Twitchypoo's blog: "Lyrics"

This blog is just gonna be loaded with different lyrics that I feel has meaning to myself or just things that make me think.

All I ever wanted was
I don't wanna lie
All I ever wanted was
A shot that I never got
All I ever needed
No one ever cared
All I ever wanted was
Someone take me outta here        (Twiztid "All I ever wanted")


I'm different
I'm not like you
I'm different
I like fuckin' with voodoo
I'm different
I come from the darkside
I'm different
I've seen the dead come alive   (Twiztid "Different")


No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me
Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy?
Don't do it, you're hurting me
Why did you have to be such a bitch
Why don't you,
Why don't you just fuck off and die
Why can't you just fuck off and die
Why can't you just leave here and die
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
How would you like to see how it feels mommy
Here it comes, get ready to die    (Disturbed "Down with the sickness")


Johnny boy always played the fool, he broke all the rules so you would think he
was cool.
He was never really one of the guys no matter how hard he tried, with the
thought of suicide
It's kinda hard when you ain't got no friends, he put his life to an end they
might remember him then.
You cross a line and there is no turnin back he told the world how he felt with
the sound of a gat.           (P.O.D. "Youth of the nation")


You only saw the outside
Never knew what I was feeling
Now everyday you lay in bed staring at the ceiling
But you don't see me no more
You can fill your heart with memories
And things from before
But everybody got a purpose in life
To survive when the sunrise
You gonna live to see another day
Just don't follow me and live your life your own way
I'll be in set and if you forget
Get the picture with the cord around my neck
See me underground and I'm stuck
But it's cool that's where I wanna be
Keep the drama in hand but outta sight
And know that
I'mma be alright           (Twiztid "I'm alright")


Devon lies beyond this portal
Take the word of one immortal
Give your soul to me
For eternity
Release your life
To begin another time with her
End your grief with me
There's another way
Release your life
Take your place inside the fire with love     (Disturbed "Inside the fire")


But we can't feed the homeless
Then OJ's wack story unfolded
And everybody watched that while Oklahoma exploded
900 good reasons why this world really don't care

Bombs are blowing up, cops are corrupt
And all you care about is who the president fucked?
You don't know terrible...you will
as soon as our wagons come over the hill!!   (Insane Clown Posse "Terrible")



No love for myself,
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level.
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cut my life into pieces,
This is my last resort,
Suffocation,
No breathing,
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding.
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight,
Chances are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight,
And I'm contemplating suicide.   (Papa Roach "Last resort")


I'm trying to deal with it
Being different and all that
Invisible broken wings are fixed on my back
Pitch black your outta sight your outta mind
Who you don't see now, your gonna forget overtime
Let's rewind now how your wings got broke
Maybe it's because you took life for a goddamn joke
We the freekshow circus
Underated on purpose and can't muthafuckin' hurt us
I can't eat, causin' panics in the streets
Everybody runnin' you can see the axe comin', call us
Outcast we the strange on display
But little do they know I give a fuck what they say
I represent all the killas and people who lost faith
Heaven's a journey and hell's just around the way
Where it's at
Just around the way
Heaven's a journey but hell's just around the
Muthafuckin' way     (Twiztid "Broken Wingz")


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase   (Evanescence "My Immortal")


Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine     (Cradle of Filth "Nymphetamine")

These are some of my favorite Twiztid songs (my favorite group of all time , their lyrics are real deep and have helped me through some real tough shit and is a big reason im proud to call myself a Juggalo)

"Afraid Of Me"

[Chorus x2]
I'm so
Hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold
Forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no
Body that you ever wanna be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me

[Monoxide Child]
Now you can try to sedate me, assassinate or just hate me
But there's nothing that you can do to me lately
Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind so I'm confused and intertwined
From being rejected so many times, I wanna leave it all behind
So kind of you to pick up the album and give it a try for once
And run and tell your homies that these motherfuckers will die for us

So many questions, fingers pointing for answers
Suggesting that I'm the cancer that lingers inside the pasture
With green grass up to my neck, and situations that's too fast
To think about and most people can't dream about
A hundred million miles and every single second
And every time you hear this record I want you to feel me on every sentence
Reminisce from descendants of past treasures
We'll embark on a journey that'll stay alive forever
Plus I would stand over on my side of the fence
Regardless of the circumstances or the consequences

[Chorus x2]

[Jamie Madrox]
I am my own worst enemy
I'm not the smartest motherfucker and shit, I don't pretend to be
And why I am the way I am is not a mystery
My mind's not in proper working order or in therapy
Deranged, confused and mentally abused
Life's been hanging on a string so what the fuck I got to lose?
And what the fuck I got to prove to you?
If you don't know me by now, you'll never know me
You can put that on my real homies
I got problems and they stack like bills
And I relate to the broken, bleeding heart love killed
And I waited in the shadows, awake in the dark
Hoping to talk to the passed on, I'm falling apart
I'm such a mess and decisive, I'm fading away
I'm out of touch with society and living today
Never relying on my sanity, I threw it away
To become the maniac that's got your attention today

[Chorus x2]

