so the 100 days party for all the seniors was cancelled (sucked). my friend hannah threw a mini get-together instead consisting of thomas, her, me, nate and two of his friends. it was the first time i'd ever been drinkin to get drunk.
so hannah mixed me a drink wit coke and i drank it. then we had a shot of something than she got from the cabinet. nate's friend, douglass wanted to smoke some pot so we went to nate's car but couldn't find a lighter so douglass grabbed the beer from the trunk and we went and smoked pot on the porch in the backyard. then we smoked some cigarrettes and i went back inside.
douglass found out i'd never been drunk before so he mixed me a drink wit sprite. nate made a few passes at me and i was returning them. i remember kissing him outside, twice. i called a few people and nate had to go find his second friend to bring him back to the house but before he left, he mixed me a drink tellin me that after i finished the drink i had (the one douglass made me) then i'd drink the one he gave me.
after that i dont remember much. i was told i passed out on the floor and threw up a bunch of times. everyone had to lift me to the couch. i remember crying and a bunch of different people holding my hand. i was crying and tellin people that i loved nate and if i should die that night, that i loved him and i wasn't perfect and i was so sorry i wasnt perfect. i remember douglass holding my hand tellin me stuff to be calm. then nate held my hand and lied to me to get me to calm down.
i was told i also went outside and started dancing with a lamp post. i think the conversation between me and thomas went something like this:
thomas: hi!
me: hiiiiiiiiiiiiii
thomas: ace arent you cold?
me: maaaaaaaaybe
and that's all i remember from the conversation. the last thing i remember is nate and his friends leavin at 2:30 am and me throwin up in the sink like three more times (only stomach acid since i'd thrown up everything i'd eaten before) and grabbin my blanket and going to sleep on the couch.
i told my parents i'd gone drinkin at hannah's house the next day and they're ok wit it so far. i left out the part that i'd passed out. i told them i threw up a bunch of times and had a hangover the next day. i didnt tell them i was high either.
noe hannah's mom wants to have a meeting wit my parents (and me i guess) so i know have to tell thomas and hannah not to tell them i was high or anything...shit i'm fucked!!
