Spoiledlilbrat fuengaged to nativecntry's blog: "Mandys thoughts"

I feel like I'am losing my best friend we're drifting apart. I don't know what goes on in your life anymore. We hardly keep in touch. I feel i've been replaced by someone else in your life and it tears my heart to shreds. I know you don't mean to do this but it is how i feel right now. I'am hurt and jealous. I hope you realize how i feel now and together we can work this out so out friendship does not get any worse. I'm sorry if i upset  you. I'm telling you how i feel but it something i needed to say. Nicole you mean the world to me and i could not stand another day with out you in my life. Please come back. I miss you and love you so much. Your aunt coco to my son and he never gets to see you. hes grown so big and youve missed all of that. i need you in my life. Thats  all i have to say.

 

Please comment and tell me what i should do?  I call her she wont answer. She moved in to a house so i dont know where she lives. please help me.

HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO? WELL IM AT THE POINT RIGHT NOW WHERE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. MY SON IS KICKIN, HITTING ME, AND THROWING THINGS AT ME. IM HOPING IT WILL GET BETTER. AS FOR THE GUY THAT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. I LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW IT. I DONT KNOW WHY YOU SECOND GUESS ME ALL THE TIME. IF YOU KEEP THAT UP YOU WILL DRIVE ME AWAY. WELL I REALLY DONT HAVE TIME TO TALK RIGHT NOW BUT I WILL WRITE AGAIN AND LET YOU KNOW WHATS GOING ON LOVE LIL RD

Those of you that know my grandpa he is in the hospital today. My dad was at work and he hadnt called my dad all day so my dad when and checked on him and he had fallin in front of the door at the house. A fire truck showed up with 3 guys and they couldnt pick him up so an ambulance sawed up with 2 more and it took all 5 of them to pick him up to get him on the bed. They are keeping him i dont know for how long but I might have to move back home to help my dad out with my grandpa while hes at work oh man i will not have time for a life with him and my son wow . My grandpa is sick and i want to spend as much time with him as i can. He has no idea what hes talking about or where he is. Well please keep him in your prayers and i will let yall know whats going on love lil red

Ive never felt so bad in my life like i do now. Ive made the best guy in my life upset with me. What am i stupid? I dont know what to do or how to get my mind back on track. I guess ill just let it flow and see what happens. I just feel so stupid. Blah i feel like shit i dont want to talk no more night everyone ---heart broken lil red

Why friends have to back stab you and tell you lies. Why ex boyfriends tell you one thing and someone else another. Well im done makin friends and im doin with stupid fuckin liers, drama, and back stabin friends. To the one that back stab me tonight can kiss my ass. I mean it dont ever talk to me again ever. Dont ever call me again. I mean it. You think im playin try me ass hole. Im done. What you said to me and what you said to your girlfriend is enough lies for me to hear for a year so yeah no more friendship. I know i said i forgive and forget well i gave you your chance and you lost it and im done and another thing if i was so ugly the WHY DID YOU WANT TO MARRY ME???? Stupid...sorry im done

MY GRANDPA SAYS HE DONT FEEL GOOD AND WANTS ME AND MY DAD TO TAKE HIM TO THE DOC BUT EVERY TIME WE TAKE HIM TO THE DOC HE WONT DO WHAT THEY WANT HIM TO DO AND HE IS RUDE TO THEM. THEY DONT DESERVE THAT. THEY ARE JUST TRYING TO HELP HIM. I WENT TO SEE HIM TODAY AND HE TOLD ME HE WANTED TO GO TO THE DOC AND I SAID GRANDPA IF WE TAKE YOU, YOU WONT STAY. MY GRANDPA IS SUFFERING AND THERE IS NOTHING WE CAN DO ABOUT IT BECAUSE HE WONT HELP HIS SELF. HE TOLD ME HE WONT MAKE IT TO CHRISTMAS AND I SAID YES YOU WILL. I DONT NEED ME CHRISMAS TO BE A SAD ONE AGAIN THIS YEAR. I DONT KNOW WHAT DO YOU GUYS THANK I SHOULD DO. I FEEL LIKE I CANT HELP HIM BUT I KNOW THAT THERE IS SOME WAY JUST DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS YET. WELL TAKE CARE ALL MY FRIENDS AND MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF YOU.....LIL RED

