Nikki Skittles's blog: "Momo's Diary"

Are such assholes. Really, I've had it with every single one of them.

The hot ones are either gay, taken, or shitty people.

The ugly ones are single fat, old, and dumb.

 

Yes, This is my experience and good LORD! I'm so pissed really I could care less if I get bashed for this.

 

I GIVE UP! -____-

 

I'm over doseing on medicines that don't work for me. I'm thinking of sticking myself into a hospital because I feel there must be some kind of infection going on here. So with that, I may not be online for quite a while or until I feel the light of my monitor isn't going to render me blind and cause my head to explode. SOOOOOOOOOOO....I'm out!

They will now only be available to family. If I like you, you will be added to my family and you will be allowed to view them. I'm tired of the annoying requests for my pics and ppl just friending me to see them. I will not accept family requests unless I like you and have talked with you. I will also add ppl to my family if I see them worthy. :) No fakes or BSing idiots. Genuine ppl, get genuine things. That's how I am.

Hmmm...I'm in the mood for this discussion! ^___^' I'd only give my precious and great amount of time to hot/cute, young males who... Have low self-esteem,lip piercings, tattoos, are emotional, sensitive, usually older in age and enjoies the darkness as much as I do. I think is incredibly hot when guys are mentally unstable and manipulative combined with no self-esteem and inner rage. -- I've gotten bored with fat ppl. Theres just only so much they could to for me. Constant perverts are annoying. Even HOT pervy people annoy the crap out of me.Just cos I'm a girl and just happen to be good looking doesnt mean I'm gonna put out for just anyone. Meet qualifications? Usually no. (And don't ask me. You'll know if you do so stfu lol) Old, fat pervy guys...C'mon. Think I'll waste my time? PLZ..so totally not cool. Yeah I'm shallow but I'm not going to sugarcoat anything either. I'm very exclusive and only the best, get the best of me. I don't like wasting my time with someone I dont feel anything for.Don't like it? :) There are other people on this earth who wont mind you.

I'm definately enjoying the internet way more than reality. A lot of this shit I NEVER get in real life! What can beat that? LALALALAALLAA Hoppity, skippity, jumpitty I just love being out of my mind sometimes!! Hmmmm...I don't like perverts. They are creepy. And old guys are wierd too. Ja matta ne minna! (see ya)

And under the tree there wasn't a sweet guy wrapped in x-mas wrapping with a bow. Poop. I slept in for the first time this year. I knew there was nothing to be excited about. Didnt get to shop this year not being able to find a job.Didn't exactly get what I wanted for thought about or even needed. But why complain? I'm alive and it's all that I need. But do I WANT it? Not right now. Sadly it's been a shitty month and I feel left out in the spirit ad giddy things. Would fake it but why bother if it isnt how I really feel? There are better things out there than all the material bullshit but sometimes, I find it hard NOT to cling so much to what I know is bad for my health.Mentally.

Today's had its ups and downs. I've seriously thought about becoming a lesbian but I can't...It's not the same. Thought about becoming a born-again virgin and devote myself to god. Can't... *sigh* It's been a rough month for me. -- Okay, I realize this site is sort of a online porno/fantasy bar thing. Hmmm...I don't mind it but is having pornograpic material really important in a profile? lol I'm sort of a prude but I love this site because I can communicate with real people I wont ever see in real life. For me it's like a MMORPG. For those who know what it is, maybe you'll agree. All the leveling up and stuff is like that. This place is a real ego boost too. It's cool to see the ratings I get even though it's just given to me so they can get points. The only problem I have tho are some of the people here that seem to think that just because they live in my area. I'm going to be interested in meeting them in person. As long as this site is as perverted as it is now, lol it's NEVER going to happen unless I decide this persons intentions are good (man or woman/friend or hook up). lol Some guys here are pretty fucking stupid. I'll save that for another entry.

Mood: Lonely Listening to: Radio I've mangaged to go a whole day without talking to Dan/Dad. He's disrespectful and annoying and I can't keep wasting my breath on the man.He drinks way too often and I hate it when he's drunk and he's always trying to get me to drink. I just don't want to. I dont need to always be drunk or drinking. There's just no call for it right now. My job interview is on the 29...I'm so excited. It means I could have a job, some money and a way to get out of here on a regular basis.I really hope this works out. Although today was rather uneventful it was decent. As for my last entry...I thought about it while stuck in the car with Derek for an hour. I shouldnt have to force myself to grow up. Things will just get get old on thier own I guess.Although I should, I havent been feeling like being myself because...I've always had low self esteem and never felt like I was good enough since countless abandons, ect ect...all that bullshit. Could anyone blame me? I just feel like I have to be different to "fit in".