Golden JYFN's blog: "Musings"

The animals will tell you

About this place

They only come out at night

That's how they survive

Even the scorpions will burn if they don't hide

This is not the place for people

I hear them

You see it

Its an ephemeral thing

Perceived with the eyes

Glistening transparent colors

That cannot be touched

it mesmerizes in its very temporary brilliance

You only want to look at it

You know it won't last

You know you can't touch it

And you don't know when you'll ever see one again.

 

The quality of light around you You went away but the light Lingered in my memory And all I ever wrote And all I ever created And all I ever did Was tinged with that memory. You were the plow that broke me open and when the seeds fell in they grew because my field was ready I would have been hard unyielding ground If you hadn't broken me And the wound still produces The muse must hurt us And go away And leave the memory Then come in ephemeral visits You know its the muse When he comes and tells you to create The muse will never stay with you But the muse will always stay with you.

You're my blue sky You're my sunny day Lord you know it makes me high When you turn your love my way Turn your love my way

What I wanted was a hero Someone to stand up for me To cherish me To lift me up Strong Protective I thought it was you I wanted it to be you I loved you so much Maybe it was just a dream Maybe I wanted it so much I turned you into what I wanted in my mind I thought it was you I wish it was you

Near you I come nearer I let you catch my scent I move so my skirt flows And let you see my feet And imagine going up my leg And I am open I invite you to touch me With my eyes I brush against you lightly Your strong arms excite me Your naked back thrills me Your silky hair is more than beautiful to me I want to lure you inside me I want to feel your hot skin over mine You are so much man I love you

Someone else is pouring your coffee It's not me Someone else is holding your hand It's not me Someone else is looking into your eyes It's not me Someone else took your body and mind It wasn't me Someone else had your children It wasn't me Someone else is tangled up in your soul It's not me It wasn't me It isn't me Not me

My chest has a feeling, dropping Stomach, whirling I feel the adrenaline pumping through my veins A spinning feeling My mind doesn't want to accept My mind doesn't want to accept My body feels my mind and spins Whirls, whirrs, drops, cries I don't know where comfort is I just see a dark hole My mind and body fall in I don't think I'll get out My heart is skipping The cloth is pulled out from under me There's nothing I can do There's nothing I can do