I wrote a blog about longing recently. I want to add a few things for I was very upset when I wrote it. I have an absolute perfect life. Everyone I love is happy and healthy. I have a great marriage and great kids. I am doing excellent in school. So I don't want that blog to be a pity thing, because most people would kill for my life because its great and I am happy.
But back to the longing part what I was trying to say is that I long and yearn for something so much it makes my heart ache. And as much as I realize logically I have everything a person needs, this is something that is almost a calling and if I can't have it I will wonder what my purpose in this life was. I am sorry to be vague about what I long for, it is very personal, private and close to my heart and as everyone knows somethings are best kept a secret. It belongs in my soul and to express what it is would be wrong. I do promise this when I get it (if I do get it) I will tell everyone in a blog hell I will shout from the rooftops. Thank you all for your kind words. I was in a bad place when I wrote that and as much as I still ache for it I realize that I have a great life and great friends and family.
