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He jests at scars that never felt a wound. [Juliet appears above at a window.] But soft, what light through yonder window breaks? It is the east and Juliet is the sun! Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon, Who is already sick and pale with grief (5) That thou her maid art far more fair than she. Be not her maid, since she is envious; Her vestal livery is but sick and green, (10) And none but fools do wear it. Cast it off. It is my lady, O, it is my love! (10) O that she knew she were! She speaks, yet she says nothing; what of that? Her eye discourses, I will answer it. I am too bold: 'tis not to me she speaks. Two of the fairest stars in all the heaven, (15) Having some business, do entreat her eyes To twinkle in their spheres till they return. What if her eyes were there, they in her head? The brightness of her cheek would shame those stars, As daylight doth a lamp. Her eyes in heaven (20) Would through the airy region stream so bright That birds would sing and think it were not night. See how she leans her cheek upon her hand O that I were a glove upon that hand, That I might touch that cheek! Juliet. Ay me! Romeo. She speaks. (25) O, speak again, bright angel, for thou art As glorious to this night, being o'er my head, As is a winged messenger of heaven Unto the white-upturned wondering eyes Of mortals that fall back to gaze on him (30) When he bestrides the lazy-puffing clouds And sails upon the bosom of the air. Juliet. O Romeo, Romeo! wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father and refuse thy name; Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love, (35) And I'll no longer be a Capulet. Romeo. [Aside.] Shall I hear more, or shall I speak at this? Juliet. 'Tis but thy name that is my enemy: Thou art thyself, though not a Montague. What's Montague? It is nor hand, nor foot, (40) Nor arm, nor face, nor any other part Belonging to a man. O, be some other name. What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet; So Romeo would, were he not Romeo call'd, (45) Retain that dear perfection which he owes Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name, And for that name, which is no part of thee, Take all myself. Romeo. I take thee at thy word. Call me but love, and I'll be new baptis'd; (50) Henceforth I never will be Romeo. Juliet. What man art thou that, thus bescreened in night, So stumblest on my counsel? Romeo. By a name I know not how to tell thee who I am: My name, dear saint, is hateful to myself, (55) Because it is an enemy to thee. Had I it written, I would tear the word. Juliet. My ears have yet not drunk a hundred words Of thy tongue's uttering, yet I know the sound. Art thou not Romeo, and a Montague? (60) Romeo. Neither, fair saint, if either thee dislike. Juliet. How cam'st thou hither, tell me, and wherefore? The orchard walls are high and hard to climb, And the place death, considering who thou art, If any of my kinsmen find thee here. (65) Romeo. With love's light wings did I o'erperch these walls, For stony limits cannot hold love out, And what love can do, that dares love attempt: Therefore thy kinsmen are no stop to me. Juliet. If they do see thee, they will murder thee. (70) Romeo. Alack, there lies more peril in thine eye Than twenty of their swords. Look thou but sweet And I am proof against their enmity. Juliet. I would not for the world they saw thee here. Romeo. I have night's cloak to hide me from their eyes, (75) And, but thou love me, let them find me here; My life were better ended by their hate Than death prorogued, wanting of thy love. Juliet. By whose direction found'st thou out this place? Romeo. By love, that first did prompt me to enquire. (80) He lent me counsel, and I lent him eyes. I am no pilot, yet, wert thou as far As that vast shore wash'd with the furthest sea, I sould adventure for such merchandise. Juliet. Thou knowest the mask of night is on my face, (85) Else would a maiden blush bepaint my cheek For that which thou hast heard me speak tonight. Fain would I dwell on form; fain, fain deny What I have spoke. But farewell compliment. Dost thou love me? I know thou wilt say 'Ay', (90) And I will take thy word. Yet, if thou swear'st, Thou mayst prove false. At lovers' perjuries, They say, Jove laughs. O gentle Romeo, If thou dost love, pronounce it faithfully: Or if thou thinkest I am too quickly won, (90) I'll frown, and be perverse, and say thee nay, So thou wilt woo: but else, not