StayCee MehRee's blog: "Me"

As most of you know I have been on fu now over 5yrs and for most of those 5yrs I have always used a regular picture of myself as a default picture. Well more recently like the past month I have changed and put up a default picture of semi sexy skinny women to see how people react. 

It's so funny because when I had my regular picture up hardly anyone men or women would associate with me or help me out. I am by no means a hot, beautiful, skinmy, model type chick...in fact I am the exact opposite...in my eyes. 

Since posting these new pictures on here it's so strange how many people [mainly men] talk to me or say hi to me. 

This just goes to show that people don't pay attention to who you really are on here they only care about what's on the outside. 

Anyways done venting for now just figured this was kinda interesting.

To my best friend===

There was a girl who met this man... Staying together was their plan. They fell in love and never fell out. They stand together without a doubt. They showed the world just what they are. That their love was a gift from a far. Nothing else could even compare. Because love this true is oh so rare. Although it's not an easy road that there walking on. But no matter what there faith remains strong. So they continue down that road. And their love continues, keeps it's hold. They would last to the very end. Because their not just lovers their best friends.

===Love you so much

As the words "I ♥ you" escape my tounge, your breath carries into my lungs.

1 by 1.

I feel velvet lips attach to mine as I feel 2 ♥'s intwine.

As I gaze into the depths of your eyes, I see they luminate more than the sun.

When you grasp my waist and our souls pull together I know it'll last forever

I got this gun in my hand bullets in the chamber, one pull of the trigger to end all this anger.

Late nights are always sleepless ones and early mornings I wish would never come.

I just want all this hurt to end, I want to be happy once again.

No one even knows the half of what I am going thru, or the things that haunt my mind too.

I open my heart up so it can be loved and shared and in the end my feelings never get spared.

Hurt again and again led on to believe. that someday your love I will receive.

Guess I should just keep waiting and allow my heart to keep aching.

I need you to point me in the right direction or just show a little stitch of affection.

Something to keep me going here instead of always living on a prayer.

Why does loving someone have to be so damn hard?? The past few days I have done nothing but cry real tears over 1 person..the 1 person I care so deeply for and want in my life more than anything right now.

I've waited and watched and wondered if he is ever going to feel the same for me? Do I even have a chance?? I can't bring myself to open my heart up or get close to anyone else right now until I get a clear answer from him.

If it means I have to wait forever and be lonely I guess that is god's plan atleast until I know for sure if me and him will ever be more than just friends.

I know I'm not the prettiest woman out there, or the smartest but I have a heart and I just want to be given the chance to share it with someone I truly care about.

If he'd just tell me what he wants with me I'd feel so much better knowing what direction to go in with all this. So confused..need lots of hugs right now...

It's amazing how so many people on fubar remind me of this song..

Run a few blings or a Happy Hour and you got a ton of friends..but when you're not runnin nothin no one even recognizes you on here..it's sad. When you're down and out who is there?? People are selling their family spots for credits..why would you want to remove your close friends who been with you thru day one for a few credits? I just don't get it..true friendship should be worth more than a few dollars if you ask me. I would never replace the bond I have built with a few people on here for money..and I mean no amount of money. You can say you have 5,000 friends, 10,000 friends, or a 100,000 friends but yet you want to sell your family spots that should be saved for the closests of close friends. It's your profile your account and your life but think about it..would you wan't your best friend replacing you for a couple of dollars?? Read the lyrics to this song..can you honestly say you have 1 friend..just 1 friend that would help you if you was down and out?? I know I do...in fact I have a few that have and would if I asked. I don't believe getting ahead on a website is worth sacrificing a friendship that may last a lifetime. That's just me..guess I am an outsider.

Run your car off the side of the road
Get stuck in a ditch way out in the
middle of nowhere
Or get yourself in a bind, lose the shirt off your
back
Need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare

This is where the
rubber meets the road
This is where the cream is gonna rise
This is what
you really didn't know
This is where the truth don't lie

You find out
who your friends are
Somebody's gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up
their car
Hit the gas, get there fast

Never stop to think, 'What's in
it for me?'
Or 'It's way too far'
They just show on up with their big ol'
heart
You find out who your friends are

And everybody wants to slap
your back, wants to shake your hand
When you're up on top of that
mountain
But then one of those rocks give way then you slide back
down
Look up and see who's around then

This ain't where the road comes
to an end
This ain't where the band wagon stops
This is just one of those
times when
A lotta folks jump off

You find out who your friends
are
Somebody's gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up their car
Hit
the gas, get there fast

Never stop to think, 'What's in it for me?'
Or
'It?s way too far'
They just show on up with that big ol' heart
You find
out who your friends are

When the water's high
When the weather?' not
so fair
When the well runs dry
Who's gonna be there?

