LFH HEAVEN FM2 RAY's blog: "Love Me"

This weekend I learned alot about people and myself. Some can put aside differences for a common cause and some can't.  My experience this weekend shows 2 people can do the same thing but only one will be put under a microscope.  I have never thought of myself as a threat in a game (expect for polishing) but that is the  conclusion I have come too. This weekend had brought closure to events of last year and I'm grateful for that.  I don't believe hatred has any room in a game or life.  I don't understand the underminding others do. I believe in celebrating one's accomplishments big or small. I believe it's players vs fubar and not players vs players. I'm happy to have new fu friendships and slowly repair old ones. If doing this offends some, than that's on you. That wanting to repair and help makes me fake, it's really on you. I stand up for who I am and try my best to be kind and understanding to others.  I hold myself high in regards on how I treat others. I take responsibility for my actions. It's not the game or fu office but people's actions and manipulation  that hurt the game in general.  I believe in forgiveness and I know people can change.  In my 16 yrs here, I have changed.  

Testing 

I'm at cross roads but the fu game is an addiction.  I have dreams of traveling  and can but this game became an addiction.  I can't afford both. Fu crown vs traveling? Seems so easy for most here but its a struggle for me. When I took 3 months off last summer and went to  Disneyland, I didn't care when level 84 dropped. I found happiness in planning my trip.  Here i am again... level 85 about to drop (I have the coins for it even) and questioning it. I bought a shit load of coins that would have paid for weekend trips.  Fu addiction is so real for many of us. It's not real life but becomes our life.  A game that dictates and steals real life.  I absolutely love this game. They are geniuses. Fu isn't making me play.  But the game has even changed.  I think I'm paying alot for a game that I only enjoy part of the time. Then dealing with haters, backstabbers and manipulative players that constantly wanna take players down. On the positive... I love helping others, sharing knowledge and meeting so many great people that have invited to their state to see and explore in travels.  Being Top Level is cool but weighting what I'm sacrificing. I'm not going anywhere today or tomorrow... but definitely at crossroads.  Writing this and re reading it gives me some clarity.  Posting it will make it real for me.  

‘She sat at the back and they said she was shy,She led from the front and they hated her pride,They asked her advice and then questioned her guidance,They branded her loud, then were shocked by her silence,When she shared no ambition they said it was sad,So she told them her dreams and they said she was mad,They told her they'd listen, then covered their ears,And gave her a hug while they laughed at her fears,And she listened to all of it thinking she should,Be the girl they told her to be best as she could,But one day she asked what was best for herself,Instead of trying to please everyone else,So she walked to the forest and stood with the trees,She heard the wind whisper and dance with the leaves,She spoke to the willow, the elm and the pine,And she told them what she'd been told time after time,She told them she felt she was never enough,She was either too little or far far too much,Too loud or too quiet, too fierce or too weak,Too wise or too foolish, too bold or too meek,Then she found a small clearing surrounded by firs,And she stopped...and she heard what the trees said to her,And she sat there for hours not wanting to leave,For the forest said nothing, it just let her breathe.'
Author : Becky Hemsley - Talking to the Wild

I'm in the Likefest this Sunday. I'm really stressing myself sick on achieving 15k likes in 24 hrs. I have my 3 likeazers but that's not going to do it. I need Likenado and Rockstar to reset my likes. Unfortunately, I used all my credits on what I have already. My stress level is now high without a credit sale yet. If anyone can help me, I will be open to discussing ways I can give back.. TIA