for the world. In truth, fair Montague, I am too fond; And therefore thou mayst think my 'haviour light: But trust me, gentleman, I'll prove more true (100) Than those that have more cunning to be strange. I should have been more strange, I must confess, But that thou overheard'st, ere I was 'ware, My true-love passion: therefore pardon me; And not impute this yielding to light love (105) Which the dark night hath so discovered. Romeo. Lady, by yonder blessed moon I vow, That tips with silver all these fruit-tree tops -- Juliet. O, swear not by the moon, the inconstant moon, That monthly changes in her circled orb, (110) Lest that thy love prove likewise variable. Romeo. What shall I swear by? Juliet. Do not swear at all. Or if thou wilt, swear by thy gracious self, Which is the god of my idolatry, And I'll believe thee. Romeo. If my heart's dear love – Juliet. Well, do not swear: although I joy in thee, I have no joy of this contract tonight; It is too rash, too unadvis'd, too sudden; Too like the lightning, which doth cease to be Ere one can say 'It lightens'. Sweet, good night! (120) This bud of love, by summer's ripening breath, May prove a beauteous flower when next we meet. Good night, good night. As sweet repose and rest Come to thy heart as that within my breast! Romeo. O, wilt thou leave me so unsatisfied? (125) Juliet. What satisfaction canst thou have tonight? Romeo. Th'exchange of thy love's faithful vow for mine. Juliet. I gave thee mine before thou didst request it, And yet I would it were to give again. Romeo. Would'st thou withdraw it? For what purpose, love? (130) Juliet. But to be frank and give it thee again; And yet I wish but for the thing I have. My bounty is as boundless as the sea, My love as deep: the more I give to thee, The more I have, for both are infinite. (135) I hear some noise within: dear love, adieu. [Nurse calls within.] Anon, good nurse! Sweet Montague, be true. Stay but a little, I will come again. [Exit Juliet.] Romeo. O blessed, blessed night. I am afeard, Being in night, all this is but a dream, (140) Too flattering sweet to be substantial. [Enter Juliet above.] Juliet. Three words, dear Romeo, and good night indeed. If that thy bent of love be honourable, Thy purpose marriage, send me word to-morrow, By one that I'll procure to come to thee, (145) Where and what time thou wilt perform the rite; And all my fortunes at thy foot I'll lay, And follow thee, my lord, throughout the world. Nurse. [Within.] Madam! Juliet. I come, anon! -- But if thou meanest not well, I do beseech thee -- Nurse. [Within.] Madam! Juliet. By and by I come - To cease thy strife and leave me to my grief: Tomorrow will I send. Romeo. So thrive my soul,-- Juliet. A thousand times good night! [Exit Juliet.] Romeo. A thousand times the worse, to want thy light! (155) Love goes toward love as schoolboys from their books; But love from love, towards school with heavy looks. [Retiring slowly.] [Enter Juliet again, above.] Juliet. Hist! Romeo, hist! O for a falconer's voice To lure this tassel-gentle back again! Bondage is hoarse and may not speak aloud, (160) Else would I tear the cave where Echo lies, And make her airy tongue more hoarse than mine With repetition of my Romeo's name. Romeo. It is my soul that calls upon my name. How silver-sweet sound lovers' tongues by night, Like softest music to attending ears! Juliet. Romeo! Romeo. My niesse? Juliet. At what a'clock tomorrow Shall I send to thee? Romeo. By the hour of nine. Juliet. I will not fail: 'tis twenty years till then. I have forgot why I did call thee back. Romeo. Let me stand here till thou remember it. Juliet. I shall forget, to have thee still stand there, Remembering how I love thy company. Romeo. And I'll still stay, to have thee still forget, Forgetting any other home but this. (175) Juliet. 'Tis almost morning; I would have thee gone: And yet no farther than a wanton's bird; That lets it hop a little from her hand, Like a poor prisoner in his twisted gyves, And with a silk thread plucks it back again, (180) So loving-jealous of his liberty. Romeo. I would I were thy bird. Juliet. Sweet, so would I: Yet I should kill thee with much cherishing. Good night, good night! parting is such sweet sorrow That I shall say good night till it be morrow. [Exit Juliet.] Romeo. Sleep dwell upon thine eyes, peace in thy breast!-- Would I were sleep and peace so sweet to rest! Hence will I to my ghostly Friar's cell, His help to crave and my dear hap to tell. [Exit.]

