You Missed the joy, laughter and fun that we had
You Missed when Emma bumped her head and Kera felt so sad
You Missed hearing our little girls Prayers last night
You Missed kissing them this morning and tucking them in last night
You Missed seeing Emma off for her first day of school
You Missed hearing Kera talk about that boy she thinks is so cool
You Missed the joy of watching them play
You Missed Emma's new word that she learned today
You Missed helping Kera making her lunch
You Missed more than a little
You Missed a bunch
You Missed seeing the girls clean up their room
You Missed laughing with Kera trying to use a broom
You Missed Kera's pride in all her good grades
You Missed the precious little pictures from school Emma's made
You Missed the joy of watching them sleep last night
You Missed feeling their wonderful love and holding them tight
You Missed comforting Emma when she bumped her head
You Missed being here at home to tuck them in bed
You Missed listening to Kera reading a bedtime book
You Missed the fun that we had as they helped daddy cook
You Missed listening to Kera singing her favorite song
You Missed sweet little Emma try to sing along
You Missed Emma's beautiful smile as she got off the bus
You Missed all of this cause you're not here with us
You Missed seeing how grown up Kera has become
You Missed it all, not just some
You Missed hearing what our little girls prayed for
You Missed them asking God to be a family once more
You Missed the joy of holding and loving them today
You Missed so much more, guess you want it this way
You Missed Kera talking about all of her dreams
You Missed our sweet little Emma learning new things
You Missed another day in their lives you can never get back
You Missed it because of where you choose to be at
You Missed helping Kera learn to fold clothes
You Missed taking care of Emma and her runny little nose
You Missed the chance to laugh at me and the girls learning to dance
You Missed this because you won't take a chance
You Missed me and our girls talk about loving you
You Missed them asking what more they could do
You Missed the chance to hear Kera speak from the heart
You Missed hearing her ask you to make a new start
You Missed Kera saying how she hates to be gone
You Missed her telling me how happy she is when she's coming home
You Missed things in their life you get but one chance to see
You Missed it because of where you choose to be
You Missed the chances to listen to the heart of our little girl
You Missed it because your so wrapped up in your own little world
You Missed out on the joy of loving your children today
You Missed it because you choose to have it this way..........................
I miss your touch
I miss your taste
I miss the smile upon your face
I miss the nights we were alone
I miss them more now that you are gone
I miss your laugh
I miss your cry
I miss the sparkles in your eyes
I miss your heart
I miss your soul
I miss you more than you will know
I miss your hair
I miss your scent
I miss a love heaven sent
I miss you now
I miss you then
I'll miss you til the very end
Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that.
The way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost.
Guard your heart above all else, for it will determines the course of your life- proverbs 4 23
I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.
When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me."
There is a story that I need to tell
One of love, and of pain and of fear
But first I'm not what I lead you to see
I've been hiding from you what's dying me
I have known love like no one will ever know
I have seen eye's look at me like nothing I have ever felt before
I have touched and been touched in a way that cannot be explained
Nothing or no one can ever take it's place
I just want to save her
A monster came into our lives, destroying a love so amazing
A family now broken apart, but a life that is still worth saving
A love so pure that only I have been blessed to share
Now lost and replaced with dying's despair
It kills me to know how she's crying at night
Hurts even worst to know that I'm right
I'm not here to hurt and keep them from you
But only doing the things that I know I must do
I just want to save her
In their eyes everyday I live to see
The pain of loss in their faces of what came to be
And I can't help but think that somehow I failed
To do enough to save them from their pain
When there mother died a part of them left with her
Now it's all happening again
I just want to save her
Life is repeating itself
But this time I am loosing too
I loved my first wife dearly
But my second was my love so true
I found the greatest joy in life loving her
Now I die inside because I've had to kill her even more
And I watch as this love that will never be equaled wither away
All the while pointing it's fingers at me
I just want to save her
To hurt what you love more than life itself
To save what is God's most precious gift
I know that she cry's to die every night
Am I guilty of doing it again
