WET KITTY FANTASIA HEAD GREETER's blog: "just stuff i wrote"

I never would have thought that there'd be a you and me. It wasn't plausible. It wasn't possible. But out of the star-crossed sky fell an opportunity. It was great. It was special. It was magic. It made my life such a blissful state of euphoria. My eyes sparkled. My soul danced. My heart rejoiced. And now that it's gone I wish there was something in its place. I want a new dream. I want a new heart. I want a new chance. But mostly, I'm receiving only loss. I remember the happy times and think there'll be no more. I remember little thoughts of you and sigh 'cause you're gone. I remember my contented heart and sigh because now it's broken. And now that you're gone, I can't help but miss you. For every where you used to smile an empty memory looms of your soulful eyes your shy smile and your beautiful face.

No more dreams of warm hands and soft eyes, No more hopes of gentle kisses in the night. The realization of losing you is slow in sinking in. I never wanted it to be my fault, So why do I feel like it is? I always wanted someone who could make me happy, I yearned for someone to make me feel loved. And I received all these useless questions, Which the answers to we don't know. All left to this pointless wonder. I don't mean this to make you feel guilty, It's just that I don't know what to say. I never expected to ever lose you, It hit me like a slap in the face. I hope you know that I still love you.

Somewhere in time We fell in love Our feelings were so strong Stars sparkled up above Somewhere in time Nothing else mattered We were together Until our hopes and our dreams were shattered Somewhere in time Great memories are there Our love was once great Nothing could compare Somewhere in time Our love stands still A love that we lost Somehow, against our will Somewhere in time We'll meet again Somewhere in time Our love will never end

You came into my life As quickly as you left. You grabbed a cutting knife And sliced right through my breast. You didn't mean to hurt But what did you expect? My heart now cut in two It feels beyond repair. Injury done by you God, life just isn't fair. You didn't mean to hurt But what did you expect? So here we are, just friends, But I long to be more. Desire with no end Throbbing from my core. You didn't mean to hurt But what did you expect?

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart, handing it to you, "careful it's fragile, and easily falls apart." Extending your arms, you take the heart in your tender warm hands. It falls into a million shattered pieces - on the floor it lands. You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and sadness in your eyes. Apologies are not enough. Looking at you with tears in my eyes, I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart that has fallen apart. I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece. I need to put it together again, some how. some way. Each piece of my heart has a memory so true. Each piece of my heart has part of you. You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life. I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife. All my tears won't keep you near All my tears won't mend what's not here. Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice, The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete, is if you and I can come together without being discreet. You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the world, with a love for you that gives a glow - but now, my darling, you made a choice. My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke. With each piece I pick up - I need to learn to let go.

It's becoming more evident Much more obvious to me I thought much more of you Than you ever thought of me Was this my biggest mistake Letting myself think you cared Was I just your marionette With heartstrings open and bared With me left here still thinking What was false, what was true So puzzling and so complex I’m left to await another clue On my heartstings you played Each left with a loving memory Yet I still have those questions Do you ever think about me I’m wondering why all the intrigue Now why all of this mystery Why am I left here hanging Your the one that holds the k

Mixing and matching, Twisting and turning, Hoping and praying, Dreaming and considering, Never knowing yet always knowing, Wanting to, yet not wanting to, Mixing my heart, Matching my soul to yours, Twisting fate with the flick of the wrist, Turning my life over, Hoping that it would end, Praying that it never would stop, Thinking it was over, Wishing that it wasn't, Dreaming of its coming, Considering letting it steal within Never knowing if it's true, Always knowing that it's there. Wanting to live in the light, Not wanting the light to come, The love of another The dreams of someone close, Remembering what you used to feel, Can it come back if you pray so?

Time Clicks as I await The hour ends before my take Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes The day grows old as night passes Wolves crying, coyotes howling; anticipating Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing Silence begins the day as morning comes without notice Tears begin to fall, slowly The day moves on without hope Wishing to be what is not to be The sun moves to its peak without a whisper or retreat Time moving, but still empty Stomach aching, curling Still waiting

When love has come But soon is gone It begs the question Was it there The love was lost And never found Lost without you Lost without me Lost into eternity The love was just a figment A figment of our minds Something we could ponder But never express Was it love or just a feeling Was it love or just healing Healing from the hatred The hatred of our hearts Our past was deep and full of pain We needed this to release the stain For this I do not regret The time with you that I had spent

I thought I finally received a break Only to see the sun fall My eyes will not see what they longed to see My lips will not taste what they longed to taste Why does life have to be like this Full of hatred and pain Instead of joy and bliss