I was on my way in to odessa to see my friend. She's in the hospital because she was having chest pains. Well I didnt make it. My dad called me to come be with my grandpa so he could go back to work because he wouldnt let my dad leave. I said ok. Well My dad said never mind he wants to go to the hospital so he called 911. I think my grandpa is dying. Hes been sick since grandma died. I think its finally getting to him. I dont want him to go because ive been crying today but why am i being so selfish. He will be with my grandma and thats where he wants to be. Im just not ready to let him go because i want him to give my son candy like he does all the little kids. My grandpa couldnt hear me at all when i went and seen him earlier today. I have to be strong for my son but i should also been ready for this but I never really am. Its not fair. I want my grandpa with me. Well Im upset i have to go ill write more later. lil red

My ex mother in law is putting me in the middle of her devorce. I called her husband and told him. Im not your fuckin kid dont put me in the middle of it. I have a son to worry about not drama. My ex mother in law is mad at me but i dont really care. Ill be glad when she goes to Ohio. I dont want to be around her any more. She takes drugs for her back. But she stays up 3 or 4 days at a time and wants to take care of my son. Nope sorry not going to do it. She wants him dearing the summer and We are going to let her have him. He was born in May and shes only seen him 5 or 6 times since then. Im sorry but thats not what a grandma does to her grandson. My dad takes him once a week and spends time with him thats what a grandparent is suppost to do. She dont act like she even gives a sh*t about my son. Well guess what I'll have to live with it i guess. I took my son to the hospital last night with a 103.9 fever. He had shots the day before. He had a ear infection that his doc said he never had so im changing docs. If something happens to my son because of him ill will be going crazy. I am a red head lmao. Any way Hes doing better got his fever down. I go get him tomorrow. I miss him so much. But i wanted my dad to have him because he didnt take him tuesday because we had a wic apt. Well take care and love to all my friends love -mandy

There is a new show coming out called Black and gold. I will be on tv. It will be on court tv but they are changing it to trutv. The producer will be here tomorrow for more stuff for the show. My son will be on tv too. Isnt that just so cool. Im happy but ill be anywhere and someone will say hey i know you from that show. Thats going to make me feel good but also there are people that are going to make fun of the show. GGGGGGRRRRRR. Well my sons grandma is moving to Ohio and wants us to move there to. Im not going my grandpa is sick and i want to be here when he passes. My dad is going to keep my son tomorrow night because i didnt want to get up and go get him at 6 am this morning. Well anyway My son and I are doing good. You guys tell me what you think about the new show. Well I will be going out of town and they're going to pay for the flight. Well I need to go ill try and write again tomorrow. Right now im a little tired. love always Mandy

My son is with his grandma so i can has some free time. Im really tired so im going to get as much sleep as i can. My friends baby is out of the hospital and doing fine. Thank goodness for that. Im going to my friends house in odessa tomorrow because she hasnt seen my soon in a few months. Wow im really tired but if i got to sleep now i wont sleep later on tonight when i go to bed and ill be mad lol not really. I miss my son. I worry about my son. I guess thats what moms are suppost to do. My ex is still wanting me back and I told him he would have to live with what he did because i was not going back to him. He left me for coke witch im glad he didnt take him down with me but i dont need drugs in my life. I have a son to take care of without drugs on my mind. I dont want my son taken away from me that would just kill me. I think more about my son then myself. I dont know if that is good or not but i do it anyway. Thanks to all my friends that leave me comments and stuff i couldnt think you enough. It just shows that im loved and it took me this long to understand that. I have to go for now take care everyone and love to you all -Mandy