Some thoughts..since I'm bored...lets see who notices.
So, this is like awesome, honestly.
I am the happiest I've ever been and I'm single.
I'm not working in a fu lounge.
I go to work, I listen to music all day long.
I come home and I dont have shit else to worry about.
I think for once I can say I'm content...not that that couldnt change but right now life is good.
I have some good friends, some I prolly flirt with more than others, but I know who I am and where I'm at.
I'm not getting over anyone or anything, I'm not entangled in any bs drama.
I can do my hobbies, live; I started mixing again and sampling If you havent heard some of it...msg me or hit me up for my soundcloud real dj link. I should be putting out my next track this weekend if all goes well.
When the words leave your mind and come out on paper ya sometimes find yourself inside. The feelings of hurt, the feelings of pain, and even sometimes the feelings of happiness or love. The funny part about it is sometimes ya read what you've written and love it sometimes not. When it isnt what you want sometimes you rewrite it over and over and over....until it clicks. My thought for the day is paper is expensive, so write thoughtfully, power is expensive so conserve your energy for when you might need it, and feel like, like you've never felt before.
Thought for the Day 9/23/09
Its been awhile, so I wanted to start out by saying hello again, if you missed my blogs guess what, I m back to writing again. Need to put my words somewhere and if you're reading this, hey leave a comment kudo or something say hey...
The thought: ------------------------- Learn something new everyday whether it be for work around the house cooking, out in the yard, out somewhere else. You can never know too much even though you already think you know it all. My life: ------------------------- My life as is, complicated to say the least. I find myself attached to that mobile pda I call a phone, and always looking for a better laptop. You can never have too many friends or too many ppl who you love and love you back. Thats a true friend anyway right, someone you'd do anything for if they asked unless ya really knew em....or sometimes even when ya do. |
Today is the start of another wonderful day, I'm quite emotionally a wreck now I found out. I helped my daughter pack to leave for a year during the day yesterday. This will be my first full year without having custody of my daughter and I'm worse then I thought I would be. She tells me she loves me and its okay. She tells me to be strong, and she is 9. I cant help but hurt. This being said if you notice like most of you have that all of the sudden I am not cocky, outspoken and my normal self you aren't alone. Messages have been pouring in pretty much the past 2 days and all I can really say is I am sorry and will try to be more chipper for all of you. Its a huge loss for me this year, but I will have to get used to it. I havent had to let her go for so long before so all of this is very new to me. Thanks, to all of you for your continued support and love and prayers. It does mean alot to me, and I'm sorry I have put alot of you on the sideburner. There is just alot going on in my head right now. I Love you guys!
So you wake up one day and think you have everything figured out?
Wrong, nothing is ever always figured out until it happens.
The only way to find what you want is to take chances, go meet new people do different things.
I find myself torn as to whether or not I could feel a certain way about something so strongly when I have only had to deal with it for a short amount of time.
I do however, find that if I have a feeling I shoud go for it, I should'nt ignore it.
And does anyone else find themselves addited to too much coffee?
Oh well I won't bore ya any longer, have a good one.