JadedTink's blog: "Feelings"

I stare at my inbox sometimes, hoping you would text me first. I hate the fact that you ignore me for so long, then you start talking to me like nothing happened. How is it possible that someone can hurt you repeatedly and you still care for them so much? If one day you realize i haven't talked to you in a while, it's not because I don't care, it's because you pushed me away and left me there. I will never regret you, or say that I wish I'd never met you, because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed and you still are. U ignore me, but I like u. You don't do anything, but i wanna fall in love with you. I wanna miss you, though I know you don't or wont ever think about me. I wanna talk to you but I always think you don't wanna talk to me or that I annoy you. I feel like you gave up on me, and that’s what hurts the most. Truth is I hide my feelins from you because I'm afraid you won't feel the same way. If you think you we wont be together, then simply don't ruin my life by givin me false hope. I thought I gave up, but I’m always findin a reason to keep tryin. Don't give me mixed signals, just keep it real: Why do I have to work so hard to get your attention? I hate being ignored. I feel so pathetic, I'm not going to stress over you anymore. It isn't worth it. I tried to work something out, but you just ignored it. You made me feel like you really liked me. And then you just left like nothing ever mattered. If it’s going to be hard for you to choose between me and someone else, just choose the other person because I’m not an option. Then you stop giving me mixed signs. Once again you were the one that just texted me saying all cute things! I am sick of this on and off stuff with you! Why can't we just be friends? If you don't know what you want then stop leading me on! You just told me months ago to never talk to you then you think you can just walk back in my life like nothing ever happened! When you have figuered out what you really do want then you can contact me but until then please stop messing with my heart! I was going to give you another chance be friends and work on it from there but you keep hurting me! But I do want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart. These are the moments I wish I could be with you! Maybe in the future we can be! Just always know your on my mind! I still remember the feeling I felt when I first started talking to you here on tagged. When I say that I like you, I really do more than you could understand. I don't know where I stand with you. And I don't know what I mean to you. All I know is every time I think of you, I want to be with you. I don't want to be your entire world, just the best thing in it. Sometimes I wonder why I try so much. You don't care anyway, I wonder if you miss me Probably not. People come and go all the time, all you can do is hope the right one stays around