Renee is Radical's blog: "Me + You = ..."

Hurtful words, From my enemies of the last five years, What's it like to die alone? How does it feel when your tears freeze, When you cry, The blood in your veins is twenty below. Sitting in this room playing Russian Roulette, Finger on the trigger to my dear, Juliet Out from the window see your backdrop silhouette, There's blood on my hands and it's something I cannot forget So for now, Take this down a notch, Crash my car through your window, Make sure you're still alive, Just in time to kill you. Sitting in this room playing Russian Roulette Finger on the trigger to my dear, Juliet Out from the window see your backdrop silhouette There's blood on my hands and it's something I cannot forget I can't take this anymore. I cannot feel what you've done to me

Its just like him to wander off in the evergreen parts slowly searching for any sign of the ones he used to love he says he got nothing left to live for and this time i think you know youre not alone there is more to this i know you can make it out you will live to tell IM just like him spoiled rotten and confused by the lies IVE been fed and IM searching no one but MYSELF MY eyes turn to green and I seem to be happy but I need help and this time i think you know youre not alone there is more to this i know you can make it out you will live to tell

I'm on fire And the day is feeling hopeless You'd see me burning but the burning's turning smokeless Soon I won't feel at all No It's electric the neon heard inside your phone call The letter's sadness and her madness it revolves Bringing down the walls where you found her No Well, I'm willing to break myself To shake this hell from everything I touch I'm willing to bleed for days more reds and grays So you don't hurt so much And now I'm static As your sky is turning purple and gray I'm learning that the further that I crawl The farther that I fall, is that ok? No And you're in pieces As your world becomes a rainstorm You've got no shelter I'm a thousand miles away You'll survive the day You say your leaving You say your leaving Well, I'm willing to break myself To shake this hell from everything I touch I'm willing to bleed for days more reds and grays So you don't hurt so much So you don't hurt so much Never again will I fire this gun No never again your the only one No never again but you're already gone I'm willing to break myself I'm not afraid I'm willing to break myself I'm not afraid I'm willing to break myself I'm not afraid Well, I'm willing to break myself To shake this hell from everything I touch I'm willing to bleed for days more reds and grays So you don't hurt so much

I never loved nobody fully Always one foot on the ground And by protecting my heart truly I got lost, in the sounds I hear in my mind All of these voices I hear in my mind All of these words I hear in my mind All of this music And it breaks my heart Suppose I never ever met you Suppose we'd never fell in love, Suppose I never ever let you, Kiss me so sweet and so soft Suppose I never ever saw you Suppose you never ever called Suppose I kept on singing love songs, just to break my own fall All my friends say that of course its gonna get better but is it really???

You piss me the fuck off. I dont even know why i waste my fucking time. I mean, you like everybody but me. What is so horrible about me that you cant like? I just dont even know. What the fuck ever. But as much as i say this, ill probably still talk to you and pretend that you actually care just to make myself feel better. I guess my heart is just a game to you. I dont know why im surprised, everyone treats it like this.

i like to know where the riverboat sails tonight to new orleans well thats just fine alright :]

I always do this. I put my heart out there, only to have it stomped on and crushed. It always happens. I dont know why I even try anymore. I dont even know why I bother liking anyone. They never like me back. I guesss its just too much to ask :/ Oh No, this couldnt be more unexpected and I can tell that i've been moving in so slow dont let it throw you off too far cause ill be running right be hind you Ohhhh, when Im around you im predictable cause I believe in loving you at first sight I know its crazy but im hoping to take a hold of you could this be out of line to say youre the only one breaking me down like this youre the only one i would take a shot on keep me hangin on so contagiously :[

the collapse of the world on the quietest day this time its the sun standing still we're holding on hope for something thats good i've come now as far as I can go today on this vast, empty space dont give up now dont throw your heart away :/

_{Write me down I am the words falling apart Take this broken world off of my heart So I stumble down into the room where the templates are made And you show me that somehow I can change these days You pulled a part of me I could never understand Crashing to your side and your breaking up this silence Never to again let my courage fall You try for every moment walking hand in hand So encouraging I’m continually coming time and time again for anything you say now For this foreign affair I will abide as the middle man Cause the solo cry is more than I can stand So I walk on air and awkwardly seek out a child’s form And I know that you won’t lead me to the storm}

And she tells everyone her story cause she thinks her life is boring and she fights so you wont ignore her cause thats her biggest fear and she cries but you rarely see her do it and she loves but shes scared to use it so she hides behind the music cause she likes it that and she knows shes so much more than worthless she needs to find the surface cause shes starting to get nervous and shes calling out to you this is a call out cause everytime i fall down i reach out to you and im losing all control now and my hazard signs are all out im asking you to show me what this life is all about