Jizoint's blog: "Kimberly's Twisted Mind"

Why is it that some people play games with your heart? Aren't games more fun in the bedroom? Karl knows that i'm in love with him and he just so enjoys playn with my head! He loves to see how far he can push me. He has even gone so far as to tell me this!! So why is it that I keep letting him? Last nite he calls and ask me to go get him after waiting about 30 minutes I finally left. He called and was like sorry I fell asleep and then he said that he just wanted to see how long i'd wait! What the hell? I don't have time for these bullshit games anymore!!! I hope his hand is as entertaining as I was cause i'm done!!! If there is a real man out there let me know!!!

Here is the blog that everyone has been waiting for!! LOL I HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE RIDING!!!!! IT WAS A DREAM COME TRUE!!! I have always wanted to be one of those ladies up on the floats!! And this year I finally was!!! I can't explain how great it feels to fulfill one of my biggest dreams!! I'm still crying tears of joy!!!!! I have to give a big THANKS to my fellow krewe members!!! Ya'll are the greatest!! Ya'll took such great care of me and made me feel like I am truly family!!! I can't wait for next year!!!! Riding around all day before the parade was great!! We drank, partied, laughed and danced!! We waved and screamed at anyone and everyone we saw!! I thought how could anything be any more fun!! But I soon learned what it was all about!! I will never forget the moment as we turned onto park and the parade started!! As we turned and I saw and HEARD the crowd I was so overwhelmed that all I could do was stand there for a sec and take it all in!!! The people and sounds were amazing. I'd never heard anything so load (well until I got in front of the post office THANKS debona) Seeing my Mom, Victoria, Lexi, April, KC, Tiffany, Karl, Sabrina and Skyi were my best moments!! Sharing my joy and seeing theirs was perfection!!! There is nothing better than leaning over and handing your child and godchild something special!! Something inside me finally clicked that nite!! All I have to do now when things get rough is think of the feeling I get from riding!!! I really wish I could put into words how amazing it all is!! All I can say is if there is something that you've always wanted to do!! THEN GO OUT AND DO IT!!!! DON'T EVER LET ANYTHING STAND IN YOUR WAY!! CAUSE THE FEELINGS THAT YOU GET WHEN YOU FINALLY GET TO DO IT IS MOVING!! I am forever changed!!

OMG I RIDE IN ONE MORE DAY!!!!! I can not wait!! I am so excited!!! Please pray that the weather is good and that I have enough beads to ride. I freaked out when I went to load and I saw what everyone else had to throw!! I don't have a quarter of what they do. So if I see ya and just wave, take a pic and wave back. LOL Or give me all your beads he he!!! I am just bouncing out my skin waiting!!! I haven't been this excited in ....... hell I don't even know!!! Thanks Dawn for asking me to ride!! Although I'm broke, I am so glad that I'm finally riding!! I've always said that I wanted too and life is just to short to keep putting it off!!! No more waiting for the time to be right!! Live each day as if it were your last!! Right? I've wasted too much of my life already!!! Next on my list is getting a stamp on my passport!! HINT HINT!!! lol And then one big camping trip with all my friends!! I know Cassie is ready!! he he Who else? I will make a kayaking trip this year too. Karl will not ruin another summer for me. :-) Still haven't seen him!!! It's been hard learning who my real friends are!! But damn I've got some great friends!!! Kudos to all of you!!!

How did I ever become one of those woman that lets a piece of shit man fuck up their lives? Despite how many times I would catch him in lies and bullshit I keep forgiving him. When will I learn that sometimes there isn't enough good in a person to forgive the bad in them? He is an evil person who only cares about himself. He used me till I wasn't useful to him any more. I maybe beaten and broken but Karl, karma will get you! Just wait! hopefully some good karma will come my way soon!!!

Damn all I can say is oops I fucked up, lol. I got so drunk the other night at work. I had a blast!!! he he But I was so over the top. I wasn't even tending bar the other bartender who was in there trying to have a good time had to come and help me. I'm so grateful for her help. I owe her big time. I have to talk to the owner tomorrow and see if I can keep my job! I hope all goes well, but if not when one door closes another one opens. later Kimberly

Happy Halloween!! Sucks cause I have to work. It'll be hard to get in the groove tonight after missing a week of work. I hate being sick!! I wanted a week off but to have fun in bed not just lay in bed sick. althought i did fit in alittle play time too, lol.