LILABROWNEYES15's blog: "lila's thoughts!!!!"

i walk  alone! no one understands! its too hard to really explain some thing i feel every day! dont want to  bring the world around me down! scraed to live,scared to die!cant run or hide from it!cant sleep to escape! moments of hope come my way & leave just as fast! living in two worlds is very hard! my head spins in many directions! have taken the fools path too many times! it never ends! who wants to live empty inside? greatful but never happy for so long!working & living for what???sick inside! breathing if a fight i have every day! looking down the road i see many paths! each has a dim light in the end of them! they all have many different  color lights! so awsome to wonder what each path has to offer! scary in a way but mind blowing in another! WHATS next? i guess its all up to me! i really dont know!  THINK DEEPLY!

 

Friends without Faces We sit and we type And we stare at our screens... We all have to wonder What this possibly means With our mouse we roam Through the rooms in a maze Looking for something or someone As we sit in a daze We chat with each other We type all our woes... Small groups we do form And gang up on our foes We wait for somebody To type out our name... We want recognition But it's always the same We give kisses and hugs And sometimes flirt... In IM's we chat deeply and Reveal why we hurt We do form friendships But why we don't know... But some of these friendships Will flourish and grow Why is it on screen We can be so bold Telling our secrets that Have never been told Why is it we share? The thoughts in our mind With those we can't see As though we were blind The answer is simple It is as clear as a bell We all have our problems And need someone to tell We can't tell real people, But tell someone we must... So we turn to the 'putter And to those we can trust Even though it is crazy The truth still remains... They are Friends Without Faces And odd little names this is by CARL"the shot daddy" he is the word man! AWSOME!

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i would hold your heart with out any fear! in darkness i would sit so ever clear! to give you love you need so dear! in the darkness i see a light so clear! i will allways stay so ever dear, you must not ever fear! i'll hold you so forever dear! my love is forever REAL!

through the night while my body rests,my mind goes on these personal quests."FIND THE KEY" it says to me,that will unlock the answeres to my everything. so off i go,searching in my brain that thorny labarynth of a thing, and through every corner in which i turn it seems that i get pricked.i never stop or slow down,but keep a steady pace,in this wrestlss,endless race. in the end,no answer found,tomorrow i'll try again. this girl is so deep! LOVE her very much!!!!

i want to tell all my friends& family! MERRY CHRISTMAS! For some reason i have alot of trouble making comments on peoples pages! HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY & A HAPPY NEW YEAR! LOVE U ALL VERY MUCH!!!!!!!! HUGS & KISS

"100 years" by FIVE FOR FIGHTING I'm 15 for a moment caught in between 10 & 20! and i'm just dreaming! counting the ways to where you are! I'm 22 for a moment!she feels better than ever! and we're on fire making our way back from mars! 15 there's still time for you! time to buy and time to lose! 15,there's never a wish better then this,when you only got 100 YEARS to LIVE! I'm 33 for a moment still the man,but you see I'm a they, a kid on the way, a family on my mind! Im 45 for a moment! the sea is high And I'm heading into a crisis chasing the years of My life! 15 there's still time for time to buy,time to lose your self within a morning star! 15 I'm all right with you! 15, there's never a wish better then this,when you only got 100 YEARS to LIVE! Half time goes by suddenly your Wise another blink of a eye 67 is gone! THE SUN IS GETTING HIGH! WE'RE moving on.......... I'm 99 for a moment, DYING for just another moment,and I'm just dreaming ,counting the ways to where you are! 15 there's still time for you! 22 I feel her too! 33 you're on your way! EVERY DAYS A NEW DAY! 15 there's still time for you! time to buy and time to choose! HEY 15,there's never a wish better then this........WHEN U GOT ONLY 100 YEARS TO LIVE!!!!!!!! THIS IS A DEEP SONG! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!IT SHOWS YOU HOW LIFE IS SO SHORT! TRY TO DO THE BEST CAN IN LIFE!

i just dont know what to do!!! i dont know what to say any more!!!people have been so nice to me here!!! you r all so awsome here! who wants to here someone complain about problems! we all have our own hell!!!so i have no one to talk too any more!!! i am so afraid to be in this state of mind!!! i will hang in as long as i can!!! lots of love to you all!!!!

i think true friends should be there no matter what happens! we all have good days and bad days!i have people around me who do not apreciate me! it hurts so bad!!! i dont ask much from my friends! i am very understanding! i am not just saying that! i get hurt so bad from things u would not believe! i wish i had someone who would just understand me! i know it can be hard! i am so very complicated! what a crazy life!! i hurt so deep inside!!! well i have to take life by the balls! stop feelimg sorry for my self!!!well whats on your mind about it!!! latters!!!!LILA