MJ2 SWEET AKA Lil Farm Girl's blog: "MJ Blogs"

Stupid Americans: We, as stupid Americans, take everything for granted. You'd think we'd look around, watching everything crumbling around us... and realize we're fucked! We are a 3rd world country in the making... the architype for failure. Big business has tapped us dry, making their new homes in foriegn lands. The things we need become more expensive, as the value of our dollar plummets into oblivion. Our leaders bleed the working man, holding us down with their foot upon our backs... and their hands in our pockets. All is dictated, what we want, need, feel, love, desire... are we so dumb that we need a beer label to turn blue to tell us when it's cold??? You either fit into the scheme of things, or you're expendable... it's that simple. It's time for a revolution, a "take back our mind, body, and soul" awakening! But people would rather rally around the television... and vote for the next American Idol. Is reality THAT mundane? Do we really need to know which celebrities are fucking? Why live through other people... when we can make lives of our own. The important necessities... seem pale in comparison to materialistic wants. Force fed the by the corporate machine, choking on ad campaigns... devouring their plastic visions of global domination. We suck and we suck... right down to the last drop. Sometimes... I feel like I'm shadowboxing the sun, and burned at every turn. For we, as stupid Americans... live to watch our own demise.

When you live your life like there's no tomorrow, the world becomes a lot less dangerous. There is no breath... no second thought. You BECOME. Movement flows, pieces fit... but shadows still remain within the light of reason. Some people falter and lay to waste by the wayside... some people adapt and survive. THIS is reality. I've come to the realization that I live a life in monochrome... various shades of a single color. No matter how far I venture out... my world is grey. But, it's within this grey that I find my variations... it's within this grey that I find myself. My soul... my purpose... my inspiration. Solitude will become my one true friend... keeping me grounded and never asking for more than I can give. I will adapt and move on, burning through the memories... leaving love behind. There will be no more breath, only life. THIS is reality. A single cataclysmic anomaly... rendered senseless. Believing emotion can be silenced and forgotten, swept away from all existence. I have to believe that this is possible, because I can't keep living like this. I can't keep hoping... I can't keep waiting. I am blurred to the point of invisibility, and lost within the shuffle. Only validated within the necessity of your beckoned call. Once again I breathe... and forget how to live. Once again I hope... and forget about reality. Just another shade of grey lost in monochrome.... looking for solace.