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I breath today as I did my first day, uncertain of where my exhale will settle and stay. I'm unsure of the risk my ongoing rough breath will display. I feer to show my fear, I'm angry at my hate. I cry to the sadness of each breath I need to embrace. I tremble for the chuckle of each windful escape with every beat of my heart as it strives to brake. NO!!! No I say. I want to breathe and chuckle to happier days. Yet i still sigh with an on going pain. Why Oh Mighty God, why must i disgrace all I breath today as I did my my first day with hesitant ambition yet I still pray. I curse the first breath given each one on each day. Will I curse and curse this painful breath I need to embrace and keep sighing and crying hating and denying the sweet breath you give me each day? YES!! Yes I want to breath as my first day. I know my breath is the wind that can clear my way. I breath today as I did my first day hoping for an exhale that my soul will save

So many problems So many fears When will the drama ever end here They say this and others say that So sick of all this he said she said crap All these questions about what should be done but the answers are never herd of They come to her and ask for help, forgetting that she needs help herself She is cutting her arms and her breathing is bad They say she needs no more stress in her hands But they keep coming back like bees to honey She should turn them away instead of greeting them openly Through all the heartaches and tears, she gives out her love and says, “ I am always here” Shoulders back and head held up high Shows the world a smile as she passes by If they only new she is not as strong as she appears Looking into her eyes you will find uncried tears Her heart screams for help but no one can hear Filled with so much sorrow praying for a better year They do not realize, inside she is falling apart No one to turn to, no ones arms are reaching out She will go through this alone No one will ever understand That she has to fight her own battle like she always has She will stay with them now and take care of herself last No one will mind this as the time continues to pass Happy on the outside and sad within She will fight to stay strong until the end.

He asked her "do you trust me?" she hesitated at first, and then she took his hand and whisperd in his ear that she had been hurt.He then smiled and kissed her on the cheek, everything was scilent she had no words and couldnt speak. He then told her that he would never break her heart. Her smile was his painting, her eyes was a piece of art. There hearts began to beat as one, as they stared into each others eyes. There was no fear or pain, there was no more heartache and lies. He asked her "do you trust me?" she didnt hesitate this time, and then she fell into his arms and said " I trust you and i will love you for all time."

He says she doesnt mean it, its killin him inside, she trys to find da word to tell him these words trapt in her mind. He shouts but theres no answer she hears him but can not speak she trembles when she hears his voice his touch makes her knees week, His love is all she needs but how can she express how she feels, her true feelings are traped inside, he doesnt know how to deal. So now in his mind he thinks her love never exists. When all she wants to do is shout i love you threw a kiss.... To be continued?

when i was in my darkest hour and struggled in that path of ours i gave up the hope in the far distance you see but i dont want to be ungreatful it seems. You try to help me when all i do is ask, but still is unhappy to fulfill my task, Ill pray and ill beg for a happy life,then why cant i stop or put down that sharp knife. the pain is a confirt but i want it to go away, my life is like a world that is dark everyday. hoping to find a light come by my soul feeling that i cant stop and go on anymore. crying has stopped but cutting has grown on my fingertips is the blood thats been poored getting over the past isnt easy as it seems especially the life i pretended to lead§.

A love like winter frozen and cold, a love like summer so warm and it shows. He hit her and beat her, she fell to the ground, there love was as frozen as if winters around. She wishes to find a love that seems like fall, so perfect and clean it fits right between. Summer so hot and winter so cold, the fall breez is solf and wont ever unfold. So far now her heart is an icebox, so frozen and cracked, will her fall breeze return? will it ever come back? She weeps as much as a raint fall on an april day, and her pain grows like the flowers that bloom in may. But as she fell and gave up a figure apeard and returned her loss breath. His touch was as warm as a sunrise in august, and his kiss was as full as the month of octobers great harvest. Her fall had returned once again, no more snow or the feeling of her heart so cold and frozen. The breeze in the air and the leaves falling down, reminded her that finaly..fall was around?

Im not suppose to love you, im not suppose to care, im not suppse to live my life wishing you were there. im not suppose to wonder where you are or what you do..im sorry i cant help myself cause im in love with you

wat is this feeling..this feelin i have inside..my heart begins to beat faster wen i look into u eyes...i begin to feel a shiver everytime i feel your touch..this feelin is that feeling that i ador so very much..ur smile is my light..that brightens up the day and ur tears is the storm that i pray to go away..cant u see the pain that lies inside my heart..and the unforgetful past that brought this pain from the very start..but since ive met u boy..this pain is starting to fade away...because u make me stonger every single day

?Why should I cry will it bring him around? Will it stop the lies that I have found to be around. So unsure of what to think and question all I know. The ones so close and dear to me are the ones that are so cold. Forgive me for not pleasing u...but say that I don't do wrong...when all I feel inside my heart is it weaken and no longer be strong...it was always week from my past but never gave up on love...but now a days its hard to gain strength when I fall down to the ground from above. Yes my heart had once been whole...when I was young u see...the world wasn't a scary place but at the same time a mystery...my eyes we covered and my ears sown shut they hid the reality of love. And pain.....but when I grew up I was surprised to learn that the world has nothing to gain. They forbid us and enforce there demands...are greedy u see they think my world is in there hands so they only allow what they prefer u see and that isn't fair at all to me...but y complain there is nothing I can do. But wonder what my so called world is coming to.?

how come true love can never be..and the truth is somthing u never see..the liez progress and the pain grows strong..when eventualy the pain starts to feel as if it isnt so wrong..life goes on and lovers die..true love is not around and heartbreaks never seem to die..broken promises never fade and nothing is left in the end u see..is r love important to u..or jus to me..hiding the truth is painful .......and fake..learn from ya past and dont make the same mistake. tell the truth and never lie..because u can never go back when true love seemz to die