menace of vanity's blog: "just some thoughts"

This is another modern day version on the conviction of jesus. very interesting outlook

Dead Silent Your beauty is just a veil for the thrones Abide in your silence, to be alone All my hopes are burning Like a candle in the wind All my life lust draining I am weary and strained Embrancing, embrancing, like drowning Freezing and hurting Ghost of your smile still haunting me I would touch your heart again If I could feel you here by me In your eyes, once found ablazed Dark shadow dances free Yearning and praying like dying Freezing and hurting Ghost of your smile still haunting So it's dead silent now No sighing, sighing And it feels like I'm crushing While our love does the dying

Unbroken Was there a time when I was feeling The time for shade of hope or fear Sometimes I wonder, am I breathing When was it when we were dreaming When did the sun, stop from shining Remember when I felt the rain Sometimes I wonder, am I fading When we were hurting Did I need the pain just to feel alive Did I get this numb just to survive Did I need the rain just to feel alive Did I get this cold, just to survive Was there a child who was dreaming When did I loose the sense of me Sometimes I wonder, am I sleeping When stopped I desiring Did I need the pain just to feel alive Did I get this numb just to survive Did I need the rain just to feel alive Did I get this cold, just to survive Would you please, could someone please Could someone make me unbroken again Is there someone I could reach Could someone make me whole again Was there a time when I was feeling The time for shade of hope or fear Sometimes I wonder, am I breathing When was it when we were dreaming ... we were dreaming

"When You're Gone" I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

Did you ever hear what I told you? Did you ever read what I wrote you? Did you ever listen to what I played for you? Did we get this far just to feel your hate? Am I only a pawns in the game? How blind can you be, don’t you see? You chose the long road, but I’ll be waiting Noose around a choking heart Eternity torn apart Slow toll now the funeral bells Someday I`ll learn to love these scars Still fresh from the red-hot blade of your words How blind can you be, don’t you see? That the gambler lost all he does not have... All within me gone but pain and hope, Hoping that the pain will fade away. With awakening the tears will begin. To my everlasting shame silence took me. My fall will be for you My love will be in you If you be the one to cut me I`ll bleed forever Dark chambers of my mind Locked around the neck of my love None of you understand And it doesn`t matter To a broken marionette like me "All I ever craved were the two dreams I shared with you. One I now have, will the other one ever dream remain. For yours I truly wish to be." Fare thee well, little broken heart Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone Constant longing for the perfect soul Unwashed scenery forever gone No love left in me No eyes to see the heaven beside me My time is yet to come So I'll be forever yours Distance is covering your way, Tears your memory All this beauty is killing me Oh, do you care, I still feel for you So aware, What should be lost is there I fear I will never find anyone I know my greatest pain is yet to come Will we find each other in the dark My long lost love