Black Hearted Angel the Soulless One's blog: "Life"

okay first it was my blood pressure being high but now they took my blood the other day at the doctor after i got a good bill of health on the bp i now get a letter in the mail that my sugar is high and i hadn't ate or drank anything before i went to the doctor that morning they came up with it at 133 so now i have to in for a glucose test and i hate them took them carrying my boys each time i got pregnant with one of my sons i had gestational diabetes i guess it's only fair that i be punished with my health for all the things i have done wrong in my life.

went to court today the asshole did not show up and i was told they should have done this shit on the 13th of December when we went in front of the judge for the child support hearing so now i have to wait on this shit longer and this will take longer for me and the one man that makes me truly happy to get married and spend the rest of our lives together wait....GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR sometimes i hate men with one exception and he hasn't given me any reasons to hate him. Onyx Illuzion of Xxxtasy

okay in two more days i turn the big 21 again for the 18th time guess i got alot of experience on the 21st year of life.....okay so what's everyone gonna get me and if you really do want to send a card via e-mail or smail mail leave me an e-mail here DawnMarie

went better then i expected getting a decent amount to help raise my son on from his father. let him see his dad for a little bit after court was a very tearful time on my part after it was all said and done. i told him straight out at the court i will not keep his son from him but he better start doing what is needed and i don't want him back and that i am happy and getting married when our divorce is final. the only thing that hurt me was that my son even though i show him pics of his dad that he didn't say that's my dad when his dad picked him up to hug him

okay my bp seems to be getting better but for some reason the doctors think that i need to have more expensive meds to take care of it. it's bullshit and i am not going to bother getting the new scripts filled till i can afford to i have enough for the next month i just refilled my other ones they are changing one cuz they say my pulse rate it a little on the high side cuz it's at 80 bpm

okay tonight i am extremely bored and have not a clue what to have for dinner....poor poor me...laffs

okay just an update i am having my days when my BP is still up a bit like tonight it should have been lower then it was but i guess the closer the 13th comes and i have to worry about my ex showing up at court is what's got it up a bit and the fact that i haven't been sleeping good because of it. Well we will see what the doctor says next wedensday since they rescheduled it from today

Not only finally is my divorce going to trial but my child support hearing that i filed for over a year ago is going to court on the 13th of December. I think that my soon to be darling ex husband is finally getting the hint that i am not playing games and that i am going to get what i want from him and that is him taking reqponsibility for his actions and take care of his son.

why is it that no one can let someone be happy? why do people always have to want to fuck up other's happiness first mine and then other's oh well guess that's just what the world is made up of nothing but drama

well i am starting to get my BP to stay at a more normal level now that i am on my medications i just wanted everyone to know that and thanks for those that have been concerned on how it has been going DawnMarie