Lost in your eyes

In darkness I fall, sliding downward into a deep despair. I reach for a hand to hold but I find none,and deeper I slide. Finally I land deep within. I crawl looking for a way to leave this dark despair. But I am tired of fighting it, tired of getting ahead one space only to fall back 4. If my life where a video game I could just start it over, but game over has a definite finality to it in real life. I lay in a heap, crying, my heart in shambles and a pain so deep I can't stop it. I lay unmoving, feeling my pain deepen, and listening for some sounds. Time seems to stop as I lay in darkness and pain. I blink my eyes to moisten them because they are dry now from all the tears.I feel death approach, its dull thud in the dirt, its empty stare watching me. I feel its cold hands touching me. I cry out, oh someone help me find my way out of this place. I hear my name being spoken, in a soft and lyrical tone, you call me, begging me not to give up, your coming and I see light. Its getting closer and soon I feel your hands upon me, helping me to my feet. You embrace me, holding me close and I feel warmth not just from your body but your heart as well. I lean back and I see your eyes, deep fiery in the darkness, holding my gaze, shining into my heart and lighting it on fire. Making me want you, need you. I touch your lips with mine and I feel lost again, but not in cold darkness, lost in the fiery depths of your eyes, but this is not a place I want to leave, for its my home, a place I am meant to be.

seustrek

If Dr. Seuss wrote for Star Trek: the Next Generation... By Dave Fuller Picard: Sigma Indri, that's the star, So, Data, please, how far? How far? Data: Our ship can get there very fast But still the trip will last and last We'll have two days til we arrive But can the Indrans there survive? Picard: LaForge, please give us factor nine. LaForge: But, sir, the engines are offline! Picard: Offline! But why? I want to go! Please make it so, please make it so! Riker: But sir, if Geordi says we can't, We can't, we mustn't, and we shan't, The danger here is far too great! Picard: But surely we must not be late! Troi: I'm sensing anger and great ire. Computer: Alert! Alert! The ship's on fire! Picard: The ship's on fire? How could this be? Who lit the fire? Riker: Not me. Worf: Not me. Picard: Computer, how long til we die? Computer: Eight minutes left to say goodbye. Data: May I suggest a course to take? We could, I think, quite safely make Extinguishers from tractor beams And stop the fire, or so it seems... Geordi: Hurray! Hurray! You've saved the day! Again I say, Hurray! Hurray! Picard: Mr. Data, thank you much. You've saved our lives, our ship, and such. Troi: We still must save the Indran planet -- Data: Which (by the way) is made of granite... Picard: Enough, you android. Please desist. We understand -- we get your gist. But can we get our ship to go? Please, make it so, PLEASE make it so. Geordi: There's sabotage among the wires And that's what started all the fires. Riker: We have a saboteur? Oh, no! We need to go! We need to go! Troi: We must seek out the traitor spy And lock him up and ask him why? Worf: Ask him why? How sentimental. I say give him problems dental. Troi: Are any Romulan ships around? Have scanners said that they've been found? Or is it Borg or some new threat We haven't even heard of yet? I sense no malice in this crew. Now what are we supposed to do? Crusher: Captain, please, the Indrans need us. They cry out, "Help us, clothe us, feed us!" I can't just sit and let them die! A doctor MUST attempt -- MUST try! Picard: Doctor, please, we'll get there soon. Crusher: They may be dead by Tuesday noon. *COMMERCIAL BREAK, COMMERCIAL BREAK HOW LONG WILL THESE DUMB ADS TAKE?* Worf: The saboteur is in the brig. He's very strong and very big. I had my phaser set on stun -- A zzzip! A zzzap! Another one! He would not budge, he would not fall, He would not stun, no, not at all! He changed into a stranger form All soft and purple, round and warm. Picard: Did you see this, Mr. Worf? Did you see this creature morph? Worf: I did and then I beat him fairly. Hit him on the jaw -- quite squarely. Riker: My commendations, Klingon friend! Our troubles now are at an end! Crusher: Now let's get our ship to fly And orbit yonder Indran sky! Picard: LaForge, please tell me we can go...? Geordi: Yes, sir, we can. Picard: Then make it so!

When we Two parted

WHEN we two parted In silence and tears, Half broken-hearted To sever for years, Pale grew thy cheek and cold, Colder thy kiss; Truly that hour foretold Sorrow to this. The dew of the morning Sunk chill on my brow— It felt like the warning Of what I feel now. Thy vows are all broken, And light is thy fame: I hear thy name spoken, And share in its shame. They name thee before me, A knell to mine ear; A shudder comes o'er me— Why wert thou so dear? They know not I knew thee, Who knew thee too well: Long, long shall I rue thee, Too deeply to tell. In secret we met— In silence I grieve, That thy heart could forget, Thy spirit deceive. If I should meet thee After long years, How should I greet thee? With silence and tears.

