The countdown to the move has begun...I'm less than 3 months from relocating to an entirely different state. My whole life has become chaotic as a result. The SO and I took a "dating break" due to some things going on in his life. I can't be too upset about it, since it was my idea, but it still hurts to go from talking to someone every single night for hours at a time straight to not speaking at all. It's kind of like losing an arm or something. We're still best friends, though that never seems to work out for me, so we'll see what happens. I'm assuming we'll be fine until he decides to date someone else, and she puts a stop to our talking.
I can't wrap my head around the whole situation, to be honest. How is it that someone can tell you that you have their heart in your hands, that the two of you can be something "amazing and great", that he can't wait to "take the next step" and then WHAM - he doesn't call anymore, and he starts acting flaky, and not talking about what's going on? I know he's not cheating, because he truly did not have the time. Maybe he met someone else, but he says no - it's apparently the ex wife trying to come back into the picture and using every last weapon she has to do so. I'm in a situation where I truly care more about what's best for him than what it will do to me, so I took the graceful way out and told him we needed to take a break.
I don't know what's going to happen. A part of me worries that I just walked away from something great, but the rest of me knows that I did what was best. I also know that it it's supposed to be, it will sort itself out. *sigh* The tough part is, I'm 35 years old....I don't like indecision, I don't like drama, and I really don't like trusting my heart to someone who can turn on a dime like that. Maybe I need to just throw my hands up in the air and say fuck it all, lol.
Anyway, that's been creating chaos in my mind - not that I needed it. Now it's time to head off and enjoy the warmer weather with the little one, and forget for a while that men even exist :P
