sToRy Bo0K PeRfEcTiOn's blog: "just somethin i wrote"

My Silent Moments... Loud Like The Crack Of Thunder. Im Bout To Burst, Everybody Take Cover.... I Cant Take This Pain Anymore. I Just Keep Wondering What I Was Put Here For.... Sometimes I Just Want To Run Away... Guaranteed No One Will Believe Im Leaving.... But One Day When It Feels Right... Ill Just Hold My Grief Real Tight... And Say Good Night' I have No Reason To Care.. Nothing In My Life Has Ever Been Fair.... My Mind Is Like Russian Roulet.. I Just Keep Spinning Till I Blow, No One Can Understand How I Feel At Times... I Just Hold It In So No One Will Know. But One Day My Feelings Will Be Uncovered, When Im gone Everyone Will Know The Pain Ive Felt.. And The Many Tears Ive Cried... So Say Rest In Peace.. Because My Soul Just Died...... I Wrote This In "04" ... And Ive Gone Thru So Much More... I Dont Feel Tha Same Way Now As I Did Then .... Ive Uncovered So Many New Things Over The Past Couple Years.. But Still, This Poem Got me Through Sum Stuff... I think thats what happens to everybody. You get stuck in the ashes and you come through... this is just another situation in my life where I came through the fire.

Iam smart+caring+loving+funny+free... To tell ya tha truth i haver no moneys..... Down to earth+spontanious+ optimistic+cute+pretty+mean.....but nice on a good day!;) I have no car+ ive been to a bar+im thinkin arbys, weve got shakes+i like earth quakes+thunderstorms+the sound of the rain..+snickers+pictures+stencils+confetti+ Im addicted to all tha wrong guys, it makes me nervouse when you look deep into my eyes... Ive been hurt but it made me strong+i have no regrets+im not perfect+my room may be a mess but i know where everything is+i like to oat oat oat opples and banonos...lol i like to paint+draw+write... i hate to be alone at night...I love my family+Icherish my friends+i smoke+drink......coffee........;) I love music+my favorite color is pink+I have wierd talents+my sister cannot wink!(haha tiff!) I didnt graduate high school.. but im still cool!;) I live with my dad and my evil stepmother...lol I had my own spot... but now i do not!:( ...lol Im from cali+i wish upon strars+I dont have all the answers+i love frogs+I went to foss+i like bubble wrap+laffy taffys+i dont tie my shoes+I have a friend who we call little ... whom isnt little at all.. in fact hes oddly tall...lol Flowers+shoes+shoes+shoes+aiden+vintage+never been on a train+hate to fly+material things dont matter to me+microwaves+pickle jars+custom painted muscle cars+butterflys in my tummy+I love flowers+lip gloss+wet seal+i enjoy tha little things in life+nike's+reeses peanut butter cups+ im an uncertafied chef... but imma gangster in th kitchen...lol haha.... I hate mornings+love chocolate milk+im very blunt+full of smiles+i love tha snow+ive been to skee school a few times.... I believe that everything happens for a reason+my eyes are brown+I love music+ill vote for Pedro!!!.....to be contd....

???If the saying that "I'ts better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all" is true. Then why do i feel so empty inside?Trapped behind these walls... ?Its time for me to get out, escape from inside myself. I need to find someone who can love me for me... and wont try to change me, and i will do the same for them... ?Because the shit I've been going through lately, if I continue with it I know I cannot win. ?I've learned so many new things this year: Truth from fiction, fakes from friends... And who i have left now I gotta keep em' till the end.. ?I never knew what the meaning of it when they say "love is blind" until i met him.... Love shouldnt become physical no matter what situation you're in! ?How does something that seems so genuine explode in an instant? Im not too sure what happened that night.. I wasnt there I missed it.. ?One thing I do know for sure, is that I will never go back.. not only to him, but also to that! ?My mind is open. And my heart is learning to mend... Take it or leave it.. this is me.. ?And this is ... "The way its gotta be!" ? The end ?