You find out
who your friends are
Somebody's gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up
their car
Hit the gas, get there fast

Never stop to think, 'What's in
it for me?'
Or 'It's way too far'
They just show on up with their big ol'
heart
You find out who your friends are, yeah yeah
You find out who your
friends are

Run your car off the side of the road
Get stuck in a ditch
way out in the middle of nowhere, man I been there
Or get yourself in a bind,
lose the shirt off your back
Need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare, man
I been there
Man I been there

So it's 3:41 am CST and I can't go to sleep until I get this stuff off my chest. Have you ever loved someone so much you held back everything afraid you would hurt or scare that person away if you told them truly how you felt? I have and still do but I have to let go and tell him how I feel. When he reads this he will know it's about him so no names have to be mentioned.

When I met you a month and a half or so ago just something about you drew me in...you're mysterious, funny, sweet, handsome, caring, honest, and just so dang silly it's cute. I haven't felt this way about anyone not even my daughters father..

You can take the craziest of moments and turn them into some of the funniest, you respect me, you can make my tears go away in a split second, and all those things and so much more are what makes me want us to be so much more than just friends.

When I look at your pictures I lose my breath and get tingly inside..never had that happen with anyone else. I wake up thinking about you and go to bed thinking about you. All day long you're on my mind. You are just completely absolutely breathtaking to me.

I would do anything for you to keep you happy, and keep you smiling. When you hurt I hurt and when you're sad I am sad.

I think back to the day we first met on here and all we have been thru together..even a few arguements but even thru those we managed to make up and fix things.

I spent all night tonight crying about earlier because I was scared I had lost you for good. I couldn't handle that at all you mean way to much to me.

I want you in my life, not only as a best friend but as so much more. I hope someday that can be a reality or a possibility. I want you to be the one I tell good night to and sweet dreams to every night for the rest of our lives, the one I kiss on the lips when we go to bed at night and the one I wake up next to each morning. I know I know kinda deep but I have to get this off my chest now or I won't ever tell you these things.

I do my best thinking it seems when I am thinking about you and only you.

I know alot of things I do on this site you don't like and don't support and for you I can change if it means you will give me that one chance I want with you. All I ask is you have faith in me, let me prove to you that I mean all of what I am saying to you.

I spent the whole day and I mean the whole day yesterday thinking about you and how I felt about you. I never ever ever had these feelings like this for anyone at all..you make me melt. My only wish is that someday we get to act on these feelings.

I care about you more than you will ever know, words can't even put a meaning to how much love I have for you..yes I said love. I honestly do love you because you know what..you been there for me more than anyone on this stinkin site or even in real life.

When I was having a bad day you was there to cheer me up, when I cried hours upon hours over jerks that broke my heart you was there, when I needed someone to talk to you was there for me as well...no questions asked you stopped what you was doin and you made me smile. I would give almost anything to have that everyday of my life.

Not a single person on this site will ever take your place in my life I don't care how much money they spend or how much bling they give me. You will always hold a special place in my heart and a special place in my life....My question to you is are you willing to give me the chance to prove these things to you?? Are you willing to let me prove to you that I want this more than anything??

Will you give me that chance??

I will change for you because that's just how damn bad I want this..you name it and I will do it.

Well I need to get some rest now and dream about you. I hope we get to talk about this in the morning. Goodnight.

So as I sit here and think about things you come to my mind..it's so funny how in a matter of hours someone can come into your life and change it for the better and to look back at what I had before compared to what I have now I wouldn't change a thing. You've become the best friend I never had, the person I could turn to when I needed a lil pick me up and the person who no matter how bad things are going can always get a smile out of me. And to think some silly people tried to take that all away from me. Well that will never happen ever again. I never knew what it was like to have someone I could talk to about anything til I met you. It doesn't matter what it is or who it's about we can always find some way to turn it into a laughing marathon. Your pictures...ah yes those you already know I just absolutely love every single one of them, your smile is amazing, and those eyes you could melt a heart with them. My wish for you is that you have the most amazing life anyone could ever ask for and I hope that you get everything you've ever wanted out of it. Your smart, funny, silly, loving, and so much more..in fact I don't even know if words could describe all the things you are in my heart. I'm just so glad we met on here and so glad we decided to talk to one another. I wouldn't trade one single minute, message, email, skype call, or anything else for that fact. You're just plain amazing in my book. I hope you read this and realize just how special you are to me and I hope nothing between us ever changes. Thank you so much for everything and thank you for being my friend-Huggles

Just wanted to give my friends updated contact info----

ADDRESS---

STACIE ARNOLD

409 GRAND AVENUE CIR

CARROLLTON, MO 64633

CELL # 660 202 0427

Hey all been gone so long!!!! Got anew cell number with unlimited everything so hit me up k 1-660-202-0427