Darkheart's blog: "Just my personal feelings"

Just thoughts that flow in and out.So slow and deep.Feel like cuts on my heart. Just thoughts that flow in and out. To many to count. Just thoughts. So dear to the heart. Just thoughts. so cold. Just thoughts that flow in and out. So still they stop the heart. Just thoughts flowing in and out. So bloody. Just thoughts. So alive.Just thoughts flowing in and out.Dead to everyone else. Just thoughts.

Twist and turn in the night we go. Not sure where we'll be. Dance with me baby,and life will end. Twist and turn in the night we go. See light in the dark of the soul.Twist and turn in the night we go. Who'll find your empty heart when the dance ends. Twist and turn in the night. Watch as I rip your heart out. Twist and turn in the night. When you dance with me you lose your self. Twist and turn in the night. Watch as I sit you on flight. Twist in turn in the night we go. Watch as your life becomes mine. Twist and turn in the night we go. For the night is my home. Twist and turn in the night we go. Fall for the daughter of the night. Hehehehehe!:)

This blog is all about V.V.,if you don't know who he is then your F*cking out of luck. Ok,to get this one started I'm going to give you the top 5 reasons I'm crazy for V.V.,hehe. 1)I fell inlove with his vocie on 12/22/2002. 2)I fell inlove with his laughter and his silly side on 4/3/2003. 3)The more I tried to push him out of my life ,the more life pushed him at me.(couldn't go anywhere with out my friends talking about him) 4)On 11/25/2004 it became a hate/love thing for me. 5)Now at this time I count him as being the only guy that hasn't let me down,so far that is. There you have it my top 5 reason's I'm crazy for V.V.,hehe. I know what your all thinking ya,ya,who your trying to kid, his got a great body to go with that vocie,but truth be told,I didn't know what he looked like untill 8/8/2005,so stick that up where the sun don't shine people. Anyhow,moving on!! As great as V.V. is, he wouldn't be where he is with out the rest of the band. What can I say their just as great as he is,even if most of the world over looks them.When you put their sound with his vocie,you get something that reachs the deepest part of the dark that is my soul at times. Wich is where the hate/love thing comes in,and any fan knows this is true. Because you think to yourself who the F*ck is these guys and what F*cking right do they have to through my feelings out there for the whole F*cking world to see,hehe. Hate/Love or Love/Hate however you put it,one thing is for sure they hit you right in the gut. In the years that I have watched V.V. and the band,I have never come across somethng they have put together that hasn't touched me in one way or another. Anyways I'll stop boring you people with my thoughts. Have a great night people,if you don't like what I've said here,hay everyone has the right to feel whatever way they want about everything.

So many have wandered in and out of my life this past year. So this is one for all those who have come and gone. You were my night angel. You showed up at my hardest hours. You popped on and off. I wished you'd would never leave my side. I knew this was not to be. For that wasn't who you are. You wander where ever the winds called you to. You came and went as you pleased. I held all the pain and loneliness that came when you did. You understood me my angel of the night. You saw all of me ,even the things I showed no other. You drifted in and out as light of the sun does. You never let me down,not once. You always wandered back to me. Now time has faded as it does. Still not a whisper of you anywhere to be seen. I fell apart and pulled myself back together. You out of everyone could lift me up or pull me down. My angel of the night. You scared me at times. You cheered me up at times. Now I wonder where you have gone. Why you have not return. So my angel of the night, where are you. In all your wanderings can you not hear the call. There are people you have touched my angel. That call now to the winds of time for you. So my angel of the night, My wandering friend, where have you wandered off to now.

In the darkness you were falling. In the darkness I was falling. We wandered in the darkness. Looking for something we could see in the light. In the darkness sadness was lurking. In the darkness loneliness waits to entangle us. As we wandered in the darkness. We heard the heartbeat of others. We heard the screaming of souls of others. In the darkness we raced on to the unknown. As we race we fall into each other. As we fall the more we become the same. Rip bits of souls . Hallow shells of who we were. As we fall the more we lose the light of us. As the darkness takes us we move on. We find ourselves in the darkness. We know that we will rise from the ashes.

You were always the one who knew what to say. Out of all the dear ones you knew me the best. Yet we didn't always see eye to eye!! We played silly games with each other. In the end you were always there for me. Now that our time is done and over. I can't help but wish time was our friend. You knew me best of all the dear ones. I know you'll be back . But until then who'll be there for me. Who will I be there for. I'll miss you dearly. Be safe my friend, My brother!!

Words Unsaid. All from the heart. Words Unsaid. All rooted in heart. Words Unsaid. All scattered in the mind. Words Unsaid. All kisses never shared. Words Unsaid. All hugs never giving. Words Unsaid. All tears never released. Words Unsaid. All pain never showed. Words Unsaid. All lost in fear. Words Unsaid. All locked up within. Words Unsaid. All riping the soul. Words Unsaid. All that was unsaid.

My mind wanders tonight as the storm rolls over us. I think about how time rolls in and out. How so many things change. How so man things stay the same. I wonder how your heart turns like the tide. I wonder how you drift in and out. How sometimes your half/half. Light/Shadow at the same time. How time has changed us. Yet hasn't change us. How we cross each other. How your hot/ I'm cold. I'm light/ Your dark. Your tears/ I'm laughter. How we make no sense. How we do make sense. It's strang how we lasted this long. This world is mixed up. But not as mixed up as we are. So why try to be what we are not. Why not be just what we are. So now I'm done with my meanless wandering through my thoughts tonight.

Just feelings. Is all I have tonight,most of them or painful. I had someone who loved me. But it could never work out between us,because he lived in another state,and with my job,bills and life,we would never be together. Just no way that we could. Well I thought great I'll always be a lone wolf. Then some one came in to my life who lived only 45 mins away from me. Made my head spin and my heart skip. Things took off like a rocket. But as time went by sad things happen,he said he loved me and that he cared about me. Yet he puts everyone before me. His roommates,his fuck buddy,everyone and anyone. When i talked to him about it,he said I'm working on that,so gave him another shot and now left with a empty spot in me. If he loves me so much then why can't he tell the others to fuck off. Everytime he holds me,kisses me, everytime he loves me i can't wonder if he doesn't wish I was her. Or maybe i'm just cuting myself down again,who knows,i don't, but we'll see!!.

Oh,what can i say youe tease me in so many delightful ways,I wish that we could meet in reallife and just see what happens, think your very good at geting me going,hehe.Just wonder what would happen if we did meet in real life how far would it go,:)