How I feel

I sit and stare at a monitor, a false hope in my dull existence. Names flash by, some words from those who say they care. But in the end when I turn off the lights and lay down, I still lay down in a cold and lonely bed. I never ask anyone online or in my life away from the computer for anything. But I am about ready to self destruct. I never ask anyone for anything, but yet I am always there when someone needs me. All I ask is this, just remember me ok. I never ask for sympathy, and I always hide my true feelings from everyone. In truth my life SUCKS. There are times I wish I had never been born, but I am here for a reason. In truth I don't mind comment bombing people, I don't mind rating them or even fanning them. But don't get all in a tizzy if I forget OK. Here lately I need to wear a sign, fragile, please be careful OK. Since my divorce I have fallen into a depression and I think its going to kill me because I am having trouble, I fight with my son, and he is 12. I yell at my parents, and i feel lost and alone. Like tonight I feel like taking both bottles of my blood pressure medicines but I wont. I just feel so alone, hurting, like I am adrift in a sea of pain with blood soaking me. I am not asking anyone for anything, just dont forget me ok. I asked my dr for some antidepressants but she said why you dont need them your always laughing. I wonder if I am still human because I dont feel it. I laugh at things and then cry like I want to drown the world. I am loosing my mind I think, slowly but surely falling into this pit of despair. Just stop and think before you over look someone, thats all I ask ok. They might need you just to say hi to them.
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but I remember everything what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts I cannot repair beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear you are someone else I am still right here what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt if I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way This is how I feel today, this song describes my feelings

Phantoms

Deep within a dark night of unrestful slumber. I wander down halls that I haven't seen in many years. Lost and confused I turn from this hall to the next wondering why I am here, seeing phantoms from my past. I hear laughter coming from around the bend; I peer around the corner and spy shadowy figures from my past. I stare as two kids share candy, sitting alone on a playground. I watch as they grow to teens, sharing a soda in the school cafeteria. I watch as they hold hands walking under the bleachers at a football game. I stare in disbelief as he took her home one evening after school, and sat on her couch sharing another soda and a kiss. And then, gone, ripped away from each other by a pain that was unending. I stare, unable to take my eyes away from the pain unfolding. I stare into eyes that I haven’t seen in ages, longing for those lips I can never kiss again. Why did she lie to me, tell me she loved me and then walk away like I was nothing. And I watch as these feelings submerge deep into the chasm that is my heart. And then recent shadows, a longing never fulfilled, returning and leaving all almost in the same breath. I see eyes walking in, turning my heart upside down again and then leaving again, all too soon, as the chasm in my chest gets deeper and deeper. Dark is the depths of my heart, feeling empty, and lost as I watch more unfold. I feel my face, damp is the cheeks of my hollow eyes; I turn and see my face in the mirror. I am but a shadow of who I once was. Despair and pain are my companions now.

Time to go I think

I think its time to pull the plug. I think its time for me to leave, slowly fade away, like a bad memory. I am learning I cant understand anymore, so perhaps its best I just go. Lost inside a painful shell of disbelief and grief, I ponder , why am I here? I stare out a window and realize, I am lost in my own world of hurt and confusion. I misunderstand the simplest things, so perhaps I should go find my darkness again, hide from reality in the pain, for it is my only true love. Thank all those who made my stay here wonderful, although it was short. I hope I helped those who asked. But its time for me to go I think, time to pull the shades and turn off the lights. I really don't think I am needed here anyway, I don't fit in. Oh it was fun trying, helping this or that one with comments and such. But I feel alone, trapped in a world I walked into on my own. So if I hurt you I am sorry, if I lost you I am sorry, if I wronged you I am sorry. But most of all I AM SORRY.

Migraines hurt

I am going to make this short, my head is killing me, I am getting so sick i cant sit here, I am sorry I cant comment help anyone at the moment , I tried but I am getting so sick I cant keep sitting here, to all my female friends hugssssssssss and love, and to the one male bud, handshake and highfive, sorry but I gotta go, peace out
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