Matts Girl aka Pebbles's blog: "Me"

OK I am pissed.... so if you are having a good day dont read this!! I lost another friend today.. ripped him a new one. Turns out all I am to him was a game. And the funny part was he didn't even win it. I am so sick of this shit this is why I don't talk to men. Every one of them eventually wants down my pants. I can't freaking win.. I can't have male friends cause they want down my pants. Cant have female friends cause their men want down my pants!!And I don't care who the man is they all do it to me... One of these fits 99 % of men: 1) Honest - Check my email perfect stranger say hi nice pic wanna f8ck? Very rude but hey he was honest! 2) Sly- These will feel you out see ifyou are into it for a few days or weeks then lose interest and move on... Only a few days invested ~ no biggy... used to it. 3) I can handle being friends... These hang aourn moths even years.. yes I said years... become so close of a friend that it send you to your room crying for days when they finally figure out they can't do it they want to get down your pants.. and can't live without it... which basically boils down to Give it up or I am gone.... I have had a whole lot of these they hurt like hell..... 4) I am a game.... These are the worst ones.. these are the ones tha tis doesn't matter what or how long it takes they are determined they are going to get down your pants. But it not the sex they want . It is the challenge. I am something they think they can't have. I have told them they can't have it. And they will die trying to score. But like I said I am a game. As soon as you show a little interest or they get what they want ..they aren't interested anymore. So you get a friend that may be there for years or months, that has led you into their lives. You know almost everything about them, they make you think they care about you as a person. That you are worth something and that all the other men are pigs... AND then.. as soon as they figure out they can have you if they wanted.. they leave. ~~This is one sorry ass way to treat people. So at the top of this somewhere I said that I lost what I thought was a friend and that he didn't even win. That is because like the day we met I still wasn't interested. Although, somewhere in that mixed up mind of his he thought I was. And so he left thinking he had conquered the game. Yes I cussed him.. I don't do that .. that was the first. But it wasn't right. He pissed me off and got me thinking ... I have been a game all along..All my life I have been treated this way. So I guess I am back to the no men thing.....I still have one or two that I will talk to but no more I am not going through this shit again. It is not worth my tears. (and no it wasn't my husband -- he is a great man!) Well I have ranted enough for one night...I am out of here....Missa

Ok so here goes... Here has been my day so far... was supposed to meet a friend for coffee this morning before I went job hunting .... well that didn't happen. (btw I wish you the best if you are reading this, it is hard but will get better!Call me anytime day or night I gave you the number for that reason! ) But I stopped in at the truckstop for some gas and.. I ran into a girl that works there and she asked what I was up to ... told her job hunting - and low and behold the manager is behind her and says come on back I will interview ya now.. lol So I spent from about 8:30 this morn til about 11:30 talking to this guy..taking tests.. and listening to the whole spill about the company. He hands me a stack of papers and tells me where to go for the drug test..I will tell ya all about that experience in a minute. so if he doesn't change his mind between now and then I have a job!! At a truckstop!!! What a hoot... for all those that know me.. you know why that is so funny. And it is in the service department to boot! Pay isn't that bad.. said it would be above $8 plus commission and Incentives.. has benefits.. and said would start me out full time.. Now about the drug test .. I ride over to this place and I walk in.. sign my name and sit down.. and I start hearin gthis woman talking.. talking about she didn't know why anyone would think she did drugs and this would be the best money ever spent.. and then tells the lab worker not to take that much hair off..... DING!!! HUH?? HAIR? MY ears perk up then ... and sure enough that lab technician took the scissors at the nape of her neck and cut her HAIR!!! I was floored.. well she finishes up and then they call me .. LMAO I stood up and said you aren't thinking of doing that to me are ya? LOL Now ihave had drug screens before but that was the first time i had seen that... She laughs at me and says that that woman was court ordered to have that kind of test.. mine was just urine.. I told her that was good.. cause I would pee in a cup to get a job.. but I ain't cutting my hair! So there it is my funny story.. prob only funny to me though. So not bad.. Have another friend I had to stand up today... they aren't on here so I won't talk to them lol but it couldn't be helped by the time I got out of there is was too late ... I still have to get to the police dept to turn in that fake money order I got.. yeah rigth I believe it is real... send me a mo for 3 grand when your total is 600 and ask me to cash it and send the rest back as your commission yeah right... last time I checked stupid wasn't stamped on my forehead though. I am kinda bummed out I didn't get to see my friend today was looking forward to it..but it couldn't be helped I suppose, but am excited about working again. Well I am out of here!! ~Pebbles~