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A hundred years from now it will not matter what my bank account was, The sort of house I lived in, Or the kind of car I drove...But the world may be differnt because I was important in the life of another. We go by this at muh job. I work for mentally challanged people and let me tell you this is so very true when you work with them. Even though they have set backs in their lives. Not for one second do they want you to sit there and feel sorry for them or feel bad. Because they wouldnt take it back for anything. The fact that they have all these challanges that they have faced and whats yet to come they still stop to smile and make sure that you smile too. I just wanted to share this with all of you.

It just seems like yesturday that we saw your smiling faces. It just seems like yesturyear when you were in the back cutting up and beeing your goofy self. The days slowly pass by and yet it seems like its all a dream and that we will all wake up. But we know that you 5 are in a better place. Its hard to deal with it because you were loved by so many here on earth. You will never be forgotten ever and its so hard to grasp and conprehend why you were taken at such a young age. You had your whole lifes a head of you. But only God knows why you had to be taken away from so many people who love you guys. So we have laid you to rest in your proper spots and will always be visited in our hearts our thoughts and our dreams. We all love you and miss you so very much. we love you forever and alwayz R.I.P. Tiffy, James, Matt, Katie & Jessica

YOU KNOW DAY AFTER DAY WHEN I GET ON HERE. THEY HAVE THE CONTEST WHICH ARE FUN TO BE IN AND TO VOTE FOR PEOPLE. IM NOT GETTIN DOWN ON THEM. BUT I FEEL THAT THIS IS NO DIFFERENT THAN HIGH SCHOOL. PEOPLE FEEL THAT THEY NEED TO BE IN THE POPULAR CROWD. THEY WANT TO HAVE TO LET PEOPLE KNOW WHO THEY ARE AND THATS FINE. BUT FOR SOME PEOPLE ITS LIKE A EPADEMIC ALMOST A PLAGUE THAT THEY HAVE TO BE THE POPULAR KID THAT IF THEY ARE NOT THEN THEY CANT SURVIVE. DONT BE FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT TO BE IN THE LONER CROWD. AND BECAUSE SOMEONES OUTWARD APPERANCE ISNT WHAT YOU THINK IT SHOULD BE. TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE STARTING TO BE FAKE AND IT REALLY GETS TO ME. YOU KNOW WHAT PEOPLE ARE BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE THE SIZE CLOTHES THEY WEAR OR IF THEY SHOW THEIR TATAS OFF OR THEIR PRIVATE PARTS. TOO MANY WOMEN OUT HERE GET BOTHERED BECAUSE THEY DONT HAVE THOSE THINGS ON HERE THATS FINE IF YOU WANT TO SHOW THEM BUT THE ONES THAT DONT DO NOT GIVE THEM A HARD TIME IT DOESNT MEAN THAT THEY ARE BETTER THAN YOU THEY JUST DONT FEEL THEY NEED TO. AND WITH THE LOOKS SITUATION A PERSONS BEAUTY IS SKIN DEEP AND IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER. I MAY NOT BE A SUPER MODEL AND I DONT BELIEVE I AM PRETTY THATS JUST ME THAT HAS BEEN MY OPINON FOR A LONG TIME. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT THOSE PEOPLE THAT YOU PASS ON BECAUSE THEY ARENT GEORGOUS OR HOT OR BREATHTAKING YOU IN THE END WILL MISS THE WONDERFUL OPPERTUNITY IN MEETING AND BEING BLESSED WITH THE PRESENCE OR EVEN COMPANY OF THESE AMAZING REMARKABLE PEOPLE. SO PLEASE I ASK YOU DONT SHOVE PEOPLE AWAY BECAUSE THEY ARENT LIKE YOU. IF YOU WANT TO RESPOND FEEL FREE TOO. THIS IS JUST ME GETTIN SOME THINGS OFF OF MY MINE THAT I HAVE COME ACROSS. LOVE YA GUYS.MMFWCL ~JEN~

Girl: Hey Boy: What? Girl: I really like you. And I... I think I'm falling in love with you. Boy: Ok... Girl: What do you mean "ok"? Boy: I don't like you like that... Girl: Why not? Boy: I can't tell you... maybe another time... From then on, the girl kept asking the boy "Why not?" whenever she saw him, and he kept answering the same answer of "I'll tell you later." Finally the girl got fed up. Girl: I'm tired of this! Tell me why you don't like me! Boy: Do you really wanna know why? Girl: Yes! Boy: It's because you're uglier than ANYTHING! What's the point of going out with someone when they're not pretty?! Girl: But... I... Boy: Just shut up and leave me alone! The boy leaves and the girl is sitting there alone, crying her heart out. Then her cell phone rings. Girl: Hello? Mom: Sweetheart? I want you to go home, ok? I'll be home from work in a few hours. Girl: Alright Mom. Mom: I love you. Girl: I love you too, Mom. Mom: Bye Bye. Girl: Bye The girl heads home and once she got there, she went in the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror. Girl: I'm not pretty enough... She set to work, knowing fully well what she was going to do. 2 hours later, her Mom came home and heard the bath water running. She went upstairs to find the hallway flooded so she knocked on the door. Mom: Honey? Are you alright? She opened the door and was shocked at the site. The bath was overflowing onto the floor, and the water was tinted red. She walked over to see what was inside and screamed. There, her little girl was lying with cuts all over her face and wrists. Her Mom backed away and was going to run to call the police when something caught her eye. On the mirror, am I pretty enough now? No one deserves to be told that by someone they love. If you find it messed up then forward this to everyone you know. A person's appearance doesn't count. What counts is their heart inside of them and their personality. No one wants to be told they're not good enough...

