnt like me for some reason yes I get these days sometimes one is worse then another, but some how I get through it. I have been clean from Drugs now going on 22 months. Feb.17 2006 is my NA birthday. Yes it has been a very long road for me. One day at a time is how I have been taking things. Chating here in this Blog has given me a way to talk about what and how I feel. I dont mean to sound ungreatful because I am not. I am very thanksful for that people that I have in my life. Just sometimes it is hard to talk to them because they can be so.......... Whats the word that I am looking for ______?. Anyways thanks for letting me share here. Being clean without a sponcer is hard but at the momment I feel like I cant trust anyone to help me. Yes I do have my Higher Power to help lead me the right way. I guess that is something that I have to work on is trusting people, I have always been the one that everyone comes to with the problems to help fix...... I guess it is time that I start fixing mine first ....... thanks for your time in reading this HONEY

"Friendship" If a kiss was a raindrop, I'd send you showers. If a hug was a second, I'd send you hours. If a smile was water, I'd send you the sea. If friendship was a person, I'd send you me..... "Today is a new day." It is time that I start living for today. Not yesterday because it is done gone, and not tomorrow because you dont know if it will ever come. So I have started living like this is my last min. I am to live like the breath that I take this very min may just be my very last. Dont live with regret learn and then let go. For we cant change the past but we can change the here and now. All that I have to say is dont be the one to cast the first stone for the house you break may just be your very own.... Wise words to live by: My Grandmother told me that and I never understood it till after she had passed away, and I never got the chance to tell her thank you for passing on the wisdom that she had and shared so proudly.. So I do it today " thank you Grandma without you I would not have made it this far." "Died For Love" In a school I knew so well a boy I loved so swell, Came and took my heart from me now he wants to set it free, He met a girl that he didn't know and told her that he loved her so, One day he sat her on his knee and told her the things that he once told me, I went home to cry in bed not a word to my mother was said, My father came home late that night and searched for me left and right, Finally through the door he broke to find me hanging from a rope, "Oh daughter dear what have you done you killed yourself for one mans son". He got a knife and cut me down and on my dresser this note was found, "Dig my grave and dig it deep marble stone from head to feet, And at the top please place a Dove to show the world I Died for Love". "I Love You" Writen in pen sealed with a kiss if you love me listen to this, Of all the guys I've ever met your the one I love the best, Your heart is like a lump of gold hard to get hard to hold, I once had a heart so kind and true now it's gone since I met you, If I go to heaven and your not there I'll write your name on the golden stairs, Give the angels back their wings golden harps and all these things, Just to prove my love for you I'll go to hell to be with you. P.S. "I Love You"