But the choice I have made to protect my kids
Kills me inside because of who I must protect them from
But I can't keep hurting like this
And no one will listen until the time comes
That there's nothing left but to miss
I just want to save her
Not for me and the love that I've lost
Although selfishly I'd do anything to hold her again
But to keep from having to look into their eyes
When the future comes to it's end
Protecting my babies means killing her
Yet the monster she is with is the cause
He controls her with pills and manipulates his lies
And blames me for her eyes that are flowing in rivers of darkness
I just want to save her
The picture of her here you see
It's not of who she used to be
I craved her sweet touch, and her smile that she gave, and oh how I still do
But I would let it all go with my life as the price, if only I could just get through
Yet no one seems to care and I know
That If I don't do anything we're going to loose
One of God's most tender angels
I just want to save her
Even her family seems to support him in killing her
Instead of facing the truth and doing something to save her
They choose to hate me as if I am doing this on purpose
Bitter, vengeful and hatefully, but I'm not
I'm dying in here too, they can't love her like I do
They also have no idea what it's like to look into the eyes of your child's broken heart
I do, I live it everyday, and I can't do this again
But I know that to save my babies, I have to keep them from her
And I know how she cries, so it's killing me to do this
But I will let her go to save my two little ones
It's a choice I have made I don't like, but one I know I have no choice in
I just want to save her
Why is it no one will help
Is it because I only know what is truly inside her
Remarkable beyond words, she was God's gift to me and I failed
Now I'm forced to watch her open wounds bleed
Til her last breath kisses the air
She's not responsible for her own actions
I don't care what anyone one ever says
I know her like no one will ever
He's the one inside her head
I just want to save her
There are laws to protect us from killing
Yet murder is taking it's place
The result will be death and pains crying
A lifetime it will be on their face
I know what it looks like and I don't want to see it again
So I will die here with her if I have to
Holding her love til the end
No one will love me like she once did
No love for her greater than mine
Although I may never touch her again
I just want to give her more time
I just want to save her
I hate that I'm the one hurting her too
But what else can I do
I know what is real and the smile that she has
I miss her joy and her laughter
But what can I do if no one else cares
How will I tell them that mommy's upstairs
Will they blame me as I blame myself when I can't wipe away all of their tears
Why is it that no one else cares
I just want to save her
I sit here alone with my fake smiling face on
Hiding what's dying inside
I wipe the tears from my face trying to hold on to the place
That I once knew as love, life and pride
I can never let go because inside me I know
Like no one else ever will
The pain of loss in their faces that no time can heal
The emptiness inside that nothing can fill
To see that look on her face that makes my time stand still
I won't give up now and I never will
I just want to save her
So as I sit here hiding from you
Please know the real me is broken in two
But I'm doing all I can to be a gentle loving man
And find where life is leading me in all that I do
Just remember as I tell you all this
That there is something that I dearly miss
And I will never quit trying
Til the day that I'm dying
To save a life that's worth more than a kiss
I just want to save her
I met someone today just like myself.. A shattered heart and soul just trying to mend. i know exactly who and what im looking for now. and no, i wish it was this person but they are taken. and i am NOT going to interfere with that. i want to watch her heal, i want to see her love in her life blossum into everything she desrves in love and life. everything we all deserve, and be her friend and learn from her. its so funny because our paths have crossed, we have been at the same place at the same time about 8/9 years ago, and yet now so far away, our paths have crossed agin, here of all places, and this time "Life" allowed me to meet her and have the chance to earn her friendship, something i am going to handle like fine china. In a day this person has helped me and changed me. if im so fortunate enough, can you imagine what knowing her as a friend will do for the rest of my life. i know, right, its unimaginable. I have several "walls" i surround myself with, although im an open book. i have complete faith and trust in someone for the first time in forever, maybe because she is a reflection of myself. funny, because i waaaay dont trust "me".... I feel my heart coming back to life within me. i thought it had no chance of ever feeling again, good or bad. I had become "Comfortably Numb".. Now theres a sign of life... i once was lost, now i am found....