Mistress Mystic Fyre's blog: "Muses and Ramblings"

I have started wearing a Claddaugh that my dad got me on a layover in Ireland when he was on his way back home from his tour of duty. I have often wondered how many people actually think about what the Claddaugh really stands for. The circle around the outside of my pendant says Friendship, Love, Loyalty. If you think about it no matter what relationship you have with a person those 3 things are vital. If it is just a friendship you still have to be loyal and love the person to be a true friend. If it is a lover or a spouse you have to be friends first and foremost, loyal to the one you love, and love the person you are with. Those 3 emotions are the most important things in any relationship. There are two hands clasping a heart in the center. Two people holding one heart together. This is why this symbol has been given to husbands and wives for centuries in Ireland. There are many variations with the crown and without the crown but the meaning is always the same. The kind of unconditional acceptance and love that best friends have is the only way to start a Forever kind of Love. Hell even Jim Morrison exchanged claddaugh ring with his wife Patricia when they were married! Take for instance my parents. They have been married 31 yeas in a round about way. Their love is a Forever kind of Love. They have known each other since they were 13. They were together after my mom's mom was killed by a drunk driver. Their friendship survived through two kids with other people (1 for mom and 1 for dad). They survived through Dadʼs entire military career (even him coming home on leave to marry her and pick up her son and all of their stuff and move them to Germany in 30 days). They survived a divorce, a separation, and me and my brother through our teenage years. Through it all they still came back together because their friendship never faltered. They still go to sleep in each other's arms at night. They still go out and do things together. They still say I love you every morning before my dad goes to work because anything can happen during the day to make him not come home and she knows she would be lost without her best friend. That is the kind of love everyone should be gifted with and I believe that everyone is. The question is: when it comes along will you choose to accept the knowledge and be strong enough to accept the gift of unconditional acceptance and love that is right in front of you? I'm not sure I would even see it because of my past, but if I did I would hope I would be strong enough to hold tight and never let go.

Because EVERY MAN (none are different as I learned last night) will cyber but when you say no to giving them your phone number they delete you from their yahoo and want nothing to do with you...At least I was good for something right *ROFLMAO*

1. Betrayal hurts - Not only the people who have been betrayed, but the people who have betrayed others and did not know it at the time. 2. Sometimes the peace you find when everything is quiet is more deafening than the silence of those you love 3. You don't ever get over losing a child...even 4 years after the fact 4. I've learned that when you think the worst things have happened to you, there is always a rainbow waiting to make you smile. 5. I spoil my friends. I always have. If you are close enough to me to be considered my good friend (and you know who you are) there is nothing I wouldn't do to help if I could. You may not open up to me as I open up to you and you may call me a sucker for always being there even if you don't need me, but I take the people I care about in my life very seriously and anyone who is important to them is important to me. I may mean nothing to you, but you hold a place in my life. All you have to do is call on me and I will be there any time of the day or night. 6. I've come to the conclusion that maybe my life is better off alone. If I even become attached to anyone either I will not trust them simply because I am very skeptical of people actually BEING monogomous, or because of the fact my ex would end up pitching a fit that I was in a relationship with anyone but him. God knows I don't need THAT kind of drama in my life 7. Sometimes you just have to break down and cry. When the last straw breaks and you don't feel like you can take it anymore and you just want to run screaming into the night even though no one hears you...it's ok to cry. 8. One of the best way to express you feelings is to write. Whether it is poetry, diary, songs, or just plain writing down all the feelings in your heart and your head. You need to express what is inside so that it can be dealt with, not just fester inside. 9. That last straw might be the simplest of things, but it might send you on a journey you never thought you would be on. Life changes in a heartbeat and then you find yourself miles from where you thought you would be...but it's an even better road than you wanted. 10. Your family can be your best support or your worst nightmare. It's not how you are to them that can change that. It's how they percieve you as an adult. You are who you should be. They can either accept it and love you for it or they can try to change it and never really know you at all. 11. I give up on all the heartache, headaches, pain, suffering, and sorrow of abusive relationships. Men who abuse women and women who abuse men need to be taken out and shot. They are all worthless and if anyone who has a problem with me saying that can go to hell! No one is the master of anyone else, we are all equal in this God forsaken world and if you can't be my equal, then you don't need to have anything to do with me or those I love! 12. The phrase "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" means nothing if you do nice things for people and treat them nice and they treat you like shit in return. 13. FAITH MEANS NOTHING WITHOUT TRUST!!! 14. Trust is the cornerstone of any true relationship. If you can't trust, there is no hope for the future. Move on to the next person you want and see if you can trust them. Without trust there is no love. Without love there is no hope. Without hope, all is lost. 15. No means NO! It doesn't mean ask why I came to that answer or to ask me 20 million different ways the same questions to see if one of them I will say yes. Pretty soon you are going to get stupid answers for repeat questions and then you will REALLY think I am insane. 16. Men are assholes. Women are bitches. Y'all say that like it's an insult!I am proud to be a bitch no matter what anagram you put with it. It means I am strong and dammit if I am going to get called a bitch because I am strong woman with my own damn opinions then fuck you all who can't deal with who I am. 17. To each his own - I don't care if you are gay, lesbian, straight, bisexual, transvestite, transexual, cross dressers, or hermaphrodites. You are all people and all have feelings. I don't care who you do or what you do (as long as it's not illegal) as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. I can still be your friend no matter what you think your hang ups are. You are human just like me and we all bleed just the same. 18. I am not broken. I am not sick. I am not twisted. I am not a whore. I am not every other name you call me. I am me. I do what I do because I think it is a good idea at the time. I do not try to hurt people. I do not try to make them feel like crap. I do not live my life to make you miserable and I'll be damned if I am going to be told what I have to do when I have to do it. I am an adult and I know where my limitations are. 19. Instead of causing another person pain I will walk away from them before they have a chance to get hurt. I will shoulder the pain because it is my heartache to bear, not theirs. I would rather have them hate me than to hurt their feelings even a little bit 20. If the eyes are the window to the soul, my soul has lived a thousand lifetimes that I can not remember. I see so much hurt and so much pain, but as soon as my walls go up I see only an empty void. I wonder if I will ever fill that void with happiness, but I have a feeling it is never going to happen. The worst feeling in the world is the icey coldness that can creep into your soul when you least expect it. I have felt it more this past year than any other time in the past. I'm not sure why and I will probably never know, but the most important times in my life this year have left me cold and skeptical. I'm sure there is light for my future and I am sure one day I will find what my heart has been looking for in my friends or relationships or even with my family. I should be happy with my life at my age and I'm not. I'm scared of the future and what it might bring, but I guess I will just have to take it one day at a time like I always do and when my heart gets too heavy and it starts to hurt again I just need to write a poem or sing a song and hope all my emotions flows into the words so I can start to feel again. "My Gift is my song...and this one's for you...you can tell everybody...this is your song...it may be quite simple...but now that it's done...I hope you don't mind... I hope you don't mind... that I put down in words...how wonderful life is now you're in the world" Soundtrack to the Moulin Rouge Directed by Baz Luhrman

So tonight as with most nights that I don't have the kids I am going to karaoke. I love to sing and this seems to be the only way i get to do it without looking like a super model first (because then I could be famous and junk). But This is my first rambling so I am sure there will be many many more :)