[Monoxide Child]
Can you keep a secret?
Well I'm afraid of the world because they want me to die, can you believe it?
But I'm still alive... and been floating since '95
With my chin held high but I'm so dead inside
Let the problems just roll and put them back into a pile
Because it's just a bunch of shit that I can't deal with right now
And I'm tired of always guessing and messing it up again
And the next day it's even deeper and I'm steady sinking in

[Jamie Madrox]
I took a look at myself and came to grips with what I found
It was a vision of a child, disturbed and broke down
No soul, no heart because I gave it away
No time for feeling sorry, I'll grieve another day
And all those tears are stored in storm clouds
That hover above me and cover the ugly
Continued to haunt me when I was feeling low
That's the same reason I hold on and never let go

[Chorus x4]


"Wondering Why?"

[Jamie Madrox]
On the windows in my mind at night
There's some things going on, some of them are not right
I've been locked in this house, in this abusive home
No one is there on the couch and I'm alone
Inside of my head, things are unclear
I don't rely on the person I see in the mirror
And I don't die for the chance to be standing right here
Sometimes I'm a smart ass when being sincere

[Monoxide Child]
I see everything's flashing, I wish it would stop
There's just something that makes me so nervous about cops
All their pushing and shoving and macing my eyes
It will only keep burning this hate that's inside of me
Hitting me, kicking me just for the fun
And all I keep on thinking is "Go for the skull!"
To protect and to serve are the words you should heed
And if you don't, we're gonna watch you bleed

[Chorus]
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can break me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can make me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can save me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can change me

[Monoxide Child]
She loves me and hates me, it's all just the same
But I can hear her screaming and yelling my name
Now her face is all blue and her eyes are all red
From the drugs that she keeps on popping
Instead of me helping I'm learning and pushing away
The visions and memories of things she would say
They keep coming and flashing so I keep on laughing
Bitch, you never should've fucked my boy

[Jamie Madrox]
I'm in touch with my fear, that's why I stay afraid
And I'll stay that way until night turns to day
And them nice words you say will slowly mutate
And become the better part of you we all love to hate
And well, speaking of fate, I'm trying to relate
To the ever growing destiny and it's amazing shape
They tell me I'm straight and then diss me all day
There's a website debate, was it all a mistake?

[Chorus]
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can break me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can make me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can save me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can change me

[Monoxide Child]
It just keeps calling me, whispers my name
All alone I was sitting down in the darkness again
All my friends, they are dead but remain in my head
So I truly believe that they are all my enemy
Telling me why, and I'll tell the sky
That Hell is all real and that Heaven's a fantasy
Capture me mentally nothing substantially evident
Except that my head's a little fucked up

[Chorus x2]
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can break me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can make me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can save me
Wondering Why? (Why?)
Not giving up (No)
Nothing can change me


"I'm Alright"

If you're reading this
Then I finally did it
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye
There was no time
Understand I was stressed
Living day to day was hard
And I gave it my best
But there was nothing left
For me in this world
To convince me to stay
Now I'm long gone away
Don't you do that
Don't you start your tears
Just remember all the time we spent over the years
Never cry
Never think bad to me
What's done is done and that's the way it had to be
I need you to be strong for me
Say your prayer everyday in my memory
I'm sure it's helping me
To earn my feathers
To get some wings
And a halo and a harp and angelic things
And even though I'm gone And outta sight
Never worry about me
I'm alright

[x2]
I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind

You only saw the outside
Never knew what I was feeling
Now everyday you lay in bed staring at the ceiling
But you don't see me no more
You can fill your heart with memories
And things from before
But everybody got a purpose in life
To survive when the sunrise
You gonna live to see another day
Just don't follow me and live your life your own way
I'll be in set and if you forget
Get the picture with the cord around my neck
See me underground and I'm stuck
But it's cool that's where I wanna be
Keep the drama in hand but outta sight
And know that
I'mma be alright

[x2]
I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind


"Karma"

Eternity for each and every one of us
Will you withstand and see the face of St. Peter
As he smiles and greets you with a warm welcome?
Or will you decline to the likes of him?
Who would have you spend eternity begging for mercy?
The choice is yours. Do you care? You should. They do.

[Jamie Madrox]
No relation
Or 2nd coming of dark spawn
We're preparing a path for the children of Babylon
In search of Zion
Or a chemical release
At least it gives us inner peace for a second so we can sleep
Riddled by day dreams & puzzled by life
All of us are running through darkness in search of the light
As the demons disappear like phantoms in mirrors
And reappear transformed in the form of your fears
I got a feeling that you think it's a phony and far fetched
Till you're devoid of all hope and virtually helpless
It's necessary to never let it get worse than its gotten
It'll go on forever even after your rotten
And depending on the karma of spirit
Dwelling in inner being
Will determine eternity
Unless you intervene
With your man made destiny
And the myth it withholds
You will never find the light
As long as your eyes are closed

