BEAUTIFULDISASTER's blog: "love me"

alone i sit here empty and cold the light beckons me it forces me to be ok hidden away my feelings are showing no emotions is how i feel i have to fight to be alive i have to pertend to care the world has crushed my dreams yet it forces me to be ok i once was alive now i just survive

she awakens each morning. opening her eyes from nights slumber. without words of warning breaks the code of number each day begains a new chapter of a story that has no end being cought in the secert rapture listining to the unknown voices calling to her in the wind but fears to answer walking forward into the sunless day motionless....... to ponder or star sadness lurks within with no chance of hope wondering what could have been lacking the strangth to cope she cries in silence afraid someone will hear each tear grows more intence when she is alone and constantly in fear who will save her and at what cost when will she ever be free when all she feels is lost

My vision clears as a tear leaves my eye Just laying here thinking, 1,000 thoughts in my head I want to get up but I stay here instead My mind feels heavy and so does my chest You've broken my heart, just like all the rest I thought you were different but I was so wrong You set up the games while I played along Now I'm so hurt inside I blink again, a silent tear In my mind I know I shouldn't cry But still I do and here I lie Staring up, wondering where we went wrong How could you break me, I thought I was strong My body feels cold now, more clouds float by My breath has slowed, I don't want to try I don't want to stop what I've already done I've just finished your work, you've probably won You've broken my spirit, my heart, my soul And now I'm dying and no one knows Someone will do to you what you did to me And they'll break your heart, you wait and see Maybe you'll know why I acted that way Why I was so "bitchy" and cried everyday The reason I yelled and got all upset The things I knew but inside I kept After she hurts you and breaks your heart The pain you feel will be a start But it won't even compare to what you did to me And now there's no way to make you see You could have saved me, you should know not its true Its all the little things you needed to do You could have told me how you felt Tried a little harder to make my heart melt Or surprised me with something I didn't expect You should have shown me a little respect Instead of yelling at me, making me number two You could have saved me from what I chose to do You didn't even care that you were killing me inside I couldn't take it anymore and so here I lie It hurts now to breathe, every breath is like work I think to myself, "I'll show this jerk, But I've just got things on my mind that you can never know I just hope that you tell them what you did to me Let them know the kind of guy you are, the way it used to be

LOVE IS HERE LOVE IS THERE LOVE IS EVERYWHERE YOU JUST HAVE TO LOOK AROUND AND SEE THAT ITS JUST NOT IN YOU AND ME ITS THE WIND BLOWING A KYTE AND THE KIDS LAUGHING WITH DELIGHT ITS A COUPLE WALKING DOWN THE STREET AND PEOPLE DANCING TO THE BEAT THE BEAT OF LIFE ITS THE SOUND OF THE WAVES CRASHING ON THE SHORE IT CAN EVEN BE THE SOUND OF SOMEONE CLOSING A DOOR ITS THE WAY YOU LOOK AT ME ITS IN ALL THAT I LOOK AROUND AND SEE CUZ LOVE CAN BE HERE LOVE CAN BE THERE BUT I KNOW THAT LOVE IS EVERYWHERE ©SMS 2007

You lifted my spirit. You opened my eyes. You spreeded my wings You tought me to fly. You showed me a smile. You showed me a tear. You showed me that theres nothing to fear. You gave me hope. You gave me peace. You gave me something I expected least. The power to learn. The power to succeed. The wisdom and knowledge there is in me.

Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new, Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue, Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown, Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down. Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad, Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad, Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain, Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain. Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun, Love me always darlin', after all is said and done, Love me always darlin', until all our life is through, Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you