bree's blog: "Life"

I wanted to game Friday and Saturday nights but that kinda got chopped and screwed. I was horribly irritated and not because of the reason everyone thinks, it’s because of the disrespect of asking someone about gaming for 2 weeks straight and then when we get ready to game NO ONE was into it. Everyone was into something else. Ok so I’m pissed within the first five minutes of gaming. My boyfriend and I were completely clueless; we were there to have fun and to game. Well we’re sitting there and one of my “best friend” is talking about a dream she had about 5 guys and 3 girls, one of the guys happened to be my boyfriend, nothing to do with me, and had his x in it. Well we are gaming, get going about 5 minutes, I run to the restroom come out and my bf’s x is there. So I get pissed. We tried to finish gaming, but everyone’s attention was on her and this dream my “best friend” had. Reason I say “best friend” the way I am is because she was the one that invited her over. My boyfriend and I both were irritated and highly pissed. I was so ready to just kick her ass. I almost jumped her but I decided to let things happen whichever way they were going to. I was really impressed that my boyfriend was as tolerant and unsociable toward her as he was. Ok, so what should I do? Should I stop going over there and wait till we have a place to game at? Make everyone that wants to game go to Cleveland? Or should I just forget about it and the next time it happens, just kick my best friend’s ass followed by kicking my bf’s x’s ass?

Weeks gone by and things seem to not get any better, i've been in a really bad depression. i don't know what to think about my life and how things have been going lately.my only thought is to grit my teeth and bear it. my doctor and i haven't talked about this, i just told him i've been moody and he said it's probably an affect of my medication. i really hope not because i have been jumping on Kenny for things that i have done myself and i've been bitching to him about how he can't do something, and i turn around and do it. i've tried not to do this so much but it just happens. i've destroyed things that i never knew i'd appreciate later, and i lost someone i really care about when we got together. I was in love. i felt he didn't feel the same way and i started hanging out with Kenny. i got bitched at for a picture that i had, and i lost him. he was a great guy and i loved him so much, but i couldn't be with a man that didnt love me. this was 2 years ago almost. i can't believe things took that turn and changed so quickly. but i guess everyone is happy now. (sometimes) there's a little girl that loves me like her mommy and i don't know what to do about that if i ever had to leave. i guess i'm going to stop bitching and end this with "HELP!!!"