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So my mom came over and Jamie and I coocked thanksgiving dinner. Jamie talked to my father and we decided to just trash my jeepand get another car. It's gonna cost me $600 just to get it out of the lot that the police towed it to. That's not een fixing it so I'm just going to get another car. I'm looking at a Neon. They're good in the snow. We live close to the school so I've been walking the girls, but that's a pain in the ass at night because they go to an after school program so we're walking home at 6pm and it's kind of cold. It'll only be like another week before I have the money for a downpayment. I'll survive. My mom's going to come up on Sunday so I can get my grocery shopping done and my nails LOL. I should be good for the week after that. Jamie had a good thanksgiving... little alone time and a lot of pie, football too! He's a lucky guy. I take good care of him! MY mom thinks we spend too much time together, but I think we're okay. We do spend all our free time together but he works 50 hours a week so we're not together contantly. My mother is getting sicker mentally. It's hard to watch. Her house, I don't even know. It's like those people on Opra with that hoarding disease. She's been sleeping downastairs because she dosen't have any room upstairs. Her car is the same way. I had to go somewhere with her today and hailey ahd had to stay home because ther wasn't enough room in her car. I barley got my grocerys in there last sunday. I know it's due to her depression and I feel bad but I don't know how to make her better. We talked a little on Thanksgiving about it and she acknowleges her problem but she just doesn't know where to start to fix it. I don't know it stresses me out. Makes me sad.

So I go to pick up Jmaie from work on this wonderful rainy windy day. I'm driving and talking to Jamie on the cell phone and I have to drive through this huge puddle. The Street was floooded and everyone was having a hard time going through. So there's cop and big puddles and what do I do I run a red light! I got hit in the rear bumper, the other guy had so little damage that he was able to drive away from the scene, but not me... my Jeep has to be towed. So get this, the guy that hit me was a lawyer in a lexus OMG! So my mother tells me to count my blessings and she's right, at least the girls weren't in the car. So I've survived this accident, and I'll get through this crisis and everything will be okay.

Ok so I hate being bipolar. Sometimes little things are enough to cause a meltdown. I was driving and totally lost where I was. I just drew a blank. I called Jamie on the cell phone and he helped me through it but I was crying and it wasn't good. So I guess today when I go see my PA I'll tell her about it. Damn this thing it really sucks sometimes. I'm afraid for Hailey when she get into her 20's when this thing supposively gets bad. Oh well, all we can do is take our meds and hope for the best. Jamie kind of likes his new job and kind of not. He never knows what time he'll be getting home at night. So he's keeping his eys open. Oh so my birthday is sunday, Jamie has something nice for me but he won't tell me and I can't get it out of him. so I'll have to wait. i dunno, thats all for now. Thanks for listening to me whine.

So my dad is coming today to spoil me becauce my birthday is in 2 weeks!I love spending daddy's money. Can you tell I'll always be a daddys girl LOL. So he wants to buy us a new entertainment center so I was like SWEET!Jamie will have to put it together for me YAY. Furniture is always a good gift. That goes in the same catigory as money... always fits! So I sound shallow, always out to spend money. But it is my birthday, doesn't that count for something?

Jamie and I found time to be alone yesterday while the kids were at the park. Naughty mommy and daddy. I love posting on LC because I would never say anything like that on myspace. And here on LC my mom doesn't read it! So Jamie joined thr Lost Cherry family too. It will be cool to leave messages for each other. I know I know, we're so sweet we could cause diabetes.We're just two ppl running the rat race, trying to pay the rent and keep ourselves sane in the process. So rate our blogs and we'll return the favor.

I just got a notice in the mail that my ex has to yet again go back to court for child support and if he doesn't have the money he's goinna get locked up again. It makes me so sad that I couldn't save him from the drugs the way my Jamie saved me. He lives this sad existance in and out of jail every six months, no job, grubbing where he can for money, living with his drug addicted mother. I've had my drug problems but I was lucky enough to have someone love me and pull me out before it got to be too bad. Maybe I didn't love him enough, maybe he didn't love me or maybe even he didn't love himself enough. Whatever the reason I hope someday someone comes along and saves him. Wast of a good life. At least my daughter didn't grow up knowing him just knowing my Jamie. Now she'll never have to cry for him like I do. She'll always grow up knowing she had a good man for a father. Huh, all these complaints and sad stuff today. Trying to lift my spirits.

I'm up all night, I can't sleep. Well, nothing interesting to report. Finally figured out my Vonage situation. Thnat took forever. Jamie messed with it all day. We even bought another port to plug it into. Until we said STOP! Take everything back and get the Vonage startup kit.! DUH! All figured out now :O) Now I have phone and the internet. All is well in my happy place again. I'm excited because of Fall! I love Fall. I love to wear sweaters and warm clothes. Toasty on the inside cold on the out side. And lets not forget The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown! Ohhhhh falll. I love it!

So I pick the husband up from work and he says since the kids are taken care of why not go out for dinner. Oh how I long for meals that don't come in a box. I wanted dinner without crayons for my menu and I got it! Happy day! Little dinner little something else... ya know what I mean. I got a little tipsy with the lager AND I ordered spinach and there was NONE! I know that that there is a big spinach scare in California but what does that have to do with my spainach pizza? Well, the lager was good. ::Sigh:: It was a full day.

I'm running around here looking skeptical... It's as nice as myspace....hmmmmm I could get use to this thing I think.