SLIM otherwise known as HEFTY's blog: "LOVE"

WEll what to say or how to react to whats given to us in our lap.
Its almost funny how history repeats itself and we end up back at square one with not really a right path to take. all seem wrong but which is the lesser of the 2 evils.
do we go back to scratch and start from the beginning?
when one is wronged what is the best revenge but to do unto otheres as whats been done onto you...so I was taught growing up....
well is that always the right answer
Well when you mix emotions n Love into the mix it sometimes becomes hard
I was always taught to be strong never let them think you care at all
Let know one get close to me Before you and me
I then shared things wit you about my past
That I'd never tell to anyone else
Just keep it to myself seemed to be the better option
Now I know I lack affection and expressing my feelings
It took me a minute to come and admit this but
See I'm really try'na change now
Wanna love you better, show me how but you decided that it was better to be left at the curb
I decided after the healing process began to show you the love that I had to offer was still there
After all was said n done I threw all I had on the table and still got what i was not expecting
Blindsided
and when things happen it sometimes becomes too late to talk bout it.
you can cry till the river is formed but sometimes that dont matter cuz its always remembered because once scorned it always lays rest and dormaint.
from all the sacrafice n sticking thru the shit thick n thin still thrown away to the waste side....for what a cheap thrill
almost worth realizing if it was a thing of the moment and not premeditated but it wasnt They took what was cherished and something that was blossoming and threw that away for something that was nothing but meaninless and not even worth mentioning B.S.
You know it gets to a point where its hard to put emotion in something or someone that even for a slight moment didnt care bout you.
Well when it gets to that point what do you do......do you look at the way history has dealt you and go on that....its almost like DEJA VU if that really exsists
BUT.....TIMES are different
this is a hollow emptiness that pierces into the shell of what was once a heart of GOLD but now its been tarnished into nothing but a shallow shell of was once was
I hear what is said but still dont make sense. so what does it mean....do we rewind the time and start over????......does this action become forgivable.
Why is it that all I ask myself...When can I see you again, when can my heart beat again for you.
the happy the bad the turmoil the EVERYTHING. you are what makes the sun rise and fall in my life, but is what happened easy to pass by the side and forget. Alot of it dont make sense and I realize it. but together we make sense AND
that fact alone is reassuring just to know and not to question even though it has been questioned, your LOVE to me is the reason to go on. the new life the new UUUMPH you put in my step. but at same time it was thrown and you gave it not a second thought.
 well These days of thinking and wondering are over. it should just be all so simple

Why not walk away but sometimes things are worth fighting for.....so I was told
We all look at our parents for salvation in what should or shouldnt be and try to keep up with tradition or improve.....well my parents ARE 44 YRS strong and yet to even start on that endevor...will it happen im hoping thats all i can say.......even MARTIN had a DREAM didnt he??????
used to hang on every word but the more i got hurt the more I heard....from all the sweet to what not to believe....I heard it all before....its all a sad excuse on abandoned ears, but you still try
ALL in al whats this road lead to. is it worth fixing or should it be abandoned, who knows but what the day takes us to. we learned top love, learn n forgive
well is forgiveness the true weakness of letting the pain go away? is that what we come to
I dont want to wrteck a friend I already found in you. I already been there before. but walked away when things became astray. I cant Risk a friend but the LOVE is so good. but I need to make that choice I need to address that issue and where to turn there is no road maps but I feel that the map leads to someones heart but is it willing to take that chance???
Why didnt I say the things i needed to say how di I let my Pain get away. now things are tumblin down......i can say it so clearly but your nowhere around.....all I know its that time I MISS YOU!!!!
You come many avenues in life where you get the angel and devil on your shoulders this happens to be 1 of many ....and yes emnotions are involved. so it makes it that much harder.
when we enter that Dusty road where do we turn ...friends family lovers that all seem to abandon us in that time we need to trust and squell in there inhabitants of knowledge to help us direct us to make that ever quenching decision that may effect our lives for good or bad. Well is the decision that they help direct us towards the best knowing what was done to us is Wrongful and not deserving a 2nd chance always but we think and give it that chance but are we stuck that we we always think that its gonna be the wrong choice???

You know all that I know is Time will tell time
I do know once i started kissing you I did find LOVE and didnt realize what i was missing.
All I do know is that I did find you!!!!!
so take it as it may I begger n cower but you are what complketes me and you make the rainy days fade away so I know your the reson that I meant ot look for the completion of my circle

on that note I think I need to finish this obscure melody of ramblims and leave it as it is and say whatever was said has been said