I'm sitting here in a daze.
Just staring at nothing.
Not able to smile, laugh, or talk!!
I know I'll be okay later.
I always am.
Just give me a few days.
I'll be back!
But no I want!!
Because it will not last long.
Before I'll be gone again!
Back to staring at nothing.
Not able to smile, laugh, or talk!!
Again!!
This is what always happens.
I'm back and up going again.
Smiling, Laughing, and Talking
And Bam!!!!
I get knocked back down!
My life stops!!
Smiles go away!!
Laughter Stops!!
And My Mouth Don't Want To Open!!
How much time has past?
How much life have I missed?
How much older have I gotten?
Over and Over
This is want happens.
I come and I go!!
Never knowing when IT will Happen!!
When IT will Stop!!
When is going to be the next time!!
When is going to be the last!!
Why one can hurt another so much!!
Is this Life!!
No this is Pain!!
Hurt!!
Anger!!
and Hate!!
Not Life or Love!!
NO ONE should live this way!!
I should be smiling and laughing everyday!!
Talking to the air if no one else will listen to me!!
But This is not Life or Love!!
This is just a nightmare.
That will soon be set FREE!!!!
(I wrote this 3-27-07)
