1534334's blog: "me"

hey guys i moved ... don't have money for internet right now .. so i will not be on that much. ~to the lounges i work for ... if u wanna pull my mods i will not be offended because obviously i can't get on the comp... love my fu family ... ya'll know how to readh me if u need me!

have you ever been in a room full of people u know and care about but feel utterly alone... have u ever just felt empty inside no matter what u do. i can't seem to shake this feeling... this emptiness is growing... without any warning more and more of my world is becoming dark. i'm going through my dailey shit without really knowing or caring what comes next. unaware of the steps i need to take to fix this... pretty soon i will be an empty shell... the darkness is consuming my world.... fading into a nothingness that i can't stop .... to be alone for eternity is my biggest fear ... here we go into the abyss.... love u all

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i'm so sick of being hurt of letting myself get hurt. i'm done! i close myself off ... if i close my self off i can't get hurt no more. so i hope everyone finds that one they are supposed to be with and have a wonderful life together. As for me screw relationships.. i don't need them.

My nine yr old brother is on my last freakin nerve. He doesn't listen to no one, and is always back talkin. i wanna say with me it has to do with the age difference he is 12 yrs younger than me. but my hands are tied i can't step in and do anything about the way he treats me due to my step mother.. my father doesn't understand that i'm at the last strand of patience with this lil boy. cause he's starting to rub off on my son and i can't fix it. my parents have to step in and take care of my lilest brother. and i doubt that they ever will! so what the hell am i supposed to do with alex. i didn't want alex playing with toy guns yet and i walked outside and they are all right there playin with nerf guns so what the fuck .... i'm sick of correcting everything that that lil boy teaches my son but i can't move outta here. i'm stuck and it's driving me crazy!

i have fallen in love with someone and want to tell him but it won't help so what am i supposed to do. everytime i see him online my stomach flip flops . everytime i see him in the lounge my heart flutters. i wish i could just pour it out to him .... i wish i could let him see but it's to late it won't help so i sit here and feel all of this and can't let it out. i hope if he reads this that he doesn't stop coming around i just had to let my feelings out some how.