2264410's blog: "LIFE LESSONS"

I have learned ALOT of new things over the past year, but the most important one, was what it is like to be the loved one of a soilder. The days that go by without a phone call, not knowing if he and his unit are ok. He has taught me so much and I love him so much. I can not wait until he is home with me forever. I used to have respect for our troops, but now thanks to the love of my life, I have an even bigger respect for our troops.

I think the world today has different views on whats concidred a hero. We all know that the men and women who are over seas fighting for our freedom here are concidred heros, but what about the ones here who are doing different jobs. Like the ones who give blood whenever they can to save another life, a life of someone they dont know. The ones who go out and fight a fire or stop a mad gunman. How about ones who risk their lives by doing the most unthinkable things.

To my dear friend Gabe, I love you forever and ever. You will always be in my heart and never be forgotten. We will not forget what you did to become a heroinour hearts and eyes.

I found this song and the words just mademethink.

I came by today to see you
Oh I had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time
I'd have held you, and never let go

Oh, it's kept me awake nights, wondering
I lie in the dark, just asking why
I've always been told
You won't be called home
Until it's your time

I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

I remember the last time I saw you
Oh, you held your head up proud
I laughed inside
When I saw how you were standing out in the crowd
Your such a part of who I am
Now that part will just be void
No matter how much I need you now
Heaven needed you more

Cause heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

Is Heaven was needing a hero
and that's you.

As a parent, we are looked to as out childs own personal superhero. We are supposed to protect them from from the monsters under the bed and in the closet. We are supposed to kiss them and love on them when they get sick and get hurt. They look to us to do anything and everything, BUT what happens when the time comes and we cant protect them? What happens when they hurt and we cant put a band-aid on the hurt and kiss it away? What happens when we cant give them meds to take away the sickness and make them better?

As many of you know, I am faced with this right now. My oldest is sick and I, myself, and the doctors are ding everything we can. He is going frm test to test. Everyday he looks at me with the "Mommy, make me better look" and I'm hopeless. I cant kiss his pain away or put a band-aid on it and tell him all better. I cant give him meds and make the sickness away. Honestly, I am scared when he has to go in for a different test. I am scared for what I will be told and how I will have to tell him.

A bunch of Thank You's go out to alot of people. To my HAUNTED PASSIONS family, thank you for being there for me day in and day out. Tahnk you for your prayers. Another Thank Yu goes out to my TAINTED ANGELS family. I know I'm not there alot of times, but this past week I have felt each and everyone of you reach out to comfort and support. Last but not least, the BIGGEST Thank You goes out to my boyfriend, my best friend, the biggest rock and support I have right now. Lou, thank you for everything. I'd be lost if I didn't have you. You have been amazing. I LOVE YOU. You and my bys are my everything. The boys will be lucky to have you in their lives and I cant wait to spend my life with you. You truly make me happy and I know I dont say it enough and I should.