[Chorus]
Are you going to hell or to heaven?
Did you walk with the sinners
Or pray with the reverend?
Tell the truth I did a little of both
And ain't no telling where I'm going
Till my body's a ghost
And we sing
The whole worlds gonna hate me in the end
When they're surrounded by nothing but the fire (nothing but the fire)
You can lie, but you're soaking in sin
When you die let you're karma begin
From the beginning to the end

[Monoxide]
You can see all around you right
So don't act like you don't recognize the light
And in spite of all the things that you did and I forgive
You will end up sitting where the devil lives
I told you all in the beginning I would have the last laugh
And your karma is the reason that you burn like gas
And in the past I been known to be a little to passive
But like I just said I'll be the last one laughing
Hopefully this will all make sense
When your looking through the fiery fence
And I commence
To keep walking through time
With a list of these names
That I guarantee their karma's gonna
Burn in these flames
So speak my name
And hate me for what I'm saying
But trust me I ain't playing
I think you should start praying
Hoping it starts paying off
The poison that your spraying often
Enough to really tick me off
An' I bust

[Chorus]
Are you going to hell or to heaven?
Did you walk with the sinners
Or pray with the reverend?
Tell the truth I did a little of both
And ain't no telling where I'm going
Till my body's a ghost
And we sing
The whole worlds gonna hate me in the end
When they're surrounded by nothing but the fire (nothing but the fire)
You can lie, but you're soaking in sin
When you die let you're karma begin
From the beginning to the end

[Monoxide]
Now you can do whatever you want to me
But in the end your gonna burn like weed it may seem like he's working for me
But I swear there's no ties
Just a collaboration of your bullshit and lies
And your demise will come when I rise like the sun
And bring the drama with the muthafucking
I'm the chosen one so all your guns are obsolete
you better bring the devil when you think of fucking with me

[Jamie Madrox]
At the point where you cease an exist to be
An clutch your fist in the state of the sight of your own grim reality
It ain't nobody's fault but your own
You had a choice in life now it's gone and it's time to move along
You can float to the heavens where the angels fly away
Or descend into gallows where atheists learn to pray
Ain't no place you wanna stay so you better choose wisely
Unless you wanna gamble with whatever might be

[Chorus]
Are you going to hell or to heaven?
Did you walk with the sinners
Or pray with the reverend?
Tell the truth I did a little of both
And ain't no telling where I'm going
Till my body's a ghost
And we sing
The whole worlds gonna hate me in the end
When they're surrounded by nothing but the fire (nothing but the fire)
You can lie, but you're soaking in sin
When you die let you're karma begin
From the beginning to the end


"All the rest"

[Monoxide Child]
This is for all the women in the world who think that men don't burn,
that when it comes to heart break...it is never our turn.
And it don't matter who or what is to blame,
'cause the first week after a break up...alone...always feels the same.

[Jamie Madrox]
And she said...
"I don't ever wanna sleep again,
I'm alone in the world, and I could use a friend.
Could you be that friend, or would you be like all the rest?"
Then I said...
"Babygirl, I'm only half the man that you think that I am,
And I would understand, if you bit off more then you could chew,
Like all the rest."
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
But she promised me she'd never leave me like all the rest...

[Monoxide Child]
She use to threaten me, and say she's gonna leave,
And then maybe, I would see how hurtful love could be,
When a heart is left broken in half and empty,
And then life becomes a set of songs in a CD,
And all she ever wanted, was for me to come home,
Alone and out the burden, never tellin' me so,
On the phone, I don't answer 'cause I know what she wants,
And I'm buzzed, so at the time, I just don't give a fuck,
I'm on my way home now, waitin' for fights to ensue,
Anticipatin' imitatin' everything that ya do,
And as wrong as I may be, I won't admit it to you,
'Cause you're just a bunch a talk, and you'll never go through,
With anything you say, so I stay out all night,
'Til the bartender said, and he's turnin' off all the lights,
And then maybe, on my way hope I realize, but I never do,
'Cause dramas what ya stickin' to, and baby, I'm your crazy glue.

[Pre-Chorus]
I appreciate your honesty,
And the fact that ya thought, it doesn't bother me,
Just a way to separate only you from all the rest...

[Chorus]
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
But she promised me she'd never leave me like all the rest...
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
I promise you...

[Jamie Madrox]
Normal people call me abnormal because I'm pissed,
She smiled and she chuckled, and blew me a lil' kiss,
Musta got lost in the Jose Quevo with Lemon twist,
Or the sounds of bodies slappin', grindin' to club hits,
Can we go somewhere and talk about ya sexy little face?
I mean, I know it's twenty-ten, and you gave me the MySpace,
On the cocktail napkin from under ya mixed drink,
But I wanna pick ya mind and see how ya really think,
Put ya up inside a dunk tank and see if ya sink,
Lay ya on the bed, and spread your legs, and play wit' ya pink,
I mean, I'm trippin' if you're mad, and I'm serious if ya down,
See, ya smilin' again, c'mon, let's have another round.

[Chorus]
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
But she promised me she'd never leave me like all the rest...
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
I promise you...

[End/Outro]
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
I promise you...
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
But she promised me she'd never leave me like all the rest...
I must admit, I was afraid, I was insane,
I could not picture me doin' this again,
I promise you...