Ok I have wanted to say this for a while and now I am actually gonna say it. Dont give a shit if it upsets someone or not. I love it how men and women are so into looks its not funny. I mean seriously what ever happen to that saying that beauty is only skin deep. Now adays you dont ever hear it. I mean you can put a drop dead georgous female next to a heavy set female and of course you know who the guys are gonna pick. You can put a drop dead sexy ass guy next to a heavy set guy and who are the females gonna pick I think we know this. But you can have both those females next to one another and both of those men next to each other and the hot ones can have the body but thats all they will have sometimes because alot of times all they have going for themselves is their looks what about the other ones alot of peopl over look them because they dont want to be seen with them they dont want to be embarrased or made fun of because they are with a heavy person they are some very few exceptions out there but not very many. Alot of times the heavy ones are gonna have more a awesome personality and heart an the others dont have that most of the ones i have encountered have sold me on the heart and personality. So I tell you the heavy set people are people also we may not have the body that society is exspecting us to have but dayum it we have the heart and personality. Dont sell yourself short alot of times men and women do that way to much. People care to much about what society says. Well society wont make you happy. You never know you might find an awesome person if people arent so stuck on looks all the dayum time. I just had to say this its gettin to the point that society in a whole is pissin me off. Grow up get some courage and get some fuckin balls stop lettin a world of fucked up people anyway decide your happiness or even a chance to test those waters. We dont have dieases or the plague and no you cant get fat just by touchin us and if you care more about what your friends and family and society is gonna think of if you get with a heavy person then you are a pussy and dont deserve the air that you breath. Feel more than welcome to email me or comment me if you feel this is wrong. I really dont care its about time some got tired of steppin on peoples toes and say this shit and I guess I am the one that needs to say this shit. Welp have a nice day

Good Bye My Dear Loved One If I could only see you one more time. What I would do to be able to hold you in my arms and tell you it will all be alright.The sad reality to that is it will never happen. You were ripped out of my arms so cold and abruptly I dont know if I could deal with this pain. The pain of knowing I will never get to see your face again. Be able to smell your sent that i loved to smell so many times before. Or just look at your face when you smiled at something or laughed at a stupid joke that was told. The terror and irrony of the fact that you will be gone forever. Hurts and cuts deeper than a blade ever could.It feels as if my heart has stoped and never able to regain the control of it. The nights lyin awake waitin for you to come lay next to me hold me close and caress my hair.The fact that we will never be able to do it again. For this my love I will have to let you go and never for one second let a day go by that I dont think of you or wish you to come back to me.The irony of it scares me so but I know I must be strong and that I can get thru it no matter what. Knowin and feeling you around me every second and minute of every day

Windows Of Soul I look into the windows of your soul. Looking inside to the very depths of you trying to find the deepest part. Trying to reach you in a way no one ever has. As I look I start to pull more and more of you into me. Getting so deep that I’m not sure I can grasp it. I hear you feel you say go, go farther deeper. Don’t be afraid it wont hurt you. But how can you know. Then finally I reach it. I feel it see it feel it and grasp it. Feeling and seeing and loving the depths of you. Each time looking and seeking more depths of your soul.

Dreams I dreamt that I saw you as an angel of light. Soon then after I realized it wasn’t true. I realized I had been deceived. Then I think about it. How could and angel someone that beautiful treat you that way. I don’t understand how people can get hurt like that. An angel of light doesn’t cause pain. It also doesn’t cause hurt. An angel of light is supposed to shine. It’s supposed to shine like the sun. However the angel of my dreams shines on me like darkness. Like the darkness outside, like the darkness of a cold empty room. I constantly ask my dream why do you do this. Why can’t I have light shine on me? Why do I have to have darkness shine on me?

Bonds When two people are so close it’s hard to imagine differences coming between them. Things shared that mean so much that could not be uttered to another soul. When something has broken the barrier and that bond. It feels as if your whole world has fallen down around you. Who do you go to when you feel you can’t have that bond? So you go on day after day hoping the bond is renewed and restored to its original state.That the bond that you once had could be trusted and never more harmed.

Pain I see you lying there I look close no movement. Then I see you blink your eyes. I say is there pain. Nothing I hear nothing come from your mouth. All I hear is silence. Then I continue to ask is there pain. And again nothing not a word is uttered from your mouth. Finally I ask again you don’t speak. When I look up at you I feel you squeeze my hand. I then see all the pain on your face. The way it has your face lit up. I then ask myself why do you have to have pain. Then the pain gets so intense that you cant breath. It’s almost like the breath is being taken from you. When you see someone you love going thru that it takes your breath away. I constantly ask why all this pain. For some people the pain is so intense that they just give up. They think that there is no answer for them. That there’s no hope that no one can help. I lie my head down and later I am awoke to screams and cries. I walk down the hallway and go into the room. It seems no the pain is even worse. I then look at your face and the pain is gone. No more burdens for you to bear yet no more pain nor suffering