does God have somethingagainst me. i try to do everything right and he keeps throwin more and more at me. see its not like im already in pain enough then he has to take another from me. he took two of my children and now a close one. and what hurts the most is that i never got the chance to aplogize to this person. i wisht death apon this person months ago of a major heart atytack. and what the fuck happens early this mornig she dies of an major heart attack. now that is something that i live with on my chest for the rest of my natural life. i really think that God hates me cause if he didn't he wouldn'tkeep putting me in these situations. could somebody tell me why he does this shit to me. i lost two kids in a 6 month period. thats fucken pqinful and both kids i accepted. they never made it to see one day. some lady just happened to run in the back the fuckin truck. she came close to gettin her head blown off. but i guess what she did was not intended on happening. now i have another on the way and if God takes thus one imma stop believin and give up on life.
