Boo Boo Kitty Fxck's blog: "KarNi'z Poetry"

They think they know
But they could never understand
What is means to believe so stong in this
To be one of a family with more love than they could ever imagine
Where everyone loves you for who you are
Not how you look or dress
To be a Juggalo and run with the maniacs
To feel at home at a concert
Looking around and thinking....
"This is my family and I love them all"
I don't need their approval
I don't need their understanding
All I need is my psychopathic family With my headphone blasting
"Mass murder makes me happy!!!!"
Juggalo for life
I wear my face paint with pride
Reppin the hatchet
Tattoed on my heart
The love grows stronger with everyday that goes by
Cuz bitch wicked clown will never fuckin die!!

When you think nobody else feels your pain
Always remember Im here and I feel your strain
When I look in your eyes and see the tears deep inside
Love and compassion I'll do my best to provide
Don't worry about the world around you
Don't worry about broken hearts
I'll be right here waiting
Hoping we'll never be apart
When your dreams come crashing down
And you feel so alone
Just turn to me
I'll help you face the unknown
Don't let nobody tell you your not worth it
Cuz baby it aint true
Your everything that is worth living for
And for that I want to thank you
You put butterflies in my stomach
And a smile on my face
Just thinking about you
Makes my heart race
So when you think nobody else cares
Just remember every night before bed
Your always in my prayers
So don't worry about your problems
And Don't worry about your pain
Cuz baby right here waiting
I'll forever remain

Feels like Im dying inside
Missing out on life
From this I cant seem to hide
Cant take much more
The pain is overwhelming
My heart is an open soar
Trashing my emotions
Not an ounce of love within you
Caring less about my devotion
Picking me up when you please
Leave when youve had your fill
Hurting me comes with ease
You came and you went
I scream and I cry
Consumed with torment
I feel like your whore
My body's your interest
But my love you ignore
Feels like Im dying inside
But one day I'll break from this
Then the pain will subside
I'll be walking out the door
You'll be sorry I promise
Maybe then I'll be something you adore

Best friends till the end
thats what we always said
And now I know its true
Almost eleven years down the road
Still just as close to you
The things we say, They hurt at times
But we can never part for long
And this is what I promise today
Friends forever we'll stay
The fights we'll have
And the laughs we'll share
Will only make us stronger
This I swear
L.U.L.A.S. forever
Our bond will never sever
Like a sister you are to me
Always will and always have been
Sometimes it appears I have a twin
You always know when I am sad
Calm me down when I am mad
Threw love and dispair
We help eachother repair
Broken hearts and hurt feelings
Your my remedy for Healing
Best friends forever we always said
And I can only hope it will never end

I just cant take it
The pressures to hard
Living life without you
Has left me scarred
Sitting home alone
Saturday nights so cold
Thinking of the precious memories
The depression unfolds
Running around town
Pilled up and high
Id blame you for these things
But I cant take being dry
Missing how much we didnt care
Not thinking of the furture
Seeing us apart was so rare
I just cant take it
The quite making my ears bleed
Praying for you to forgive me
Theres just something in you I need
I fear I wont make it much longer
Nothing can replace you
Nothing could make me stronger
Not without you by my side
I just cant take it
Just cant take it
I thought from this Id grow
But all I do is fall
And this you'll never know
Cuz I just cant take it

Your love is the sweetest drug
Ecstacy from a simple hug
Needles peircing my skin
Chermicals filling from within
Constant ups and downs
White stains on my evening gowns
Eyes rolling in the back of my head
At first glance Im seamilngly dead
But my blood is flowing heavy
While we lay in the backseat of your chevy
My visions are so blurry
Everyone will start to worry
Addiction settling in
The denile starts to begin
Walking the cold streets
Trying to be descrete
Searching for my fix
The withdraw hitting me like bricks
Cuz boy your the sweetest drug
You keep me sane
I am your domain
Control me and consume
The candy has bloomed
The sweetest drug of all
For this I will fall.

Your disgusting flaws that make you true.
The chemicals you abuse and reality you subdue
Your Dilated pupils so empty and dark
Your sense of pride and your rude remarks
The independence you hold so tight
The lies you believe and insist to recite
The straws, the rocks, balls & blades
Your life is just a sick crusade
One of these days it won't be fun
One of these days there will be nowhere to run
You'll be trapped in this cage of powder and pills
The dreams you have you'll never fulfill.
Its all just a sick crusade
But eventually it will all fade.
And you'll realize it was only yourself you betrayed.
And you'll wonder why you ever begun on that sick crusade

You push me and shove me.
To the point I can't breathe
But I should forgive you with glee
Im the one in love
I should be walked on
And I know if I didn't In a second you'd be gone
My heart is ripping at the seams
But you cant hear me
Not even the screetching of my painful screams
I am bounded by this love
no escape
You hold me with strings from above
I am your puppet
doing as you say
The slightest move of a finger
And of you I wont betray
Entangled in your opinions
And mangled by your beliefs
The hopes and dreams I hold deep inside
These are my only reliefs
I am your puppet
To you I will be loyal
Till one day the strings break way
And finally......
From you I stray

I remember it like it was yesterday.
Tattoed on my brain.
I thought I had nothing to lose.
And so much to gain.
I was in my own world .
Was it love?
Or in lust I was twirled.
Can't believe it's been over two years.
The first kiss like a dream.
When I close my eyes this appears.
I know we'll only always be friends.
Deep inside, you are still mine.
This I pretend.
But happiness I lack.
Everynight in the dark.
These thoughts.
On my heart leaves a mark.
Wanting and waiting.
Should I let go?
My heart and my head are negating.
A constant struggle with oneself.
But no I'll never let go.
It starts to rip me apart and effect my health.
All the memories are too much to handle. Your touch, your kiss,
But to my heart your a vandal.
Still I'll never let go.
No never let go.

Ashes fall as my heart disinograits
Love is dead
At the bottom of the sea lies our soulmates.
Now is the end
romance is a breeze
passing us by
Ashes fall as my heart disinograits
dying alone
Its everyones fate.
Its the reality
That we've all come to hate.
Nobody finds true love
This has come so clear.
So now is the end.
Happy endings, we can no longer protend.