xLx's blog: "Just Me"

The confines of my womanhood bog me down

Holding me underwater, struggling to breathe

Each move is a test of my endurance

Fightin forward for every step

Who am I, really?

Buried under so many roles

I strain to see myself for who I am

But the image is too often distorted

I long to break free of this life

To be someone with worth and meaning

I want to cast aside expectations of me

And find where I belong and fit in

As a woman I continue on each day

Yet feel alone in so many ways

The emptiness consumes me

And threatens to drown my soul

As a mother I dream of comfort

Of being a source of love for my child

I stuggle to balance my emotions

So that I can be what it is they need

Under all of this, what is left of me?

A shadow of a girl with so many dreams

A spirit longing for release and for wings

I am only what I am; it is all I can be.