You know there are times when you feel like expressing something out loud but at the same time you don't want to be judged for it well I'm having one of those epiphany moments and not sure what to do! I've had these ummmmmm emotions bottled up for sometime and I just pushed them to the back of my head but since yesterday for some reason they came forward and now I've done nothing but think about them! It's weird that always just suddenly happens to me! So, right now I'm broke and I'm a mess and not sure what to make of it and I want to shout it to the world but I know some people will not hear me out! :P Somehow I want the world to know everything but then at the same time I'm waiting for that "one" guy to take the time and have the patience to take down my wall and just a fair warning to him there will be a river of tears as I'm writing this now I'm crying which it's becoming hard to write this! :P But yeah is there anyone out there that will? A lot of things I don't do for my betterment is because there isn't that "one" guy that will take the time and have the patience to get to know the "real" me! Some say they care and some just want me for my body! I haven't found one that loves me for me and that's hard! :( *sigh*