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My brother james died today. i havnt cryed at all yet. my bothers friends and my friend cady came over. she any my family balled there eyes out. it happend so fast. my body feels so weak and nimb. i dont know what to do. he also has a page on here. it is so sad. i cant hardly breath. i need help.

You wont be his first, his last or his only. He's loved before, he will love again but if he loves you now what else matters? He's not perfact, neither are youand the two of you will never be perfact but if he makes you laugh, at leas once cause you to think twice, and admits to being human, and making mistakes. Hold on to him, and give him all you've got, He's not going to quote poetry, he's not going to be thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him, that he knows that you can break. Don't hurt him, don't change him,don't expect to much from him. Smile when he makes you happy, cry when he makes you sad and miss him when he's not there. :)

The family wheeled Grandma out on the lawn, in her wheelchair, where the activities for her 100th birthday were taking place. Grandma couldn't speak very well, but she would write notes when she needed to communicate.
After a short time out on the lawn, Grandma started leaning off to the right, so some family members grabbed her, straightened her up, and stuffed pillows on her right.
A short time later, she started leaning off to her left, so again the family grabbed her and stuffed pillows on her left.
Soon she started leaning forward, so the family members again grabbed her, and then tied a pillowcase around her waist to hold her up.
A nephew who arrived late came up to Grandma and said, "Hi, Grandma, you're looking good! How are they treating you?"
Grandma took out her little notepad and slowly wrote a note to the nephew...

"Bastards won't let me fart!"

Where do you go

when you go out

for milk

and come back

seven hours later?

What happens

when you park

the car

and go home

somewhere else?

whose cigarettes

are you buying

when you go out

for mine

and come back

with the wrong brand?

Whoes name do you

mutter

in your sleep?

What heart do you

keep

in your pocket,

hidden from my eyes?

What lies will you

concoct next,

my dear,

While i pretend

that i don't fear

the end

Which came so long ago

While i pretended

not to hear

its deathlike

footstep

on my heart?

Hey guys this is my friend bree olson's address for thoughs of you that would like to write her and that is a fan of her work.

Bree Olson

PO Box 10471

Fort Wayne Indiana

46852

What hurts the most is here you have in my heart and not with me. Yes i still miss you. I still love you. and you dont see what you mean to me. But your quick to say something to someone. where there doing something that you know i dont like. Its crazythe time its beenand still theres days what i do miss you and want to be wrapped in your arms again. To hear your heart beat.

I cant listen to that one song without tears comming to my eyesit played the first time you really kissed me.I remember everythingwe did sice we stared dating

I know i grow stronger with each passing day. And i grow  to learn that thngs happen for a reason. But you know what, even with everything that happend for a reason between us i dont regret it at all.

I really did love you and you really did love me. and the reason we broke up should be the reson we get back together.

My heart will always be open to you. and when you need me I will be waiting here for you with open arms.

Never forget the day we started going out. June Six, two thousond and six

I hate this feeling!!! :( Whats going on with me? Heart ache is the worst kind of pain there is. i try not to thank about it but it always comes up. And hurts even worse and more pain is uncoverd. New things happend. And old things happend over and over again....Heart broken...You said "I will always love you and never let you go. Your mine forever I'm going to marry you. Your the best."

But i guess it was all a lie. I see your face everyday and i cant stop thinking about you. and the cuts get worse and deeper and wider. I can hardly breath...  just to have this pain go away. no more pain.

I wish a butterfly so i could fly to a island and be by myself with no more pain.

But thats not going to happen. :(

I just don't want to waste another day
I'm trying to make things right
But you shove it in my face
And all those things you've done to me I can't erase
And I can't keep this inside
It's time to say goodbye

On the first day that I met you
I should have known to walk away
I should have told you you were crazy
And disappear without a trace
But instead I stood there waiting
Hoping you would come around
But you always found a way to let me down

[Chorus]
It's time to say goodbye
(I just don't want to waste another day)
It's time to say goodbye
(Cause things will never be the same)
It's time to say goodbye
(You make me think I need to walk away)
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye

After all the things I've done for you
You never tried to do the same
It's like you always play the victim
And I'm the one you always blame
When you need someone to save you
When you think you're going to drown
(Think you're going to drown)
You just grab your arms around me and pull me down

[Chorus]
It's time to say goodbye
(I just don't want to waste another day)
It's time to say goodbye
(Cause things will never be the same)
It's time to say goodbye
(You make me think I need to walk away)
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye

Now I'm gone
It's too late
You can't fix
Your mistakes
I was trying to save you from you
So you scream
So you cry
I can see
Through your lies
You're just trying to change me
(Trying to change me)

Somewhere in the distance
There's a place for me to go
I don't want you to hate me
But I think you need to know
You're weighing on my shoulders
And I'm sick of feeling down
So I guess it's time for me to say goodbye