Toxic Vixen's blog: "Life in General"

This was sent to me on May 20, 2016 at 9:07pm by the one who owns my heart

When I fell in love my heart was on fire
To be with you was my one desire
And if you love me I'll give you everything you need
A lifetime of promises and a world full of dreams
For only my heart knows what it means
And I promise you it won't be wrong
One love, two hearts we will make it strong
But now my love is lost in your sweet kiss
Honey when I'm alone you're the one I miss
And your sweet, tender love is hard to resist
Darling it's true my heart has fallen in love with you
Looking upon the stars tonight wishing with all my might
Hoping someday you will realize this passion I hold inside
Honey it doesn't cost a dime
And if you give in your love could be mine
I feel truly blessed for this feeling the Lord has given me
Accompany by faith and much understanding
And I know this gift will guide me for all eternity
As my heart flies by with angel wings
And the clouds form into wedding rings
A woman in love the angels sing
On and on a soft melody
That's how it feels to be in love like me
For thoughts from the heart are never ending

A Positive Outlook Quote:

If your absence doesn't affect them, then your presence never mattered.

But what is it when your absence was caused by your presence? That the reason behind their absence is a brick wall (i.e. family interference).
Deep down, you can feel them thinking about you and wanting to be with you. You can feel it so deep and hard inside your being, with every breath you take. But the brick wall holding them back and keeping them prisoner is too strong to break (or to say no to).

tuedsday my husband hears our 4yr old running in the house. we tell him many times not to run because he can hurt himself or break something. he wakes up and spanks him. that night him and my mom begin to argue because the spanking left a bruise. argueing (sp??) about how the cops can be called out and other shit like that. on wednesday, mom arrives home from work 4hrs before her actual time, packs a laundry basket full of my son's clothes, a grocery bag full of toys and tells me she is taking him somewhere safe. i'm shocked and asking where but she never tells me but says that i can call her if i need protection. on thursday, i still do not have a responce to the whereabouts of my son....MY SON!!!! my hubby is threatening to call the cops on a kidnapping charge.

what is this world coming to when a parent is UNABLE to punish a child???

hell, back in the day, i got my ass beat the fuck down with a belt, switch, orange extention cord, wooden paddle or whatever the hell my parents could get their hands on quick. and our parents got the same shit because they always told us how they got whooped.

but now, you even look at a child wrong, your ass is grass!! when one parent sets dicipline, the other should let it stand. not like: daddy-"you are not allowed to watch tv or play gameboy"....then here comes mommy-"it's ok baby, you can watch cartoons"......it's wrong.....don't contridict any punishment set by another parent.

so now i sit here.....lost, alone, hurt, in tears because a child was diciplined. how can i be a parent if i don't get the chance to. parenthood is all about learning. how can i learn if i am not able to be around my own child....my son.

GIVE ME BACK MY SON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!