Attitude SyN Juggalette Family's blog: "just here"

i am going to take a few minutes and just to the people that love me i love them also i want ot let a special person know that i really love them and that with what ever goes on the second of january i am always going to be here for her it doesnt matter if i am in a diffrent town or i am in a diffrent counrty cause she just doesnt understand how much i do love and care for her

why do things get so bad around this time of year i could not tell you that cause you find out that people are sick and you dont know how to deal with that i just want to say that i dont know what i am going to do if something ever happenes to that special person and they know who they are and this is for people that has been in my life right now it is so hard for me to understand what the hell is going on with life

i know that i have done alot of stupid shit in my life and the only person that i am hurting are the people around me and i am sorry to everyone that i have hurt i hope that you guys can foregive me

baby Thank you for being so loveing and so kind to me when we met i was this scared little girl .On the outside i was so tuff and you see threw it . and i am so thankful for that . Ihave never met someone like you that is so loveing and careing for me .When i am sad you are there to pick me up .and when you are sad i have a shoulder for you to cry on or i am listening for you to call my name .Baby the day we get married will be the most precious day of my life . Even though we are not i still consider you as my husband you are my soul mate you know me better than i know my self and for that I LOVE YOU so much for you being you and not being fake LOVE YOU your baby girl

i have just recently been talking to my sister and my family for the first time in my life a siter to me is a very specil person to me she is there if i need someone to talk to and if i am sad or feeling blue she would listen to me or whatever i need

i am almost 29 years old and just the other day i talked to my sister for the first time in a long time i lived with my father off and on if you want to call it that i was put in foster care till i was eighteen and i always wanted to talk to my family idont know my mother and the only thing that i want is a realtionnship with her before anything happens to her like it did to my father he passed away in decit will be a year in dec but the only thing i want is that all my family gets to now me for who i am my mother i just wabt her to be my best friend and for her to know her grandchildren

about two year ago all my friends and family didnt talk to me because i got into trouble and then it just went down hill from there had to spend two months in jail and not beable to see my children let tell you this the stupid shit we do for the pepole that we are suppose to care about or that are suppose to care about us but now that i have learnde my lesson and everything it is alot better i have learned from my mistakes but the one person that i did upset for a very long time would not talk to me for almost a year or more and i also looked up to her and still do and she knows who she is if it was not for her in my life i would not be the person that i am right now thanks you to my aunt and that i love you very much

if life gets hard what are you suppose to do . Have no clue i guess just get stressed out . Why that is not what you are suppose to do .