JaceDaLadyBonerDonor's blog: "Loving...."

Well... Its now less than a week and I'll be in the place i have longed to be in for a while...... In my wifes arms.... A day that I never though would come.... And now that its here.... It feels like a dream.... a dream I know I never want to get woken up from....

I finally get to start a new life of happiness..... and get away from the pain and memories of my past..... I never though I could possible love someone as much as I do my wife..... And most of all... I never thought I would have someone whos my equal.... Someone that doesnt look down on my past or things that have happened before her..... She doesnt see me for my past.... She sees me for my NOW.... She accepts me for everything.... Before anythign else, she has shown me what it truely feels liek to not only have an amazing woman as my wife, but a woman who is also my best friend..... I couldnt possibly ask for anything greater than that......

I Love You Nicole, Heart, Mind, Body, And Soul!!!!

Thank You for coming into my life when I truely needed you the most.... Thank You for opening my eyes to what its like to be loved..... Most of all..... Thank You for being my best friend.... Thru the ups, and downs, the good, and the bad.....

I hope I can spend the rest of my life with you, even if only as having you as my best friend.... I wouldnt give any of that up for anything or anyone....

Love Always, Your Wife,
Janna

They say that a real and true love only comes around once in your lifetime.... If you have it and you let it go, you'll have lost it forever.... But if you hold onto it and never let it go, that true love will never leave your side....

Ive let go of love.... But it ended up being the best choice i ever made... if i had held onto that love, i would have never found my true love... i would have never found the one person that can make my heart skip beats....

the words said, are words i never thought i'd ever hear.... someone actually needing me or wanting ONLY me..... KNOWING you love me... even miles apart, i can STILL feel your heart beating in time with mine....

i know ive said it before.... and ill say it again, over and over again.....

I Love You, With EVERYTHING I Am, and EVERYTHING I Have.... With My Whole Being.....

You consume my heart, my mind, my soul, my body.... my life....

Your my once in a lifetime true love!! And I'll never let you go!!!

I Love You My Beautiful Sweetheart!!

Love Always,
Your Wife
Janna

My Beautiful Wife,

     I couldn't sleep. So i decided to get up and leave you this letter.... Of course I couldn;t get you off my mind.... Was layin in bed wishing you were there in my arms.....

      Anyways.... That wasn't the purpose of this letter.... I just wanted to thank you for coming into my life at the time you did.... I will forever cherish the day we met.... No, back then i didnt think we would be at the point we are today..... But I wouldn't trade any of it.... But between then and now I have seen soo many changes in myself that I never thought would change.... But you managed to make those changes.... I KNOW your my wife, I KNOW your my partner..... On here AND off here, no matter what anyone says..... I not only see you as my wife and partner, first and foremost, I look at you as my best friend...... and I know that even if, for some unknown reason, we fail, I can still have my best friend there... 

I will never be able to put into words or even actions how much I truely and honestly DO love you.... You manage to bring a smile to my face and keep a smile on my face..... Even through the drama and the shit we go through.... You stand right there beside me fighting along with me..... And you WANT to keep what we have.... Anyone that tried to break that bond doesn't exist in your eyes.....

Anyways...... I just wanted to thank you, again, for being my best friend, my partner, and my wonderful wife..... Thank you for standing by me even through the trials and tribulations were going to face..... But most of all..... Thank You for helping me find me.... The person I had hidden for so many years.....

THANK YOU!!!!!
I Loved You Yesterda, I Love You Today, And I Will Love You For ALL Of My Tomorrows!!!!

Love Always,

Your Wife and Eros,
Janna

I used to write alot of poems..... but then i lost my inspiration to write them..... until now..... i have so many words to say..... but what to say and how to say it is where i get stuck......

For so many years I thought I knew what happiness was.

I thought I was in love for so many years.... And that she was going to be the one i spend the rest of my life with.....

But I sit here and think about the past and all the pain I endured.... Emotionally, physically and mentally....

I thought that was what love was..... That was all I knew as love.....

But now I know I was wrong..... How I feel now..... The past will never amount to how I feel now.

Because of all the damage and hurt I've gone through I had a wall built up. Was determined to NOT let anyone back in...... Until You......

I can't even explain how you were able to break down my walls. But you did. I'm happy that it was you that did though. I would have never found my words again.....

You managed to help me find my heart again.... When it was cold and didn't have any love to give anyone.... You found all of that again.... 

I could never put into word's what you have come to mean to me..... But that's how love is.... If you can put it into words what it is about the person you love.... Then you don't love them..... When you can't even find the word's to explain how you love them, or why you love them.... Then that..... Is real and true love...... There isn't a moment that doesn't pass that you're not on my mind....

You know how I feel.... And you know my fears...... But for some reason, you managed to wipe away all those fears.

As I sit here and write this to you..... Tears fall down my face..... But their not tears of sadness..... Their the tears that go along with me realizing just how in love with you I am..... I know as I sit here putting these word's down here, that I don't ever want to live without you in my life.

Your the comfort I turn to when I need an ear listen to my words... Arms to hold me when I need to feel secure and comfort.... Your there to wipe away the tears, weather their tears of joy or or sadness......

We may not last til our last day's together.... But every day that passes that I have you in my life is worth the right now..... I would love to spend the rest of my life with you by my side..... But we can't predict the future..... So for every day that passes into the next I'll cherish as if it was my last day with you..... Because tomorrow will never be promised to us..... And I would never want to see the our last day together come.....

I Love You!!!! More than words could ever explain..... More than I ever thought I could love someone.

Love Always,

Janna Your Wife & Eros

Well....... Where to begin.....

i sit here and think about how i feel about her..... How she makes me feel whenever i talk to her.... when i hear her voice, how my heart skips a beat........ All i ever want to do is reach thru the phone or the computer screen just to caress her face, or to kiss her lips...... i dunno what it is shes done to me..... or even how shes done it...... shes my best friend..... shes my partner..... shes my wife.... shes the missing piece to my life. shes who completes me..... shes made me the better person that i am today...... opened my eyes to see theirs a different side of life even when things go wrong......

i sit here, and all i can do is smile..... because im beyondy lucky to have her in my life...... shes my angel, shes the treasure at the end of a rainbow, shes my lucky charm..... i know no matter the trials we go thru or are put thru, we will make it thru anything and everything.... i know what i have with her, is REAL..... and i know its going to be just us going down this path of life together for as long as its meant for us to travel together......

so as i write this to you and about you baby, i love you!! i wouldnt want to travel down my path with anyone else but you.... i wouldnt want to experience life with anyone else but you.... you make life so much easier to deal with.... thank you.... thank you for being YOU..... thank you for being my best friend..... thank you for being by my side thru all the good and the bad...... most of all..... thank you for loving me....... flaws and all.....

I Love You!! Heart, Mind, Body, And Soul!!!!

Yesterday, Today, For Always!!!!

Love Always,

Janna Your Wife and Eros

how do you tell someone you love them and dont want to live without them..... so they know you mean it? every time your away from them you feel alone.... and empty....

what do you do when your in love with someone......

when your sitting here trying to find the words to explain, and you know their all there.... but you cant seep to put them down......

plain n simple fact that all i can come up with is.... i love her with everything i have, and im going insane without her.....

what more is there to say to that?????