WICKEDEYES MRS KGB JACKS RL BEST FRIEND's blog: "let me fly"

a life i once knew and loved over all a time were i could never fear but only be loved my heart still leeding and calling out you name god ow i wish the pain would all faid away memeries start to lurr but your forever in my heart when i said always and forever tat was just the start ut the souls tat were once so tied together some how fell so every far a part i lost my best friend and the love of my life sitting ere helps waiting for te time the time were the wounds and te scares will no longer bleed the day when i can begin to breathe i lay here with this knife stuck in my chest and wait for the day were this will digress wanting so deeply for my heart to let go wanting so deeply just to let my old life go but the memeries we once held all the happiness and even the pain was worth it all even the dreams of you back in my arms even the fear that you will never one day return the loneliness setts in a lil more because all i can do is dream of you. others have tried to take your place others can't see that all i see is your face i'm done with all others 2nd best just cant take your place so alone i will sit and write my thaugts that get me so far stuck in this head hoping and preying that one day you will be returned to me

behind those eyes u've learned to lie you've learned to hide those lies that u've hid behind the ones you never wanted the world to know the ones you would never show u never wanted the world to see the pain the suffering that your eyes do bring u've fooled them all they think your kind how did you teach those eyes to lie you taught them to show kindness and love but were all lies desperty trying to look beep in side but yet cant find all those lies that ur eyes do hide finding myself bleed wanting to now what was hidden was anything they told me real i wish i could teach my eyes to lie the pain the damage the bleeding is seen by all my masks wear thin and my eyes dont know how to lie

Was in respoce to what i wrote wish it was true - tired of being sick (i will take care of u) and being treated like shit (i will treat u great). i'm a good person (u are awesome!) and i dont deserve what i've been though in my life (u are ABSOLUTELY right). i have a huge heart (a good thing) and i'm WAY to forgiving (a good and bad quality) and people take advantage of that (i would never...). i only fight for what i believe in and who i believe in (u have excellent strength). finding out not all are willing to fight (i stand by those significant to me) they run when things get to hard (i never run, i fight to the death).

i'm tired of this world so weak so cold someone please let me go i'm drownding here under this water let me swim up for air so that i may breathe no more ties to keep me under so now i can let out my wings let me fly away from the pain the hurt and the fears let me go some where else so i can no longer hear hear all the vioce telling me the way it sould be the way i sould feel the way i sould start to be let me fly and be as free as all else are aloud to be let me fly let me be so that maybe one day i can be me let me fly so i may be happy no sorrow no pain no loss let me fly let me be so that one day i can find my love my what i was ment to be keep ur ties keep ur straps its time to let me go to find me again so vioces go away i do to wish to stay my life is my life and i sould have a say i do have every say time for me to leave you all behind and time to fly to find this life of mine